Category: just crap…

Steppin’ off the rollercoaster for a moment

Alrighty……..so we played the game with the owners of the house….They verbally agreed and accepted our offer last night.

We were out early yesterday evening, ran home and printed off all the papers, signed everything, scanned it into the computer and sent it back to the realtor.

We hadn’t heard anything by lunch time today and were feeling a little anxious. Bad Sign, eh?

Earlier this afternoon, we received news that they decided to change their minds. We understand that in BC a verbal agreement is supposed to be good until the paperwork gets signed, but apparently these guys don’t know that.

I know, I know…it’s not “official” until it’s a done deal. I know already….

The thing is…we really wanted the house. I hate saying that. I hate that I’ve lost something that we really wanted over two cruddy thousand dollars…….

They came back to us and said that we altered the deal – which we didn’t – and we even have the paperwork with their signatures on it to prove it, but they are refusing to sign off on the final paperwork and they’ve upped the price by $2000 and the problem is……There is no guaranteeing that they won’t jack us around a bit more before it’s all finalized. AND…..is there are these kinds of issues with them, then who knows what kinds of problems there are with the house that they are not disclosing.

So to explain where we are at……We are angry and upset and disappointed.

We sat out on our deck last night – dreaming about what we would do. We had the rooms laid out and it was going to be amazing. We had talked about the garden and then clothes line and about what we could do with the deck and how we were going to put the mater bedroom down in the rec room that opens off onto the deck with sliding doors and how it was going to be SO TOTALLY AWESOME.

Yah, I’m upset. We thought this was our house.

It’s frustrating. FRUSTRATING, I tell you.

The town home is gorgeous – or at least it has the potential to be gorgeous. I’ve already asked my dad – who owns a flooring company – about the kind of floors that I’d like to have in it, and yet….then I stopped. I don’t want to dream too much. I don’t want to be disappointed. BLURGH! SUCKS! GHAAAAAGH!

So, we’ve got an offer in and we are waiting to hear back about the town home. I’m not upset that we would be living in the town home….it’s nice and big and spacious. I’m just upset at what we lost….the yard, the clothes, the garden, the fence, the climbing tree, the deck….oh the deck…

But, it’ll all work out. I believe that even if I am upset.

Oh well! Now we are off to try to clear our heads from all this garbage. I hope that it works……..

edited to clarify…They came back and said that they would accept our offer, but wanted an additional $2000 that we had set aside to fix the plumbing and to professionally deal with two HUGE trees that have giant branches hanging over both the house and over the neighbors house and that could be a liability if they broke or fell. We feel that if they are willing to dick around over something that we had already decided upon as acceptable then what’s to stop them from dickin’ around before finally signing off on it all.

$2000 crappy dollars we had already gone up $3000 and now they are asking fro an additional $2000….it’s just frustrating.

It’s Now Official

Earlier this week we called the official beginning of summer.

Yes I realize that summer doesn’t begin until the 21st of June, but when we have to bring out the big monster black fan……

At that point, break out the sprinkler’s, the bathing suits and the slip and slide. Summer has begun.

About 4 years ago we bought this amazing fan.

Seriously, AMAZING!

It basically creates a hurricane force wind tunnel and woe be to whatever pieces of paper you might have left lying around. They have just been blown over into Alberta.

It was amazing and totally saved our lives on many hot and stagnant summer nights.

See, our house is particularly bad because even though the sun hits it’s zenith around 2-4pm in the afternoon and then outside typically starts to cool off…..that is only the starting point for the fiery pit of hell that our house becomes. We have a clay tile roof and while it keeps our house nice and cool until just after noon…..by noon it has started to absorb ALL of the heat of the sun and it just gets hotter and hotter and hotter and hotter. In the evening, there is a significant temperature difference between the outside temps and the temps inside the house. The house being so unbearably hot that all you want to do is get into a tub filled with ice until you start to turn blue.

Any way, we bought this fan and it was worth EVERY. SINGLE. PENNY. that we paid for it.

