Another Monday Morning Weigh-In

Well, I normally dread these Monday morning weigh-ins and yet this weekend……not so much!

And wouldn’t you know it, for all of my not dreading it…..I gained weight this week. How’s that for fun?

The scale showed a clear 193.8…..that’s UP 1.6 pounds from last week.

While I’m not happy about that – I’m also not devastated. I’m still exercising (4 times this week) and I’d guess that I just need to be a little more aware of what I put in my mouth this week.

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I will get “there”. In my mind, “there” means healthy and happy with myself. That’s what I’m working on….. While at times it may seem like an uphill battle, every positive choice that I make takes me one step closer to that goal.

I think that for me, one thing that I’m learning is that it’s all about choices and consequences. If I choose to eat healthy and to exercise, I’ll reap the rewards that lifestyle brings. On that other hand, I am also responsible for the choices to eat crap and to take a day (or two or three or so) off exercising.

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While once in a while “treats” are okay – it really needs to be once in a while, and not “the norm”. I think I’m learning…..slowly….oh so slowly. It’s not that I’ve not known this in the past, but I’ve just not really accepted it or lived my life as if these rules applied to me. Like I said, I’m learning…..

I don’t really see a big difference between these photos and the previous ones, but that’s okay. I’m feeling good and I know that I’ve lost 10 lbs and for right now…..that’s good. It will come. I will be healthy. I believe it.

Monday Morning Update

So, another Monday has rolled around and the kids are off to school and I’m headed off to coffee with a dear friend shortly.

Jon is cooking some breakfast – eggs and homemade sourdough bread…..YUM!

I’m sitting here in my clean and tidy home and today feels like a GREAT DAY.

It doesn’t hurt that when I stepped on the scale this morning I was down to 192.2lbs.

YAH!!!!! That’s 5.2 lbs down since Sept 28th and from August 9th (when I started exercising)…..it’s 10lbs+/- that I’ve lost.

Although, if I’m totally honest, I will have to admit that the weight loss (this week) was from a really cruddy week of being sick, and not from extra diligent and careful effort on my part. I ate soup, soup and more soup and I managed to drag myself out to exercise ONCE (on Friday) and…..it was BRUTAL!

I think that saying that I did about half the class is an overstatement. I guess that’s the fallout from spending the week on the couch.

I am feeling SO MUCH BETTER and aside from just being a tiny bit tired….it’s as if last week never even happened.

I’ve been frustrated for a while at how tired I’m feeling. It’s been particularly frustrating because WHY AM I EXERCISING AND NOT FEELING ANY BETTER? After two months at this, I should be able to do a set without feeling like I’m dying, right?

Then I started wondering about my Iron levels. See, I cut out red meat back in the summer. If I don’t absolutely HAVE TO, I’m not eating it. I feel really cruddy when I eat it…like it’s physically noticeable how hard it is for me to digest and so….I choose to stop eating it, and VOILA – I feel better! But, like I said, I wondered if I might have a bit of a low iron issue – due to other issues that I’m just not gonna talk about right now – trust me on this one…..honestly!

Well, This past weekend we went out and got a Iron Supplement and I’ve been taking it since Saturday and the difference is already noticeable.

I’m hoping that I’ll feel a bit more energized soon.

I’m back at the exercise this week. I am noticing changes in my clothes and that adds a tiny bit of extra incentive to keep going. The clothes I wore yesterday honestly felt “frumpy” because they were a bit too loose, so I’m gonna need to ransack my closet and figure out which clothes actually work and which ones need to get shoved to the back corners…..hopefully forever.

It is hard to keep going when you don’t see “things” happening, but I am seeing that perseverance is paying off. This is no quick fix deal. It’s a life style…..made ONE. CHOICE. at a time…..for every good choice there is a positive reaction (eventually) and for every poor choice there is an equally poor consequence……

I’m working towards making the positive choices.

ps. I’ll try to get Jon to take a picture of me today and I’ll add it later…….

On Addition and preparation…….

Okay, so I had some great feedback and encouragement about the weight…..

THANK YOU! THANK YOU! THANK YOU!

