Category: Family

Wacky Wednesday

So, it’s late(r) on Friday night and Spring Break is almost over. 

I think that I’m ready to send my little darlings back to school.  My house is a DISASTER and Josiah needs some time without the kids IN. HIS. FACE…….and I need to have an hour where the kids are not hoovering me out of $60 in fruit and veggies a week.  Okay, it’s not that bad, but close, and so while I love to have the kids around – I’ll be thrilled to have some quiet time.

So, anyway…Wednesday morning we got up and had a leisurly morning and then headed into Walnut Grove for a visit with my Chiropracter.  My hips have been out and Siah needed an adjustment because he….he….fell out of his crib.  I don’t know how it happened, and yes, we should have had the railing up, but ‘Siah’s only been army crawling for a little while and can’t sit up on his own and hasn’t shown any interest in pulling himself up on anything and so I didn’t think it was even possible for him to fall or crawl out of his crib, but last Friday morning we woke up to a rather large BANG followed by an extremely large CRY and I ran in and pick him up off the floor.  I couldn’t (until today) figure out how  he could have possibly pulled himself up and managed to heavve his rather large body over the railing.  He seemedto be okay and I squished and pulled and prodded until I was sure that there was nothing broken and he quickly stopped crying and seemed to be his happy self.  He did have one funny scratch on his head, but I wasn’t sure if he had been gouging at the exczema on his head or if he had somehow hit his head when he fell.  It did look like his head was lumpy off to one side, but maybe I was seeing things…..ya know how you’re just not sure when you’re stressed out?

So, we get to my Chiropracter…I’ve mentioned him before  Dr. Alan Irving.   He’s AMAZING!  He fixed ‘Siah right up. 

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Later in the day I was telling my brother, Chris, about our visit and told him about how the Dr. manipulated ‘Siah skull and how you could definately see how it was out before and how now it was a nice round melon… and Chris says, “He just shoved the skull back in place?“  So I explained how the bones in the baby’s head are not set in place and again Chris says, “So,….he just smooshed it back in place?“  And I started to explain how Dr Irving went to school to learn how to “smoosh” a baby’s head back in place, and Chris (very sarcastically says) says, “Yah, he took Smooshology!”Yah, that’s right Chris….he took smooshology…for sure…

After our appt, we hit the Starbucks and then took the kids to the park.  We got some good pictures and the weather totally co-operated so that was really nice.  Click on the picture to see the pics that we took at the park.

After these pictures the camera died and we had to run home to get the charger but the battery takes a while to recharge and so we got no pictures of us wandering around Fort Langley.  We let the kids just wander in and out of all of the cute and eclectic little shops and see and exploreand it was a lot of fun. After we were done at Fort Langley we headed over to my parents house for dinner, and after dinner was done – we spent some really special quality family time……

….around the laptop, ’cause nothing says family like dorking out around the computer.It was another great Wednesday, and the kids are already asking to go back to the Fort again.

We’re still Springing along.

Ha Ha Ha Ha – Springing along…I’m such a “gork” (Kennedy word for Geek and Dork all mixed together) sometimes.  Forgive me….just blame it on sleep depravation….I’m gonna go on and on and on about the sleep depravation again so I know you’ll want to keep reading won’t you..

NOT!  Just joking!  Hey, did I lose some of you?  Did you think I was serious?  I guess I’ve complained about it so much and it’s kind of too fresh to be joked about, hey????….sorry about that.

Nope, not gonna talk about it at all.

Instead……don’t you wish you had a little boy that was a cute as this little guy is……..couldn’t you just “eat him up”? 

He is almost ALWAYS this happy.  It’s very rare that he’s not smiling and even rarer that he’s crying.  I just LOVE him so much.Topic Change…… 

I also dyed my hair using a natural hair dye.  It’s called Herbatint and it’s amazing.  It is more expensive than just buying a color from the store.  It was just under $30 for the box, but I was pleasantly amazed at how it didn’t smell like I was frying my hair or burning brain cells from the fumes.  We’ve been trying to rid our house of the Detergant SLS because it’s been linked to eczema and Josiah does typically have a flare up when he comes in contact with it…..and it’s in EVERYTHING, and it a known irritant……if that’s the case, then why put it in all the freakin’ baby soaps……it’s ridiculous.  Anyway, this dye doesn’t have SLS and it works so far.