Problem was that we also had a 3-4 year old boy who loved to experiment….and those “normal human filters” that gently suggest that you should not do certain things….yah, those weren’t (aren’t always) in place.

So he would try to feed different things through the fan to see what would happen. For example, if you put a small piece of paper through, it would come hurtling out like a bullet. Or if you sprayed water through via a mister bottle, it sprayed water every where….fun, fun, fun! The scary one was when they fed string through the back of the fan and we had to cut it off the motor and from being tangled around the blades…..NOT. SO. MUCH. FUN!

One day when we weren’t paying enough attention, the kids managed to topple the fan over onto it’s back and so where it should have had tons of air that it could suck in through the engine mechanism…it had next to nothing – squishing through the carpet.

Apparently, we left the house and it ran like this for a while and then it QUIT. The engine died and no amount of tinkering (by Jon) could resuscitate the stupid machine.

The summer was almost over and so we just “stuck it out”. The next year we were moaning and complaining about how unbearable hot it was and how did we ever deal with the heat, when we finally remembered that we used to have this fan……..Oh yah – the fan…..

We went out to Canadian Tire and lo and behold, there was another fan exactly like our old one. We were SO excited to bring that thing back home…..

We have now pulled that fan back out of storage and Monday marked the first day that we pulled it out and it has made our place bearable….not amazing, but bearable…..

I can’t help but thinking about what we’ll get to do when we own our own place………we can buy A/C units if we want…..wouldn’t that be heavenly?

What do you do to cool down in the summer months?

Yah…….Hmmmmm?!?!?

I am SO grateful to those who asked me how the house hunt went.

Honestly, I am feeling so disappointed and discouraged with a few things in my life and feeling down and well….overwhelmed and….. to have some of you ask about me and my life – it makes me feel like someone cares and with the way I’m feeling….that’s a really nice thing. It’s a really REALLY nice thing. I don’t think I am really adequately expressing how good it made me feel to feel like someone out there cares……. I know that’s stupid thinking (the part where I feel like someone cares because of comments) ….but it’s where I’m at…

Okay! Here it goes….

The house hunt…we’ve been approved for a mortgage. In Vancouver, we’ve been approved for a very VERY modest mortgage. Like, we are looking for a town home…probably a 3 bedroom town home and most of the town homes that are available in our price range are….well…they are iffy! If we could find one with a rec. room in the basement, we could possibly make that into a room for the girls to share, but MANY if not most, of the town homes have NO YARD AT ALL.

If you’ve heard me talk about my kids at all especially Jeremy, then you KNOW that the kids need some where to be able to burn off some energy. We are not a TV or electronic entertainment family – in fact we’ve once again cut our cable. We unhooked the TV about 2 weeks ago and then today canceled the service because why are we paying for something that we are not using. It is initially difficult to wean the kids, but then, as if by magic, they become happy cheerful playing children instead of television zombies ready to snap the heads off each other in the event that one should stand between them and their beloved TV.

All of that to say that we need some sort of a yard….or at the very least SOME PLACE for the kids to play and to keep Siah safe while getting some fresh air.

For the very same cost in Walnut Grove….which is a part of Langely – which is 6 cities or about 35 minutes from Vancouver…..you can get a HOUSE with a YARD….that needs no fix up except to re-paint.

In Walnut Grove, we would be close to family….lots of family….it’s a HUGE family community…I have dreamed about living there for years…..

So which do we choose? Closer to work….like a LOT closer to work but with no yard and seriously compromising space for the family.

Or Further from work, (it’s about half way from where we are now and we have been commuting for an hour each way since January) but with a house, yard, community, family, and enough living space… We could possibly bus to work in just over an hour if we needed to.

So, I am conflicted……I want a house. I want to be able to plant a veggie garden. I want the kids to be able to play outside. I want a place where the kids will WANT to bring their friends home to “hang out”. I want the kids to not feel like we have compromised them and their needs for our “work”. I want them to be comfortable and happy. I want us to be comfortable and happy. I really want a house. I don’t really want a town house.