I’m serious. I know…..like really KNOW that I am in fact losing inches. I put on a pair of pants today that I wore a month ago and they were tight….like muffin top tight. It was HAWT! And yes…I wore them anyway! How sad is that?!?

Anyway, I put them on this morning and……not only did I fit into them, but they were loose.

I have lost my measuring tape….I think the kids have taken it so I really have no idea what the actual measurement is now.

I just need to stay focused on my goal of being “Healthy” and not so focused on the skinny.

I have some thoughts to share on the whole skinny thing but I’ll save that for later. I had this revelation the other day…it was interesting……..

Anyway, I did make up my meal plan yesterday and then promptly ignored it…..or maybe I should say that I rearranged it.

Here is how I worked it on originally….

Monday: Pizza
(We never did do the pizza last week. We had some family come over for dinner and threw on some burgers instead)

Tuesday: Hard Shell Tortilla’s
We didn’t do this last week either….we ended up having a “scrounge for yourself ” night.

Wednesday: Soup, Salad, and Bisquits
I made some fresh Chicken soup yesterday and it smelled like Thanksgiving dinner. I made enough for 2 batches)

Thursday: Salmon, Rice & Veggies

Friday: Bar-B-Que Chicken & Potatoes

Saturday: THANKSGIVING DINNER with my Family

Sunday: Leftovers

That’s how I planned the week, but I never did make it out to the grocery store to pick up a few items that I needed and so the pizza didn’t happen last night. Instead, we ate one of the batches of soup. I am not sure if I’m going to go ahead and eat the second batch on Wednesday or if we’re going to swap and have the pizza on Wednesday.

I’ll wing it when tomorrow afternoon comes.

This is why I LOVE having a meal plan. I still have flexibility to change if needs be, but on days where I have no time…it is so immensely helpful. Not to mention so much nicer for the kids. Someone mentioned that their mom did this when they were kids and that they LOVED knowing what was coming.

I seriously hear the question, “What’s for dinner?” a bazillion times a day. Okay, maybe not a bazillion….but the kids do start asking even before they have eaten breakfast. Which….honestly…is SO FRUSTRATING! because….well, I haven’t had my coffee yet and just eat your breakfast and don’t ask stupid questions….. GAH!

So as long as I plan, and then remember to write it out on the family calendar, so that the kids can see….it not only helps with staying on top of the daily meals, but it eliminates SO MANY annoying questions.

And seriously….who likes annoying questions anyway, eh?

Yup – And here it is…..

Alrighty so guess what? I gained weight this week.

How’s that for a bummer?

Here it is Monday morning and I’m supposed to weigh in and so i stepped on the scale this morning and…..

198.2lbs

HOW THE CRAP DOES THAT HAPPEN?

Yah…well…it’s that oh so special week of the month.

And for whatever reason I gain….as in… I stepped on the scale one day and was down at 194……and then the next morning I was right back up to 200.

I didn’t eat anything weird or different….this is just my fun yo-yo monthly weight fluxuations.

It is VERY discouraging, but because I know to expect it….well, no, it’s still discouraging even though I know to expect it.

I do feel puffy and my fingers feel squishy…that’s where I can really feel the “bloat”. So, I’m just gonna keep on exercising (I made it to class 5 days this week – YAH) and watching what I’m eating and I’m hoping that my next weigh in, things’ll be back to normal.

I might even have a picture for next week’s….if I can remember to get Jon to take one.

Well, I’ve gotta go and plan my weeks meals and tidy the house and fold 80 bazillion loads on laundry that are currently in a mountain on my bedroom floor. But, HEY! They’re clean, at least…..and COFFEE….that’s the very next thing on the to-do list.

I’m gonna leave you with a little song that I’m currently grooving on right now….I LOVE this version.

Monday Morning Weigh In……..With Purpose

Home Makin’ Girl was talking about weight loss last week and threw a shout out to see if anyone wanted to join her as she walked this weight loss journey.

Seeing as I’m already walking that road, I figured “Hey! Why not do this with some others?

It’s almost always more fun to do things with someone(s) than it is to do it alone.

So, Last Tuesday – which was when she wrote about this – I had actually stepped on the scale that morning and it rang out loud and proud at 197.4 lbs.

