Have you ever felt like God couldn’t possibly understand what you are going through? I know that I have.
I’ve even said, “But God, you never went through “this”. “This” is huge and awful. How could you possibly know what this feels like?
I remember saying that to God years ago, when I felt so betrayed by some people. And He said to me, “I, too, have been betrayed. I know exactly what that feels like and it’s hard and devestating. Especially when it’s people you think you can trust and who claim to love you.”
I remember when Nathaniel died and I wanted to scream “..but you never had a son who died…” oh wait…
I remember crying out to Him, in pain and confusion, “God, I hurt so bad. It hurts to breathe, to move. I feel like I’m dying. When have you ever felt like this?”
Ya, I don’t know that I’m the most reverent when I talk to God but He loves me even when – and maybe especially when – I’m feeling raw and broken.
It was a few days later that I came across this verse and it hit me straight to my heart.
Jesus was in the garden of Gethsemane. And He knew. He knew he was about to be betrayed. He knew that He was giving
His life for ones who both did and didn’t believe. He knew the agony that was coming. He knew. He wished he didn’t have to go through it all but was willing to because of love.
He said to His friends,
Matthew 26:38 TPT
“My heart is overwhelmed and crushed with grief. It feels as though I’m dying. Stay here and keep watch with me.”
He knows. He really does know. And because He KNOWS – You can trust that He is with you, staying and keeping watch with you. You are never alone.
He knows.