And, then we are getting comments about how we “need” to be closer, and about how it’s better to live closer and that we will need to compromise. I do recognize that there are compromises but I want to compromise where my kids don’t lose out. We could live a little bit closer (but not in Vancouver) but there would be NO family around in the event that we would need to ask them to help them out.

We are not expecting our family to raise our kids as we go and do our “job” but sometimes we do need family and there is a better chance of having them available if we are closer and slim to none chance that they’d be available if we lived further away (from them).

So that is the whole house thing……FUN, EH?

I’m also struggling with feeling like what I’m doing (at work) is pointless. I’m way to early in this game to be feeling this way, but in someways it feels like I’m trying to run against the current and after 5 months of running against the current while at the same time trying to not rock any boats that are floating past me – I’m tired and frustrated!

I LOVE to be able to organize and work with structure and to create and make things easier. I get frustrated when it feels like there are things outside of my influence that I am relying on to get done so that everything else can also get done and those original things don’t get done and then that effects me and my “effectiveness”. That probably made no sense but think of domino’s….if the original ones are not knocked over then the rest don’t get knocked over either….you need to start at the beginning and you are counting on the beginning ones to start and complete the task. When they don’t get done….then it effects everything. Does that make sense? If not, then oh well….

I also feel like we are living in limbo land. We want to be able to sign the girls up for Late French Immersion School, but if we don’t know where we are going before school is out, then we can’t do that….there there is no guarantee that we will even be able to get them into the program…. At this rate, if we don’t make a decision, then the kids could still be in the school where we currently are, and if that’s the case, then I feel like I might be a little bit crazy in September after trying to do the whole kids out of school and work and commute forever and ever and just the thought of it all it messing with my head.

I feel like I really need to get settled. I want to get settled. This is year number two of unsettled-ness and I’ve about had it. I need the stability in my life. I do SO MUCH BETTER when things are stable.

At this point, I feel like I’m going to start whining about my life and so now I will stop. Or else you will hear a lot of whining and moaning and no one really wants to hear that.

So that is where we are at…..I’d love to say that everything was awesome and amazing but honestly that’s not how I’m feeling right now.

I’m feeling pretty discouraged. I know that it’s just a “feeling” and that I’ll feel differently soon, but right now….this is where I’m at. Warts and all…..life is fun(ny). There are ups and down and if you ride the waves as opposed to fighting them – you don’t get quite as tired out as if you try to fight through it.

And so I ride through this bit of a down turn in my life…..

Ripped Off

There are aspects of myself that I absolutely LOVE and then there are some things that I can’t stand.

The fact that I have dark hair and light skin – I’m okay with that. The fact that I have hair on my upper lip – not so cool with that – and because of the previous mentioned dark hair and light skin it means that it’s obvious that I have a mustache.

I don’t shave or bleach, but I do wax the suckers right off of there. Yes, it’s hurts like a bugger, but that’s the price I pay for looking a little less manly. As much as I’m into natural stuff, I’m not so into going “au naturale” that I’m okay with my mustache. Once He – lets call him Harry – gets to the point where when I look in the mirror all I can see is this black hairy caterpillar on top of my lip….then pretty much everything else takes second priority.

For example, this morning……Siah’s early morning wake up call for a little mommy and me time was at 4:25am. But, we’re talking about a kid who previously (as in 2 months ago) was still waking up 2-3 times a night so I’m happy with the straight through ’till early morning routine. When He fell back asleep – I WAS AWAKE. I could have gone and run a marathon. Well, not technically, but who’s getting technical at 4:30 in the morning – SERIOUSLY!

So, I did think about getting up, but quickly dismissed, hugged my pillow and went back to sleep. I needed to tak e a shower this morning….it had gotten beyond the I can fake this with a rag and some soap and LOTS of hairspray. I actually HAD to take a shower….and I woke up after 7am……it was 7:05am to be precise.

