I’m feeling a bit……..a bit lost these days.
I’m tired. I’ve got so much to do. I desperately need to get some of my thoughts out of my head and out into words and yet….I haven’t the time.
Jon’s just getting the first order ready to send in to the T-Shirt place. Angelica has sold 9 t-shirts and we are so SO thankful to all of you who are supporting her in this way. She is so excited to be making some money on her own.
We are looking to put up another shirt with the design as more of a logo – we’ve had a few suggestions that guys might like that one better and she also has 2/3 more options that we just need to make digital.
The biggest issue is finding the time. GAH! I hate time….really I hate the lack of time!
Angelica is doing okay. She’s managed to stay healthy so far and we are really praying that she continues until her counts come up. She goes in tomorrow for her last chemo appointment of this intense phase of treatment and then as soon as her counts come up……SHE STARTS MAINTENANCE! YAH!
She’s pretty tired and having a tiny bit of a hard time sleeping. We are wondering if she needs to be a little bit more active in the day, but when you are feeling pretty punk, it’s kind of hard to be thinking about exercise.
We are just really looking forward to her body re-adjusting and settling down and for her to be able to readjust to her “new normal”.
If you’ve sent me an e-mail and I’ve not responded or if you’ve messaged me on facebook or if I was supposed to call you back or get in touch with you or you just really wonder why I’ve not been in contact with you……please have grace for me.
I’m feeling quite pressured these days and feel so guilty that I’m not on top of EVERYTHING and yet, it’s just not possible for me to do everything that I’d like to right now.
I had a mom message me the other day and I almost broke down. Her daughter had leukemia and is done maintenance and is doing amazingly well. But, she asked how I was doing and mentioned that so often people don’t realize how long the whole treatment process is. I recognize that you reading are somewhat aware because I write about parts of it, but there is such a sense of loneliness and exhaustion and this whole “leukemia/cancer” thing is crazy intense. It’s so FREAKING LONG and there are so many times when you feel like you have no more to give and you must just carry on.
And now….I must go….Jon’s waiting on me! We’ve got to pick up passports, send in the Make a Wish Forms, Place the t-shirt orders, go grocery shopping and clean the house….it’s a busy, busy day.
Hope you are having a good one.
hi patti praying for you. i know what you mean a sense of lonlieness during this whole thing. it is important to be connected with those that been there or are going through this. words cannot describe what it is like. so happy for Geli going to New York i hope she gets to see broadway. It is so awesome in New York especially Manhattan and Central Park. Praying for good sunny weather in New York when Geli is there on holidays. Take care. debra
wishing we were at exercise class…
Patti, you’re amazing. Truly, you are.
More grace.
More peace.
More strength.