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So I said that I’d take a picture of myself to go along with the weight, and I’ll be keeping a record of what’s going on here.

I’m hoping that putting it out here, makes it a little easier to stick to my “plan” or at the very least that I’ll think twice about shoving that extra piece of “whatever” in my mouth.

I’m taking an exercise class 3-5 times a week and so I’m happy with that.

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I started just under 2 months ago at just over 200lbs and while I’ve not noticed a huge weight loss, I have noticed a fairly decent drop in inches. I don’t know exactly what those inches are, but I am fitting into clothes that I wore when I was 175lbs and quite a bit flabbier than I am now.

It is frustrating that I’m still heavier as I’d really like the weight to go, but it helps a little that I am slimming or toning. I do believe that weight loss will come…..at least that’s what I keep telling myself.

With all of that being said…..here we are and it’s Monday Morning and my weight this morning was…..

196.2 lbs.

This is a loss of 1.2 pounds.

While I wish it was more….I can be happy that it was a loss and not a gain. YAH!

I’ll be updating a bit more regularly, or at least that’s my plan.

Anyone else want to join us? You can update in my comments or link back to yourself or whatever you want. It’s just fun to know that others are there for you and understand what you’re up against.

ps. I was just headed out to my class and had Jon snap a picture of me rockin’ my work out gear.

Holding myself back!

Yup, I’ve been holding myself back.

You might be wondering if this is a good thing or not and…well, it is!

I’ve had these amazing lightbulb moments recently and you know how when something hits you as HUGE, or LIFE CHANGING or ALTERING that you want to share…..well, this is one of my moments and I’m gonna share….m’kay?

I’ve been exercising for over 3, almost 4 weeks now and while I’m not thrilled with the weight loss (haven’t really lost anything. I’m hovering between 196 and 202 and that sucks). There are other things that I’ve definitely noticed as positive effects from the exercise.

I’m needing less sleep. I feel stronger. I can do more and more of the class each time with better technique and skill. These are all positives. I can see and feel muscles developing (under the nice layer of fat that I’m hoping will start to melt soon). I’m excited to go to the class and feel AMAZING when the class is done. These are all good things, eh?

I’m working on my diet to find the right balance of food and calories that will fuel my body and help me to start loosing.

I will admit that I’ve felt very discouraged by how hard I feel like I’m working and the fact that I don’t see the weight coming off, BUT…..I am trying to focus on me getting healthy and strong FOR LIFE and not just for weight loss. I believe the weight loss will come…..or so I keep telling myself.

I’m also learning more about myself and having these little “lightbulb moments” during the class which then translate into more thought provoking times outside of class.

I am a highly organized (heck you could call it anal) type of person. My mind moves so fast……ALL THE TIME. Trying to shut it off or at the very least slow it down is a major undertaking. I find that I’m constantly thinking of what comes next. I’m constantly trying to figure out what happens in the future so that I can plan or organize for it so that it will all run smooth and then everyone will be able to enjoy life. (another realization just hit me – BLAM!!!! – man….I’ll be processing this one today some…..hmmmmmm)

I realized one class that I was so tired and overwhelmed because in my head I was running through how long there was still in the class and how much we still had left to do and which exercises that were hard I still had to do and how long until the easy ones started…………

My thoughts were focused so far ahead of myself and I realized that I was exhausted just thinking about what I still needed to accomplish. I was totally psyching myself out and was completely sapping any energy that I might have had to do the exercise that I needed to be doing right at that moment.

I tried very hard to bring myself back to the present, and to focus on what was in front of me and to just take it one step at a time, but honestly…..finishing that class was very difficult.

I went into the next class purposing to stay right in the moment and to not race ahead and while I had to reign myself in a few times…..I did WAY better and actually found that I had the energy to do the class and I wasn’t wasted by the time the class was finished. In fact, I was surprised at how fast the class seemed to zoom by. It was awesome.

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about how this applies in my everyday life.

And….well…..it really does apply.

