Time Flies By…

It’s hard to believe it’s been over a month since Judah Zane joined our lives.

My Sweet Boy,

You are an amazing addition to our family. I am so thrilled that you were chosen for us. I still feel like we hardly know you and yet I can’t imagine you not being a part of our family. You fit in perfectly with all the crazy, passionate, vocal, chilled-out, intense rest of us.

In just the last week, you have managed to go slight;y hoarse from screaming when we don’t pick you up fast enough. You are so relaxed and laid back and easy going, and then……..BAM – there doesn’t seem to be any wind up or lead up time, you just go from happy to wicked pissed, and as soon as we pick you up, you’re okay. It’s equally amusing and slightly horrifying. I wonder if this will carry on or if you’ll figure out that we’ll come even if you just start to get upset. I figure that as the youngest of 5, you just want to make sure your voice is heard?

You were 13 pounds 12 ounces at your last weigh in almost 2 weeks ago. I wonder what today’s visit will say that you weigh. My arms and shoulders can totally testify that you’re even heavier now than you were then. At some point I expect to have some serious “pipes” as you don’t like to be put down and yet you weigh a ton…..You definitely like to eat. And yet, with all that you eat, your night times are so SO sweet and for that I thank you and am willing to carry you to the end of the earth.

When you fall asleep around 9pm and then typically only wake twice in the night to nurse, I can forgive you much…..heck, there are many nights when your (almost) 3 year old brother is up that many times (or more….)

I love to look at your little ears and your sweet head, your chubby thighs and to see you wrap your sweet little fingers around mine. All these little parts of an amazing whole….you complete our family, little one!

As I mentioned already, you love to be cuddled and held and you could sleep forever as long as someone is cuddling you close. You are so “squishy” and there are time when my heart wishes I could express the depth and fierceness of my love, and yet no words seem adequate enough and so I just hold you, whisper words of love and pray that the magnitude of my love for you is just “known”.

This is a crazy, CRAZY time to born into, and I pray every day that I’m able to take each and every moment and love each and every one of you kids like it were my last day on earth. I want to live and love and laugh with no regrets and I want to pass that same desire on to each and everyone of you.

Time seems to fly by so fast and before I know it, you’ll be as big as your older sister….it seems like I just blinked and now she is a teenager…..

…and so I hold the memories of these days close to me. Days when you were tiny (comparatively) and slept and fed and cuddled and smiled because of the gas bubbles. That one seems to carry on though….your brothers both take great delight in their gas escaping both ends and I’m sure you will continue to find joy in that as well.

I believe these feet will take you place in your life that I could only dream of. You are created for greatness, my son. I believe this strongly and I will continue to encourage you walk the path that you are destined for, whatever that may be.

Welcome to our lives, my sweet boy. Welcome to this world. It’s gonna be a better place because you’re a part of it.

Love your Momma

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