I took off like a banshee ripped through the shower and then began the ardous task of doing my hair. I like my hair to look good and I typically hate it the first day that I wash it. It needs to be a little bit dirty to REALLY WORK! So, I moussed it. I blow dried it. I added a little hairspray and then curled it with my fabulous bendy curlers….and while doing my hair….Harry just kept taunting me. Every time I’d try to look in the mirror to see what I was doing with the curlers, Harry would wave at me and kept getting it the way. It was really hard to concentrate with all his distraction techniques.

I finally had enough. I rolled up the last two curlers by feel and opened up the medicine cabinet to try to find the “Harry Removal Kit”. Jon asked me what I was doing and then tried really hard to oh-so-casually mention that, “Wouldn’t a tiny bit of hair look better than a giant red welt on top of my lip?”

Nope! Really it wouldn’t, and this stuff that I had was really good and there shouldn’t be too much of a red welt, and even if there was – I could handle that better than Harry gettin’ all excited and waving around making a big scene.

And so I did it.

We said goodbye to Harry today. He will be gone for about 6 weeks – maybe even 3 months if I’m lucky. He always manages to find his way back, but for now……things are good.

And this kit…..honestly….THE BEST. I went out and asked Jon if he could see and ANGRY RED WELT! and his response was that it was difficult to see with all the make up I had covered it up with. What he didn’t know was that “you never wax and then clogg up all the pores with make up – that’s just begging for a zitty mess.” I had no make up on….I’m trying to figure out if I needed to be angry with him for saying that I had a crapload of make up caked on my face BUT…..I’m just so happy to be Harry-less that pretty much nothing can spoil my good mood.

Well, the only thing that puts a teeny-tiny damper on my excitement is that we are going House hunting today and well…frankly….it’s FREAKIN’ ME OUT!

How do we know if it’s the right one? What if we make a bad choice? What if we have creepy neighbors? What if the house is a…….. lemon – I know that’s what you call a bad car…what do you call a bad house? I am not one to look forever and ever and ever and ever and EVER! I can make anything work, but this is a HIUGE decision…….AWWWWWKKKKKK!

So, I’m just going to go and look and pretend that we are house shopping for someone else. Yah! That’s what i’m gonna do. I’ll just pretend. How’s that for some awesome coping skillz? I ROCK!

I’ll come back and report on how cruddy the houses were later or not….oh…and I’ve been stress eating this week and there is NO WAY that I’ve lost weight this week and pretty much the only way that I could lose weight is if I lost a limb…and frankly I’m not wiling to sacrifice one of those at this point and so I’m trying to ride out this week making smart choices and aiming for next Saturday. I’ll still post the damage so ya all can see what stress does to me. It’s AWESOME! in a totally not awesome way.

Alright! I’m gone, but I’ll probably tweet during the day – ya know…if you’re interested in seeing what we’re up to and what amazing pieces of work fit within the confines of our mortgage.

Just Clicking Away

I keep clicking over here and looking at this page and then clicking away as I’m not really sure what to say.

I went to see Geli at her Track & Field Day today….

So Proud of Her...

She was in high jump and discus throw, but we could only stay and see her do the high jump and well, she had two tries and didn’t make the lowest attempt, but I would say that 90% of the girls trying didn’t even clear the pads never mind the bar and so they were definitely weeding out the riff raff right off the bat.

I had this whole post in my head about how the “middle school PONG” was so bloody strong at the stadium, that you would have thought that it was an enclosed space. WOW! I can’t even fathom helping out at the school if the open air stadium smelled that bad. I do realize that it was a hot sunny day and that the majority of these kids are full on hitting puberty and also have no working knowledge of either deodorant or showers, but seriously….I was truly amazed at the stench that sat like fog in that place. It was UNBELIEVABLE!

Click on the picture to see some other shots from the event.

Then Jon and I headed out to our weekly Sushi Date. This is pretty much our only “protected” time of the week. Pretty much NOTHING messes with out one hour Thursday Sushi Date.

Siah was too cute. He loves coming with us and we love having him While it’s not the same as a NO CHILD date, it’s still pretty awesome.