I know that I’ve got a busy, BUSY fall that needs to be planned and organized and while I love to plan and organize – I’ve been letting it all overwhelm me slightly. I know that I can do it all. I know that it’s not too much. I even enjoy it. And so I’ve promised myself that I will view the over all picture lightly. I’ll see it for what it is….the big picture and then I’ll get busy with what needs to be done today and this week.

I can do this….and I’m gonna just relax and stay present and just enjoy today.

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Tomorrow will take care of itself and my worrying about it won’t make it any easier or harder – will it?
Matt 6:25-34

Day 4

Today is Day 4 of “The 2009 Cruddy Vacation”.

That sounds promising and fabulously positive, doesn’t it?

The kids have been unbelievably pissy the last few days….weeks…..heck since we started talking about moving in the summer.

And I think I’ve caught that whatever they are feeling….

This is kind of a crappy vacation, if I do say so myself. And I just did!

Jon worked (HELLO – VACATION….where we DO NOT work) on Monday and then finished off our taxes (What was that? oh yah, those were supposed to be done a LOOOOOONNNNGGGG time ago – don’t even get me started on that) on Tuesday and then on Wednesday we had some running around to do and then here we are today where Jon paid some bills and is now doing a dump run….doesn’t this sound like a vacation that you’d like to be on? I did manage to wash and edge in a few walls with paint yesterday, but I still have to paint the rest of the wall and well, it all looks ugly…..and unfinished and BLERGH! GAKH! GRUMPH!

We are tired, and trying to do everything with the kids around SUCKS (cause all they’re doing is whining and moaning and making more mess and needing to be fed – seriously – and wanting to go “fun places and spend oodles of money and…..), and then it’s hot and nothing is finished and we’ve not got any solid plans and I do REALLY well with “plans” and (wonder where my kids get that from, eh?)…and ……AAAAAARRRRRGGGGGHHHH!

I am hoping that we’ll get away for even an overnighter, but I’m not even sure of that at this point.

So, now that I’ve moaned and complained for far too long, how about some sorta, somewhat, kinda positive news.

Okay!

First, some not so positive news. I gained a freak load of weight. Awesome, I know! I made it all the way back up to 200 pounds. Brutal, Brutal, BRUTAL!

I made the decision at the beginning of August that I would try to hold steady. Meaning, I would not gain any more weight, but I wasn’t full on into losing wight yet, either. I figured that come September, I’d really give ‘er. At least, that was my plan….and it was going pretty well. I managed to stop stuffing my face with whatever was in front of me and to have SOME amount of self-control. I didn’t gain any more, but I didn’t lose, but I was okay with that.

2 Sunday’s ago, my sister (Debbie) asked if I wanted to go to a free exercise class – and my head exploded cause I was laughing so hard. No, I didn’t not WANT to exercise, but REALLY, I just should AND IT WAS FREE. SO I DID! and then….. I went back the next day….missed the next one and then went the next 4 days in a row…..YAH ME! I have now gone 8 out of 11 days. I’m sore, but no so much that I can’t function. I’ll be hitting the 8pm class today as well.

I would love to report some major weight loss, seeing as I’ve done more work in the last 2 weeks than I have in the last year put together, but I’ll be content with the 3 pounds that I have lost. Even more exciting is that my pants that have been feeling a little “Sausage-y” (it’s a word, just go with it) now are fitting looser. As in, I can put them on and not “gish” out all over the top with that lovely “muffin top” look that so many are sporting these days. It’s such a HAWT look, no?

So, this is Day 4. And I’m sure that tomorrow will be………… Day 5….ha ha ha I bet you thought I’d say tomorrow would be better….It might. I’m hoping.

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Spanish Banks – Aug 16/09

*I didn’t even realize that I had an “exercise” category. Imagine that!

Heavy Loss and Loss of Heavy

I should have updated on Saturday, but somehow it’s Monday now……..

How did that happen?

I lost a bunch of weight this past week. I think that the biggest culprit of the weight gain was not in fact the wedding food, but it was “that time of the month”.

I was down 3.8 pounds. And now, I am currently 188.2 pounds….or at least I was on Saturday.

