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I told him to not touch the tree so he's upset and hiding from me. #myhappynico #butitssparkly #somanyballs
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Making pirogies with my big helper #judahzane #baconcheesepirogies
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Treasures: past and present #grandmakennedysornaments
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Tree trimmed…..and with only a little chaos #christmaschaos #holidaycheer #familyfun
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Sleeping Bella #isabellaruthagnes #beenalongnight #mommasgirl
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No Escape……


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I'm huddled on this corner of my couch……..wishing I could escape to anywhere; whilst at the same time, ever so acutely aware that there is no escape. #specialneedsmayhem
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Dear Family and Friends,

I have so many thoughts whizzing around in my brain and it seems like such an effort to try to wrestle those thoughts into some order…….. to be able to present them in a way that they make sense and adequately portray what’s going on, both internally and externally.

I’m not sure what’s going on, but the “crazy” seems to have intensified in our home over the last month. Is it the change in seasons? The amount of daylight we are getting…..or not getting? I have no idea……what I do know is that it’s hard. It seems like each child is struggling more than usual. Times that by 5 and well…….I’m not sure that I have the right words to describe it…..

I’m exhausted.

In some ways I want to explain how tough things have been. I want to explain it, so that if you are someone who feels like I have let them down or just not been available……that you will understand.

On the other hand…..I have no energy to explain or make excuses.

I’m not broken to the point of devastation, but it takes every bit of energy (not that I “have” but……) that I can “muster” to just keep moving forward.

I feel like I’m a little bit further behind on everything with every passing day.

The fall/winter season is not necessarily my friend; and unfortunately, this past summer was a tough one for me. I couldn’t understand why…..until I got some bloodwork done which showed that I was anemic. Which explains why even just existing was tough this summer….

I’m finally starting to bounce back from that, but……here we are heading into the “dark months”….

I don’t want to write all of this because then I feel like people will pity me….which is not my intent.

I do want to write this because I’m desperate to be understood and accepted……who isn’t?

I don’t want to write this because I don’t have a lot of time to invest into anything outside of just existing.

I do want to write about how special needs parent cannot do “this” alone.

I don’t want to write about this because I’m only one of many who are doing their very best to hold “it” together….some, so much better than me.

I do want to write about this because it’s so important that other parents who are doing their very best and yet feeling so inadequate and alone, know that they are not alone and that all they can do is their best…..and their best…..might not be good enough….but it has to be enough, because that’s all they’ve got.

I don’t want to write about all of this because it’s such a tough road and sometimes it’s too much.

I do want acknowledge that it is a tough road and doing the best I can at any given moment……has to be enough.

It has be enough, even though I am painfully aware that I may let you down in my effort to survive. For that, I really am sorry.

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Love the way the mud along the paths has frozen in layered ice crystals. #langley #ice #frozen #naturesart
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These knitted up so quick and they are so cute. #gelijoy #fingerlessgloves #knitting
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Frosted window panes…… #itsbeginningtolookalotlikechristmas #coldlangleymorning
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Dressed and ready for the Grad Cruise #gelijoy #grad2014 #wgssgrad2014
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