Anyway – I went Black…it seems that if I go really dark, that by the time the dye lightens and wears off slightly that it’s pretty close to my natural color…..which is a nasty sorta mousy brown color……enough about that…..here’s me.  Excuse the frizzies…I’d do a re-take, but I just don’t care that much – you can see the color and realize that I don’t have perfect hair, and that I really dont’ care……get a little chuckle outta the “halo”….yah, that’s it…..it’s my halo…I’m an angel…ha ha ha!

In other news….my kids are playing SOOOOOO Nicely most of the time and here’s a shot to prove it…..I’m not gonna tell you how we staged this shot just so you’d think that we were such a nice family who calmly and quietly plays games together….’cause we didn’t and even if we did….I wouldn’t tell you about it….I’d just go on about my business and be all cool about it….now that I’ve blathered on and on – you have no idea whether I’m telling the truth or not, so just enjoy this pic of the 3 older darlings playing nicely together….as this is a rare treat.

Nothing like a sweet game of pick-up sticks.

Now, for some really amazing news…..you should see Josiah crawling…okay…it’s a bit weird, and none of my other kids did this…….He Army Crawls.  It’s darling, but strange…just get up on your hands and knees already, son!

Isn’t he just DARLING?  See, flat on his stomach…..weird.And here he is coming to get you….

Regardless of how strange his little crawl is…..HE IS FREAKIN’ FAST.And so now…….

This is the view coming up our stairs.  Yup.  We are now officially gated, and it makes life WAY easier ’cause I can just put him down and let him go….mind you with 3 older kids…there is a whole lotta yelling and screaming gently reminding to “please remember to shut the gate EVERY SINGLE FREAKIN’ time you come in or out” ’cause I’m nice like that. I’m also into the “vaccumming the carpets 40 times a day” stage because apparently my older children are SLOBS and the baby is “exploring” everying by putting every little piece of anything and everything into his mouth.  It’s so much fun.

Today is Day 3 of Spring Break but it’s also Wacky Wednesday.  Named because……beacause……well, because both words start with a W…..We decided that it’s hard for Jon to be working from home and for the kids to not understand how come he’s around but not available….sooooooo…….he’s working Mon and Tues and Thur and Fri from 7am to 5pm and we are tkaing Weds off.  It’s nice that we can do this.  One of the perks of working for your self at home, but it’s also a Loooooooog day when you’re working for 10 hours straight.  So far so good and we’re headed off to see a movie with the kids today. 

I think we’re going to see “Horton hears a Who”.  It should be fun, and then we’re going to have dinner with my parents. So, a nice day that’s not too crazy busy, but fun none the less…..  How’s your Spring Break coming along?  if you have one? 

Trying – I’m really trying….

Okay, so I have a minute and I find that there is something cathartic about being able to get all my thoughts and ideas down onto paper and seeing as i don’t keep a “paper journal” it all goes here.

So, I have a choice, the baby is sleeping and the kids are outside playing and I could be doing laundry or……I could brain dump here.

Brain Dumping, it is!

Like I mentioned last post I am really trying to find a balance in my life.  I’ve spent a huge amount of time in front of the computer and I’m trying to be wise about my computer/Internet time.

I started last week by planning out our breakfasts and dinners.  I think that eventually we might plan out the kids lunches, but ofr right now they are just making them on their own on a day to day basis, and we’re supervising to make sure that they take a protein, a carb, a veggie and a fruit instead of 6 fruits and calling it a lunch.  It made a HUGE difference in so many ways.  I was able to plan out our meals using food that we aready had on hand and to make sure that our diet was varied and then I was also able to make a shopping list of what we actually needed and then stick to it…..WAAAAAAY better than just winging it.  AND…..the kids didn’t ask ONCE, “what’s for dinner?”  and i was getting that questions (no joke) about 20 times and it started first thing in the morning – before they’d even had breakfast.  It was unreal.  Now they can just look on the fridge and see what’s for dinner and there are no surprises and I don’t even have to think about it except for on Sunday nights when I’m planning the weekly meals. 

I also did breakfast because we don’t just eat cereal and so we rotate between porridge, eggs and toast, pancakes, eggs and hashbrown and usually have cereal once a week.  I planned that out and once again,the kids seem to be so much happier knowing what to expect and how to help out in the mornings (like either making the panckae batter from scratch or by cutting up the potatoes for hashbrowns).