So, the whole weight loss thing seems that it’s going “okay” for me. My sister is getting married in a month and while I’d love to be down to 180lbs….I’ll just be happy if I’m under 185lbs. Baby steps, people…..it’s called setting realistic goals so that if things don’t work out the way I “hope” then I’m not too, terribly disappointed.

One thing that was AMAZING….if you’re a guy or just don’t like to talk about “female” things, then you should just stop right here and be on your merry way……I’ve warned you!

When I originally started seeing the naturopath about all the losses I’d had, she put me on a whole bunch of stuff, but one of the things was a tea.

I LOVED the flavour of the tea and what she told me was that it was a tea that helped with “female health” and reproductive organs and energy and that well, it was just pretty darn good stuff.

I took it for two months and then got pregnant and stopped drinking it. During that time I went from a long 35 day cycle to a 29 day cycle and went from bleeding like I was a stuck pig for an entire week to what I would assume (from what I’ve read) is a normal or normal-ish length and flow for all that fun time of the month stuff…..you know average flow for 4-6 days.

I figured that the naturopath had worked her magic and that was the reason for my “normalcy” finally after my entire life of being….well……grossly not normal…

I found a recipe for some tea online and wondered if this was the tea that had been given to me back then. It sounded similar. I picked up the different ingredients and mixed the magic potion up and made myself a pot of loose leaf tea. As it was sitting and brewing, I smelled it and it smelled exactly like I remembered. After it had sat for a while……I had a cup and YUUUUUUMMMMMMMY!

It was the exact tea.

I was thrilled. I could make it anytime I liked and for WAY cheaper than I had bought it through the naturopath.

I had wondered if it would help at all with how I’d been feeling which was tired and a bit worn out and also if it would help with the “overwhelming time of the month” situation.

I did feel a bit less tired and like I had more energy, but there was absolutely NO difference in the length of my cycle. In fact, nursing is still messing that whole thing up and I was actually 43 days in between cycles. But, OH MY GOODNESS!!!!! the difference it made in the amount of it all.

I actually felt “normal” again….not “my normal”, but what you read in books and on the internet and hear from the dr that should be normal. I was normal. It wasn’t overwhelming…It was, quite frankly, amazing.

I know that amazing is not something that you typically read about the whole time of the month thing, but honestly….this month was amazing. And all I did differently was to drink some delicious tasting tea. I’m so excited.

If you click on the links below, you can read about the benefits that you can get from the ingredients. This stuff is pretty darn good for you.

Mama’s Brew Tea (but you don’t have to be a mama to drink this stuff)

8 parts Red Raspberry Leaves
3 parts Peppermint Leaves
3 parts Alfalfa herb
2 parts Nettle Leaf

I use tablespoons to measure it out into a glass container, and then mix it all around. I store it inside a dark cupboard in the kitchen.

I use 1 tsp of the mixed tea to 1 cup of water.

I actually make 2 litres (8 cups) at a time. I’ll have a cup and store the rest of it in my fridge. I just pour out a cup into a pot to heat it up. (I don’t have a microwave) Supposedly the microwaves actually breaks down some of the nutritional value.

I’ve made it two ways….

1) In a pot on the stove. I’ve put in 2L of water into a pot and then 3 TBLSP of the tea let it come to a boil and then let it steep for 10 minutes.

2) I boil 2L of water in my kettle and then put 3 TBLSP of the tea into a pitcher and when the water has boiled, then I pour the water into the pitcher, stir the tea around and let it steep for 10 minutes.

After it has steeped for 10 minutes, then you can strain the leaves out (I use a mini-strainer) and then it’s good to enjoy.

Some people like to add honey to it, but I just like it plain. It’s delicious as both a hot and cold tea.

You should be able to get the ingredients at your local heath food store. None of them are difficult to obtain.

If you decide to try it out….let me know what you think and if it helps you at all.

Shrimp Fettuccine

Well, I had my first weigh in yesterday.

And the damage……..

I lost 4.4 pounds. That brings me from 194 lbs to 189.6 lbs…..officially leaving the 190’s, even if only by a smidge.

YAAAAHHHHH! I’m so excited. I managed to stay within my points allowance for each day and with the extra “flex” points that you get each week, I went out for my weekly date with Jon – for sushi.

