Well, it’s been a while since I’ve posted anything….things have just been so crazy busy around here and I’ve really not had much of any time to sit and I’ve only recently gotten my computer back.
Since Jon decided to see if his computer would survive a trip into Vancouver on the top of the van (it didn’t), he’s been stealing mine when he goes into the hospital and when he goes into work. This, most decidedly, makes me grumpy. I like my computer. I want my computer, but I’ll grudgingly admit that he needs to work and so……mumble, mumble, mumble……
Things are so busy around here and like Jon mentioned it’s not always easy. I mean, if you look at it big picture, Geli is flying through this phase comparatively, but because of the weeks of feeling crappy on top of feeling crappy 2 weeks ago after the first massive dose of chemo…..all she can see and feel and sense is the right here and right now.
I actually yelled at her last night in an effort to cut through the fog and misery that she was feeling. She starts to feel better starting today. She’s not gonna feel perfect today, barring a miracle, but she should start to feel better today and then as each day passes, she should progressively feel better and better and better.
She’s been so focused on how she’s feeling and it just runs into the LOOOOOONG string of days that she’s not been feeling well and all she could see was here and now. I yelled at her that she needed to understand that today was probably the “worst” that she was gonna feel and compared to 2 weeks ago….she’s not barfed ONCE this week. She has gagged twice. At this time 2 weeks ago, she had barfed multiple times on Tues, Wed, Thurs and Fri…..mostly because she got so low and not eating.
Once she was listening to me and really hearing what I was saying, I asked her if she could power through the rest of the evening knowing that she just needed to make it through the rest of the day and that the next day would be a better day, and somehow, something triggered. I had mentioned that we were looking for highest number of calories in the least amount of food and her eyes light up….could she have some ice cream? Of course, she could have ice cream….but I bribed her that she’d need to eat one ham sandwich before she got any ice cream and VOILA…..just like that our entire evening changed from her feeling hopeless to her “getting it” that the way that she was feeling was not a long term thing and that if she could just stick it out a little longer that she’d be over the hump and headed into happy town…….
This is probably once of the hardest parts for me….she’s a little girl and a young lady all rolled into one body. Sometimes, she knows and “gets it” and sometimes it’s just too overwhelming. Even I don’t always make the wise choices in my life and I’m supposed to be a mature adult……I can’t expect her to get it always either, but when she does “get it”, it makes things so much easier on all of us. But to know that if she just did “this” that it would make this other thing easier or better for her, is hard. I don’t want to see her hurting. This whole thing is hard. I hate pushing her but I hate seeing her hurt even more.
Hey Jon & Patti.
Constantly praying for your family.
I sent you an email to the Xangelle account regarding packages for the kids …hopefully you got it. Looking forward to hearing from you when you have some time to breathe . Lots of love from Montana. xoxo
I hear the new KFC “double-down” sandwich has the most calories-per-square-inch of food money can buy.
http://www.kfc.com/doubledown/
Hey Geli
When i was going through treatments I didnt want to eat either so what I did was I ate fish and applesauce with skin. It was the only two food I could keep down in my stomach. Praying for you. I know it is not easy to go through this but you can do it. I am cheering you on!
love Debra
When I was a little girl and feeling sick and couldnt keep anything down my mum (your great grandma) would give us grated apple to eat. The trick is to eat it straight away before it goes brown. It was the only thing we could keep down. She used a ‘golden delicious’ apple, a bit like a ‘granny smith’ but a yellow milder taste. Sometimes we would just suck the juice and it helped.
Love you all,
Beryl
OK, Henri made me laugh. I’m totally fine and I’m not sure I could eat a double down, but whatever works, I guess?
I hope that by now the worse is over. I’m sorry that you had such a rough time, but I’m glad you were able to help Geli through. And I’m continuing to keep you all in my thoughts and prayers.