Jon and I also sat down and worked out a weekly schedule so that he can get ahead a bit this month.  He has a ton of work, and if we can get a few extra hours in per day that would make a big difference in what’s coming in as far as the monthly earnings.  So, I know what to expect, and he knows what hours he’s working and what hours he’s “at home” with me and the kids and even the kids know when to leave dad alone and when he’s free, becuse we sat down and wrote it all out on the white board for them so there could be buy in from everyone.  the bonus in this comes in that we vaguely planned out the next 2 weeks as well (Spring Break) and if all goes according to plan, Jon will be able to take Wedesday’s off and we’ve told the kids that we’ll have Wacky Wednesday’s and Super Saturday’s where we’ll plan to do something fun with them….now I just have to come up with some options of “stuff” that we can do.  Stuff that they can choose from.  More planning….so much fun!  I say that with rolled eyes, but there is an element of fun in knowing a little bit of effort can alleviate a WHOLE ton of stress.

Moving on…….I did get ‘Siah immunized yesterdayand he’s got a fever now….I hate that.  i have more say on that topic, but i feel like I always have more to say and not enough mental and physical and emotional energy to actually get it out.  So, hopefully that will be my next post…maybe!

‘Siah Makes The Rounds

I had to go into Langley last week and pick up some “stuff” from the Naturopath’s pharmacy.  I was a bit early and so I visited my dad at his office first….

Here is Josiah and Papa Mark, just hang out….

And here they are admiring each other”s baseball caps…..it must be in the genes or something like that…..
ps.  click on any of the pics to see the whole set

We LOOOOOOOVE hanging out with Papa.

After we visited Papa for a bit and even bought a few things at the Ladybug Organic Store, we headed over to see Nana Karen…she hadn’t gone into town to see Uncle Chris yet and so we had another little visit.Here is Nana looking so pretty.

Later that day, we got a picture with Geli….the kids ADORE Josiah and he absolutely LOVES them too…..He gets all excited and kicks his legs and waves his arms and screams at them when they get close.Doesn’t she look beautiful?

 
And then we got a picture with Great Grandma just before she headed off to Fiji…..How many kids get to know their GREAT grandparents….we are so blessed to have Grandma and Grandpa still around and going strong.

Purge

4 garbage bags and 1 box full of garbage and 6 boxes of clothes

That’s what I got rid of this weekend.

I’ve been really wanting to scale down and streamline our way of living.  We have TOO MUCH CRAP and we don’t use half of it and so…….It Must Go!

The kids rooms are the worst….they have so many toys and clothes and they never even end up wearing or playing with it and I think it’s because of the sheer volume of junk that they have to wade through in order to just try and find something.

I mean, come on…seriously, does Xandra really need 20 t-shirts and 10 pairs of pants.  ABSOLUTELY NOT!

And Jeremy has more sets of toys than he can possibly play with EVER!

So, about 3 weeks ago, Jon and I planned out that this past weekend was set aside and nothing short of a family death could blast us away from decluttering and throwing out pretty much everything that we could lay our hands on.

I hadn’t seen the floor of Xandra’s and Jeremy’s room in…in…..I don’t know how long, and so I had them load everything into their blankets and drag it out into the middle of the family room carpet.  Now I’ll admit that watching them bring their crap into my tidy area of the house stressed me out to no end, but I kept focused on the goal…..garbage and clutter OUT!  that made it only slightly more plausable to handle.

We threw out everything that was old or stained or had holes in it and everything that was either not an absolute wear-once-a week or a favorite.  That left us with about 3 pairs of pants and about 8 t-shirts…..maybe still too much in my mind, but then I have one pair of jeans and so I don’t know that I’m a good balance when it comes to that.

We sorted out toys and toy sets and the lego……OH MY GOSH….the lego was in everything.  I thought we only had one box of lego…..turns out that we have 2 boxes of lego – 2 full boxes of lego…who woulda thunk it? 

It took all day, mostly because the kids kept complaining and trying to take off…my threat was that if they stopped that whatever was left…..was GARBAGE and was GONE!  So, they kept at it and come bed time – their rooms were clean and tidy and pretty much empty and they LOVED it.  Jeremy even  woke up the next morning and made his bed and then came out to tell us about it. Sweet, eh?

So, now comes the hard part…..keeping it that way.  But I’m determined that I’m not finished yet.  I really want to get to the place where we have enough of what we need and not a huge amout of surpluss or excess..there really is no need, and with less stuff – comes less mess…..at least that’s what I’m telling myself right now.  It’s true, right?