Tea Time

We are going into Vancouver tomorrow to look at a bunch of town homes and one house in the hopes of finding something within our price range to be able to move into this summer.

I’m equally excited and terrified and annoyed and worn out. It’s an awesome ball of emotions and probably what’s wearing me completely out right now.

And that is why I keep coming here, wanting to post, but clicking away. I don’t know what to say and like this post shows…..I feel like I’m just verbally diarrhea-ing on you all. I LOVE this place. It’s MY PLACE. It’s my place to talk and chat and emote and I feel so tapped out that I’m not even sure what to talk about or chat about or even to emote about.

I have pictures lined up in iPhoto that I need to upload, and now it feels like they are so old that what is the point….I think that all the travel and uncertainty are just really wearing on me.

I need to get settled and we are working on that. This has just been a very loooooooong year with a freakload of commuting and well….I’m tired.

Is it summer, yet? I need a vacation.

I’d love a child free vacation, but I’m still nursing and so that’s a ways off yet.

That’s a whole ‘nuther post….if I could ever get enough emotional energy to write about. Yes, I am extended nursing. And I realize that Siah is at the age were others think that he (and I) should just stop and well….I’m not planning to yet. I am expecting the comments to start any time now and realize that there are some who are not commenting, but are sure thinking their comments and while I’d love to say that I don’t really care. It’s not the truth. I don’t like to be judged. I try desperately hard to not judge and I’d rather talk about “why” I can chose to make this decision for my son and myself and my family and that we could agree to be different.

But..it’s a big long topic and one I’m not going to try and deal with today. Maybe another day….soon????

I’d also like to talk about working outside of the home. Again, another day…

Also, moving into Vancouver…..BIG FREAKIN’ ISSUE……and terribly expensive and so against what we want in our lives and yet so much a part of what we want in our lives…..and once again…that freaking dichotomy……..

Also, Jeremy….he is at least a few posts in and off himself……oh man…

Well, I’m gonna sign off and hope for better things tomorrow.

ps. Can I just say that after using my father-in-laws camera, I HATE my stupid little camera. I LOVE his Nikon D90 and when we have a spare $grand+ kicking around I’d love to get one.

Perception……..Generationally!

It was funny to watch the kids this morning…..

They were sitting at the kitchen table having breakfast. We had made a lovely bowl of hot oatmeal and the little glasses of orange juice looked so lovely and refreshing sitting on the crisp white place mats. The silverware was all polished and it was all so worth the effort that it had taken to prepare. The extra hours worth of sleep that I had given up to prepare a lovely meal for my family was SOOOOOOOO worth it.

Ha HA HA HA HA HA! That was all just a joke…..I started typing and the part about the kids at the kitchen table and even the oatmeal is true. The rest of it….well, I just got carried away with a lovely picture in my head of what it could have been….had I not slept in. Reality, people. REALITY!!!

Siah picked up a card with a picture of Jeremy that we had just bought as part of a fund raiser at the school.

Card Phone

They come around at the end of the year and take pics of the kids and then the school gets part of the proceeds of whatever sale they make….I have no idea why I told you all that. It must be the 8 THOUSAND gallons of snot that is clogging up my brain right now. I FEEL AWESOME. Like you have never felt more awesomer……I know that’s not a word, but just go with me, people.

Anyhooooo….. Siah picked up this card and pretended to punch buttons and said into the card – “Hello? Hello?” Like he was talking into a phone. Xandra reaches over and picks up a banana off the table and proceeds to have a conversation with Siah on their respective imaginary phones.

Banana Phone

It’s amazing the difference in perception that a few years brings.

To Xandra, the banana looks like a phone….she’s from the generation that had phones around where the handset looked like a banana…or at least similar to it.

For the greater part of Siah’s life, what he would equate as a phone has been a cell phone and the majority of the cell phones that he’s been allowed to hold or touch or that he sees are the small little cell phones.

I think that its really interesting to see how even within just a few short years that our perception can change. What was normal can become old or “not normal”. I wonder what we will consider normal in a few years…..It’s a weird thought.