We’ve been trying to figure out some fun meals that fit within the points per day, AND….that also fit within the lifestyle and diet that we’ve chosen.

In some ways, it’s a little more difficult to eat the way that we do and do Weight Watchers…only because some of the more “natural” things cost more points than a sugar free chocolate bar or things like goat cheese have a higher fat count than regular cow cheese and I’ve not yet come across a low fat or fat free goat cheese. There might actually be some out there, but I’m just happy that I’ve been able to find decent goat cheese, in the first place.

This past Friday night I was at a bachelorette party and we ate a a great little restaurant. I was thrilled because they had a spinach and goat cheese salad with strawberries and a vinaigrette dressing. It fit perfectly within the points that I had left over for that day and so I ordered it and it was okay….I was surprised that the goat cheese had no flavor – which is amusing considering that I typically think that goat cheese is a little too strong. So, my tastes must be adjusting.

Two of the girls in the party ordered a seafood pasta with cream sauce and it looked heavenly. I was SO JEALOUS….and desperately wished that I could even just try it, BUT…..I keep telling myself that…….

Nothing tastes as good as being thin feels!

And, I made it through the dinner and then all was well.

So ever since then I’ve had a hankerin’ for some sort of creamy shrimp pasta.

I picked up some shrimp on Saturday and some rice fettuccine.

I did vary a little from our diet in that I also picked up some fat-free cream cheese. Now I know that it has dairy in it, but it’s just a little cheat, right?

I made the cream sauce from

1/4 cup of Fat-Free Cream Cheese
1 Tblsp of Vinegar
1 Tblsp of Soy Sauce
1/4 cup of onion
2 cloves of garlic
1/2 tsp of oregano
1/4 tsp of cayenne
salt and pepper to taste

I added in 2 1/2 cups of shrimp and cooked it all up.

It tastes AMAZING!

I boiled up a package of Brown Rice Fettuccine and then when it was done cooking I threw in a bunch of asparagus with the tips removed and then broken in half. There was probably 3/4 cup of asparagus in total….I’d probably double that next time and believe me THERE WILL BE A NEXT TIME!

I threw the asparagus in with the sauce just to heat it up but left it crunchy. YUM.

and…………..VOILA!

Shrimp Fettuccine

One serving was

1 cup of Brown Rice Fettuccine (4 points)
and a quarter of the shrimp, asparagus, cream sauce. (3 points)

It tastes delicious and is totally worth the 7 points.

If you were starving and combined this meal with a nice green or spinach salad, it would be perfect.

I’m looking forward to my weigh-in next Saturday

Want vs. Need – the hunger edition

Well, after being so upset with mysef about my weight – I decided to step back up to the plate…..hahaha….I just realized that phrase is exactly what I don’t want to be doing.

Anyhooooo………

Jon and I have a weekly date and we are going for Sushi tomorrow.

I had a little chat with myself on Sunday and very sternly told myself that if I didn’t behave and eat well all week, then I’d not be able to go for Sushi on Thursday. I really wanted to go for sushi and so…..I’ve been really good the last 3 days.

I’ve eaten veggies, veggies, and more veggies; fruit, some meat, some nuts, some grains and then calling it a day. Not necessarily in that order, but in that volume. Do ya know what I mean…lots of veggies, less fruit, less meat, less nuts and even less grains?

I still don’t know if that really makes sesne, but I don’t care – I’m moving on.

I’ve done fine until this afternoon…well, I had a moment last night where I wanted “something” and settled for nothing. It’ was really quite delicious! Ha Ha Ha! Okay, not funny at all.

This afternoon was hard. I hit that 2:30 – 3:00pm wall and just wanted chocolate or a donut or cake or something with sugar and carbs in it.

I resisted and now, here I am. It’s 10 minutes to 10 o’clock and I’m hungry. Not gonna eat, but seriously thinkin’ about it and that’s why I’m here.

So you can all keep me accountable.

So, I’m gonna go and chug some water and then go to bed…..can’t eat while I’m sleeping can I?

What do you all do to combat the cravings? What’s worse for you – the afternoon’s or the evenings?