We have a date for 2 weekends from now where we are going through the garage and we will be ruthless……nothing (or almost nothing) is sacred.  I have to say that I do feel really good and I so wanted to just take the boxes of clothes and deliver them to the thrift store today, but there are so many little girl clothes and I have to give my sister first crack at them, but honestly, a part of me wants to save her from the “excess”, but that’s not my decision to make, is it?  And maybe she has a deficit – who am I to make a call on her behalf, so for now they are sitting in my hallway and hopefully tomorrow they go to her.

This feels good, this purging…..and speaking of purging…

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I’ve kept it small so to not offend your delicate sensibilities…if they are in fact delicate,  ’cause after 4 kids – nothing is delicate over here.

Josiah, just short of 7 months, used the toilet for the first time…..Yah him.  We have officially started introducing solids into his diet and well, diaper changing is now officially nasty.  My mom encouraged Angelica to use the toilet from a very early age – I think she was around 5 months old when we first started hanging her over the toilet – and she was in little tiny underwear when she was 9-10 months old.   She was so cute when she’s run to the toilet at a year old…..I hated changing dirty diapers and changing cloth poopy diapers is even less fun.  I haven’t bought a sprayer for my toilet yet and I desperately need one.  Anyway,  it’s not a true toilet training of the child as much as it’s a parent training….being able to read your child’s cues, but heck – anything that makes me have to change less poopy diapers….I’m all for it.  And so it starts…….

Hey, don’t say I ever held anything back from you – I’m all about sharing….maybe too much so, but hey…..what can I say?

Prankin’ Out

My kids love the thought of pranks.

We have found so many “booby trapped” doors where the little devils darlings are hoping that we’ll walk through and end up soaked or strings tied across stairs and hallways…..basically, they are really sucky at coming up with really good pranks and then actually following through with it.

Well, they have officially entered the world of pranking and in a big way.

See, I saw in a magazine that you could keep those extra little ketchup packets and throw them into the freezer and they are the perfect size for little boo-boos for the kids.  They have worked FABULOSLY for that purpose.

Thursday night I saw the girls with a couple of ketchup packets, in the bathroom, playing with the toilet. I told them that I wasn’t entirely certain what they were up to, but in no uncertain terms were they to continue on with whatever the heck it was that they were doing because one – it looked  like it could be messy and two – they looked like they were getting along to well, and three – it looked like they were haveing entirely too much fun, and I don’t believe in having fun at this house. Misery ad suffering over here all the way, babee.

Well, last night – oh last night!  Jon and I went out and Jon’s Mum came over to watch the kids…….and they got her.

To be exact, Xani got her.

Yes, my sweet little fairy princess Alexandra morphed into a little devious prankster last night.

Truth be told, she was attempting to “get” Jeremy and it was a failed prank, but because it actually “got” Mum C.  It was, in fact, that much funnier.

We got home and Mum informed us that she was wearing the ketchup packet and that she had been well and truly “got-ten”.  I’m guessing that she sat down and the strategically placed ketchp packet’s squished out and hit her and the floor and well, it was a lovely mess.

Fortunately she was a very good sport about it, and we’re all laughing about it…. although I’m rather horrified so my laughter is more of a forced “Oh My Gosh, I can’t believe that my kids squished ketchup down the back of your legs and onto your pants and everything.  Maybe I could crawl into a hole and pretend that this dind’t actually happen” kind of uncomfortable laugh”

But it’s all good and in a secret way, I’m kind of proud that my kids actually managed to pull on off and it really actually worked – even if it “got” the wrong person….which it was probably a good thing that it didn’t “get” Jeremy as he probably woulda just hauled off and punched Xani in the head.  So, positives all around….right???

Edited to Add:  They stuck the ketchup packets under the ring that you sit on and where it touches the bowl so that when you sit down it would squish out….and then, just to make certain that it actually squished out and got you and didn’t just blow up, they tore the packet slightly open so that it would specifically squish out onto the back of your legs and pants and whatever else happened to be within firing range……..just wanted you to know exactly what they did…….lovely, eh?

Finding it Difficult in so many ways and on so many levels, but not wanting to talk about it…..so much

edited to add…..get a coffee….it’s a long one…… 

I’ve said that I’d talk about what we found out at the Naturopath in regards to both Jeremy and Josiah, and yet I’ve still not talked about it.