Okay, now I have to say that I’m giving myself an out here. I am thinking that there is a good chance that this post is interesting to no one by myself. And if that’s the case, then I am totally blaming my lack of funny (or heck, even just interesting) on this cold that is threatening to ooze out of my ears. I feel like crap and am so hoping that I’ll wake up tomorrow and be over the worst of it all…..I can hope, right?

One or the Other

So, we had Geli’s 12 Year Sleep Over Birthday Party last night. I was a bit apprehensive as she had initially invited 10 girls and last we had heard 6-8 were going to show up. I was expecting CHAOS and NOISE to rule in our house last night.

Instead, 3 little girls showed up and only one was “allowed” to sleep over as the other had to be at a family function early the next morning and the other little girl had been grounded. So, Geli and her friend were in bed and asleep by midnight and then woke up at 6:30am.

Jon and I have been geeking out and setting up our new 13 inch Macbook Pros. He’s geeking and I’m just along for the ride….right?

We went to bed shortly after midnight and it was then, that all the fun started.

Jeremy came crying and stumbling into our room, moaning that he was barfing. He vomited on the carpet, on the bathroom floor and then finally made it to the sink where he continued along his merry barfing ways. In between heaves, he managed to inform us that he had also christened the main bathroom sink as well.

OH JOY!!!!!

I hate barf. With everything in me…..I would rather wash the toilet than deal with barf, and if you know me at all – you will know that the germaphobe in me despises the toilet and all it’s germ infested bits. So, seeing as Jon was dealing with the “bulk” of the mess in our room – I headed to the main bathroom to clean out the sink. Serious nastiness as I had to scoop the crap out with my hands……and well….I’ll just stop there. It was awful.

We got everything cleaned up – it took a while – and got Jerermy back in his own bed. I really didn’t want him in mine if he was going to barf again, and I was sure that he was going to have another go at it all. I was wired at this point and sent a quick text off to twitter about it all….I was seriously awake. I lay in bed for a while and then Siah woke up……he nursed and nursed and nursed and all the while popping off and on as…..he has a runny nose and can’t breathe. OH SO MUCH FUN!!!!

After who knows how long, Jon finally took him to try and settle him down and well….lets just say that it didn’t go over too well. Then Jeremy woke up again with more barf and then Siah woke up again, and between the two of them they tag teamed the night away.

The most amazing part is that they were both actually asleep from about 6:30am until 8am. That was SOOOOO nice. Who’da ever thought that I’d be grateful for an hour and a half of sleep, eh?

And then….when we finally crawled our tired bodies outta bed – we realized that we had NO COFFEE. Isn’t that horrid? We did find enough for one cup of coffee each in the back of the freezer, but Jon had to make a quick Starbucks run….mmmmmm, Heavenly!

We were supposed to go and have a nice family brunch with my family today and I was really looking forward o being together with everyone, but didn’t feel that it was fair to take my sick kid and expose everyone else to his germy goodness. So, we stayed at home.

This was both a HUGE DISAPPOINTMENT and a MAJOR BLESSING.

I really wanted to see my family, and we’ve been crazy busy. The forced down day today has been awesome. We just stayed in our jammies ALL DAY LONG. We’ve done absolutely nothing today. Watched a little hockey. Played on some computers. Fed the kids. And now, Jon is making dinner and then we are sending them all to bed.

I’m hoping that no one is sick tonight. I need a few straight hours of sleep. Mmmmmmmm, SLEEEEEEEEEP!

Randomness

No, it’s not fluke. We’ve had maybe one accident per day, but other than that Siah’s been dry and using the potty. I’ve used a diaper for one nap, and other than that….only night times. It’s hard to believe that this baby diaper stage is over. Wow!

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I’m totally frustrated with my computer. I have 22 lines on the screen and it it so freaking slow that I almost walked away from it tonight. It’s taking FOREVER for any page to load and I’m not really sure what’s going on. FRUSTRATING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hold on, Baby! Just give a bit longer.