I find that talking about our struggles with Jeremy is so difficult that I think that in some small or large part of my brain I figure that if I don’t talk about it then it’s not really there.  Denial is a powerful, POWERFUL weapon (of self-destruction).

Josiah is doing better, I think. 

Okay, starting all of this off….I’m seeing my sister’s naturopath because my naturopath had to take some time off for a family emergency.  The two Drs are practice partners and so it’s not a big deal to see one or the other as it’s in the same place and they have very similar and complimentary practise styles.

So, we met for a HUGE appointment because all four kids needed a follow up appt for different reasons.  The girls needed a wrap up appointment because I took them through the “process” of food intolerance testing and such just so that they would be healthy.  I do think that they have some struggles, but that they’re doing well.  I’ll talk more aout that in a moment.  They are basically healthy kids and we are just on what we’d call “maintenance” – no wheat, dairy, sugar or yeast on a regular basis, but I don’t stress if they go to a birtday party or somewhere else where they might cheat a little……if they “can” eat healthy then make good choices, but for a special occasion (as long as those “occasions” don’t happen every day or even a couple of times a week) it doesn’t matter.

Josiah is doing much better.  I’m still avoiding dairy like it’s the plague.  Soy seems to really bother him, and so do tomatoes.  I had chili the night that we went to the naturopath and he barfed ALL EVENING, and then ended up with a flare up of eczema.  So, I’m avoiding Dairy, Soy, Tomatoes, Wheat and Yeast. 

I thought the Dairy was brutal, but soy is even worse…..pretty much anything that doesn’t have dairy in it – has soy in it…..so I’m eating lettuce as it seems pretty safe.  Nice, eh?  It’s not that bad, but to say my diet is limiting is an understatement. 

I am willing to do anything, though, to be able to nurse.  I won’t force him to nurse when he’s ready, but I wanted to have this “time” with my baby for a long time and I’m happy to be able to do it even if it means working around things to make it work for Josiah.

I am struggling with all the food intolerances and the eczema and gastro-intestinal issues that we’ve dealt with for the past 6 months.  I basically thought that parents “made up” their kids food intolerances and thought that they were all a bunch of over exaggerators and that they were blowing things WAY OUTTA proportion.  Now, I am one of them and being on this end of it SUCKS!  I’m hoping that it’s all just intolerances and that ‘Siah will outgrow everything as he gets older and bigger and stronger.

He’s on some supplements to heal his intestinal tract and I think it’s working.  His poos are AMAZING….like liquid gold.  I almost don’t feel like I have to be inspecting EVERY. SINGLE. POOP. to be looking for blood.  It was hell to be waiting with a twisted gut for your kid to poo and hoping that this time you wouldn’t see blood, and then feeling like you’d been punched in the gut when you did see blood and hoping that this would be the last time and feeling helpless and not knowing what to do or what was causing it.

There is also some material out there that says that Dairy is a big culprit for causing eczema and other material that says that eczema is a surface level reaction to intestinal issues and tha tif you get your guts healed up then the eczema will clear up.  I’ve read about eczema coming on after you’ve had a vaccination and also about detergent allergy and how there is detergant in EVERYTHING now a days and that if you can get your home to be a detergant free zone that your kids will be able to get healthy and then when they come in contact with detergant outsome the home, they will better be able to deal with it.  Someone else told me that if you wash the eczema with saline that it will get better.  i’m willing to try just about everything, but the thing that bothered me the most was my family doctor just telling me to get some hydocortisone and use it….I’d have to use it every day and I have an issue with just treating the symptom and not the root or underlying cause.

The eczema is clearing up since we’ve been on the supplements for 2 weeks now.  I have a follow up appt and i want to know if this is something that can be healed forever or if we’re just in a preventative stage forever.

He still scratches and has little cuts and nicks in his head ALL OVER THE PLACE.  It looks awful, but it’s not rashed up.  i’m not sure if it is actually itchy or if it’s a habit.  I know that he will start scratching horribly when he is tired.  So, habit or itch – I do not know.  Bottom line is….

I think that Josish is doing WAAAAAAY better than he ever has, and this is a good thing.

I’m not going to talk aout Jeremy today.  I think that this has gone on long enough, and I think that I want a little more time to think about how I want to say what I’m feeling and thinking about the most wonderful little boy ever.

Jeremy is an amazing child and I only wish that others could see past some of the outward stuff and really grab a hold of the beauty that’s inside of this precious, gentle, creative, compassionate little man.

I’m Ford Tough

Jeremy stayed with my sister and brother in law a few weekends ago.  This is his version of their horseback adventure .  He actually did go on a real horse and really did get thrown. 

 

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Today, I was riding a horse. In the morning and I bonked the horse. The horse bonked me down. Before it bonked me down, we were having lots of fun. Me and Uncle Denver. The horse was light brown and maaybey 10 maybe 20 inches big. We fed the horse a carrot. The horse was on Uncle Denver’s Dad’s farm. The horse lived in the artic. Cause it’s ear got frozen then it popped right off. I helped Uncle Denver put a saddle on the horse. We rode in the field. I was behind Uncle Denver on the horse. just behind the saddle. I was holding Uncle Denver. I was a real cowboy, because I was riding a horse. and I got bucked off, just like Uncle Denver and Uncle Tim. When I got bucked off I landed in the mud. I was crying. Uncle Denver said get on to the horse and we’ll bring you back. I wanted to get back on because it was fun, not the falling, the riding. We did one trick. The trick we did. WE did, we ran around really fast, uncle Denver tied it really fast we ran around in circles and then it jumped thhe pole and then we got bucked off. Then that was it. We got in the truck. And I still have my muscles, cause I’m tough. I’m Ford tough.

an Update

So His temp yesterday without Tylenol was around 39 degrees C or 102 degrees F…..not nice as far as I’m concerned.

It did  go down when I gave him the Tylenol, and so I gave him a dose at 8:30am, one at 12:30pm and then one last dose at 5pm.  After that last 5 o’clock dose, he didn’t seem to be getting terriblymuch hotter.  I checked his temp at 8:30 when I put him down for the night, and I was pretty conflicted about what to do.

Do I give him Tylenol to ensure that he doesn’t spike a super high fever during the night, or do I leave him and hope that it stays low grade or goes away?  What to do, what to do…..it was all vry distressing.  And then….I’m not nursing him in the night anymore, and he’s not needing it.  He goes from 8:00 – 8:30pm until 6:30am, and if he wakes up, Jon goes in and helps him back to sleep….BUT, now that he’s not feeling well…..Does he need the extra liquid or should we stick to our routine or what?

SO…I did nothing.  No Tylenol, and then I checked his temp at 10:30, ’cause I figured that it had been 5.5 hours since his last dose of medicine, and his temp was still at 37.7 – that what it was at 8:30pm  and 9:30pm, so it really wasn’t going up right then.

He did wake up whimpering at 1am, but he wasn’t too hot to the touch and he was only stirring, so I left him.  I think Jon got up with him at 2 or 3am, and then I just brought him to bed and nursed him at 4:30am, so it was a bit of a busy night, but he did good, and his temp this morning still with no Tylenol (since the last dose at 5pm) was at 37.6.

I realize that all of this is probably too much nit picky information, but I was surprised at how worried I was about it all.

I need to go and help the kids get ready for school, but I still want to update you all on our trip to the naturopath and the chiropracter….they were interesting appointments with some amazing information.

Frustration

‘Siah had a flare up of ezcema last night.  How frustrating is that? 

We have  an appt with the naturopath today and i’m hoping to get some answers and hopefully some “options” of things we can try to do.  We also should be getting the results of Jer’s Hair analysis and that might be able to offer some insight into his world as well. 

I’m actually taking all 4 kids AT THE SAME TIME into the Dr. office.  Nuts, eh?  I think that jon is coming with me although he seemed quite stressed out about it all this morning so we shall see.  I just cant fathom all of them at once in the little office.  Eeeeek!

The whole eczema thing is bugging me…..he also barfed ALL FREAKING DAY yesterday. So obviously something I ate hit him funny, but what..and why???  It annoys me that I was the healthiest with him and thathe seems to have it the hardest of the kids……maybe that isn’t really the case.  He’s the happiest, and most easy going of my kids, and he’s sleeping through the nights and nurses like a champ.  things are actually going really quite well.  It’s just the food intolerances and eczema….so frustrating.  And I’d really like a HUGE piece of cheese right now or a giant piece of pizzza.  Can you tell that I’m frustrated?  I want to self-medicate with food….not good.  Maybe this wohle food restriction thing is not  bad thing after all..I have to learn different ways to cope with my stress rather than just stuffing my face with food  it never makes me feel better anyway, but it sure tastes good.

Hmmmm….well, I’ll update ya if there’s anything good to update.  Later!