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I did all the laundry in my house, made bean soup from dry beans (It was amazing. Siah had 3 bowls – that’s not normal) and I managed to vacuum my carpets. Now, I just need to take a shower and I can call it a day.

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It’s raining and I’m cold and I think I’m going to start my period soon, but I’m not really sure. Nursing kind of throws my cycle outta wack. I’m sure any guy readers were just dying to know that….You’re welcome!

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Going into Vancouver tomorrow and I’m dreading the drive. Already. Silly, Silly Me!

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I just listened to myself talk on CD for 25 minutes and well….what I sound like in my head is WAAAAAAAYYYYY cooler than that. I really don’t like my voice and I say, “Um” a lot.

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Yesterday we were having lunch and Geli asks for a word that rhymes with hat – the kids start listing off words and Jeremy throws a few suggestions out there and then says, “shat”….and it took all that Jon and I had in us to not start laughing our heads off.

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Then later that night Jeremy wanted to do something and Jon had said no and I was backing Jon up and so Jeremy was not getting what he wanted. So he told me that he was so angry…..f.u.c.k.i.n.g…..yah, he spelled it out for me – just like that…. I told him that was not cool and he says to me, “What? I didn’t say it or anything?” Yah, well son, you thought it and so it’s just the same thing…..little boy!!!!!! MAN!!!!

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My sister came out to see me today. It was so nice to talk with her. It’s been WAY TOO LONG and I’ve missed her so much. We need to do something soon. LOVE YOU!

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Siah has slept through the night two nights in a row and I’m hoping he pulls a third. I could really use the extra sleep……although last night I was awake at 4am for no good reason. Just habit, I guess?

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I think I’m gonna go and talk that shower now and head to bed. Gotta get up early tomorrow to get things ready for a long day. Hopefully I’ll have something interesting to talk about tomorrow.

Barrelling along……

Hey…..great post over here today….go and leave her a comment….oh, ah, er….that would be me, eh?

Well, feel free to leave me a comment – ya know….if ya want to.

Does this count as a post for today or am I really scraping at the bottom of the barrel, here?

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I did post that last night, but I had been thinking about it all day and well, it just really hit me hard…It really hit me just how hard my kids have been and continue to be affected by the traumas in our life over the past few years. See, we don’t have bad dreams – like never – and about a “loss” well, it just hit me hard….I think I’ve said that already, right?….I’m tired.

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Siah is feeling better, and was only up twice last night…we are definately on the upward trend. Here’s hoping for a really, REALLY good night tonight.

And it’s ON again….

The power has just come back on and thank goodnes….

I mean, I had the Internet to surf and forums to browse and blogs to read and a post to come up with and no music and nothing to do…..it was horrid.

Normally I would welcome the break that a power outage brought, but today I just wanted some time and space.

Siah’s not feeling well and he’s been a giant clinging bawl of whining, miserable, feverish mess and well, I feel like I’ve been nursing him ALL FREAKING DAY.

Which, normally, I love “our” time, but then again, I don’t have to deal with “our” time for hours and hours on end per day.

Now, it is 8:40pm! The kids are a bit wired because, HEY! Power Outage means that life is so cool what with all the candles and no electrical things to occupy our time and soooooooo……when the power does come back on….then we have to get all stressed and run around and flick on every light and play with every electrical machine at super loud volume because……seriously….we cannot even handle the peace and quiet and not being plugged into something.

I think it’s bedtime, right???? I mean, we gotta get back on that school schedule sometime before school starts………on Monday!!!!

Oh Yah! There it is. It is totally happening. They are all going back to school on Monday and I get to try and put some order back to this thing I call my home. Only 2 more days and just three more sleeps. WoooooooooooHooooooooooo!

Alright – apparently when I ask if the husband cantake the baby and play with him for a few minutes – that some how translates into picking him up carrying him into the next room, putting him down and playing on the computer…..so I now have a whiney baby once again attached to me. It’s AWESOME – you should get yourself one.