I had my 34 week check up this morning. I won’t be “officially” 34 weeks until Saturday, but he is in the OR and at the hospital all day tomorrow – which is my usual appointment day – and so I went in a day earlier as opposed to waiting until Tuesday for the next appointment (’cause of the holiday on Monday). And after how bad last week was, I don’t think I could have gone until Tuesday with out knowing some things are going.
I knew that I was stressed out about the position of the baby (him being breech), but didn’t realize exactly how badly until last night. I was preparing for bed and thinking…..How am I ever going to fall alseep knowing that I find out tomorrow whether or not he’s changed positions or if he’s still breech? It took me back to the beginning of the pregnancy when I’d be doing the same thing the few days before my next appointment only wondering if the baby would even be alive, and if we’d see that beautiful little heartbeat.
 I know that compared to him being alive or not – worrying about the position is kind of silly, but it shows a few things…….
Although I still worry about the possibility of a still birth, that particular worry was overshadowed by the baby’s position, and whether or not I would have to have a c-section……that tells me that I’ve come a long way. To have the fear of death overshadowed by something as insignifiant as “how” this baby would be born……
Just the fact that I believe, more often than not, that this baby will be born alive is HUGE!
I do still worry. I don’t know that I can completely stop it. It doesn’t consume my every waking moment, but I’d be a liar if I said that I don’t think about it occasionally….okay maybe a little more often than occasionally…….but I am doing better.
Good news is……physically I’m doing fabulously, AND the little bugger is head down and face back. As of this morning, he was in the premium position for his arrival. This was the best news that I have heard in a while. I’m so excited. It’s funny, ’cause I’ve been trying really hard to play the “name that bump” game, and it’s not been going so well. I actually thought that he had his back to mine and that he was facing out toward the front.Â
This little guy moves funny! Well, I’m not sure if it’s all that funny, but from what I can remember, it’s different from the last three. With them, I could definately tell which end was which, and whether the bump was an arm or a leg or an elbow of a knee. This little one has been keeping me guessing……..little stinker.
Our furniture came in on Tuesday, and Jon put it together, and I LOVE it. It does fill in the already tiny room, but how much room does one little baby need any way.
I’ll take pictures, but I need to find some “stuff” to decorate with.Â
The doctor told me to pack my bags, ’cause any time after Saturday, he’ll be happy to meet the little guy. Not that we are expecting him to come this early, but I think my Doctor’s just trying to make me feel better…….not much will do that until I am actually holding my baby.
I am trying to tie up all the loose ends and finish the room and the pick up the rest of the baby stuff. There are still a few things that I need to get.
I am still waiting for the diaper bag to show up so I can pack that, and I have to figure out what I want to take to the hospital. I should probably also go and check out the hospital, and see if I can pre-register.
I wondered if we should sign up for a pre-natal class. There is one that is just a refresher, but I don’t know if it’s really worth it to spend the money and take the time out of our freaky busy schedule unless things have drastically changed in the last 7 years. Which I admit is possible…..7 years is a long time and lots of things change……I don’t know…..I’m waffling on that one……
I keep making lists, and then losing those lists and making new ones, and then remebering more stuff to put on them…….AAAAAACCCCCKKK!
Oh well! I’ll surivive….alomst only 6 more weeks until we meet our sweet little boy, and I’ll be ready for him…..BOY, WILL I EVER BE READY!
This Auntie will be VERY happy if he comes in the next 2 and 1/2 weeks. I know, selfish of me, but, whatever. Either that or be a week late? How do you feel about that? 🙂 Love you. I’m so glad things are going well.
I can’t wait to hear the news of his arrival too! this is just soooo exciting!
I think it would be nice if he would wait for Grandma to come home from Fiji before he comes….. but I would rather he just comes……when it is his time… praise the Lord…. I am glad you are getting already…. I am thankful you are having such hope and peace… and I pray for more for you I love you lots….. thanks Patti Love momma.
No worries about prenatal refreshers. What can they teach you that you don’t already know about the baby comning out? The good news is that as long as you breathe, they do eventually come out. Everyone tries to make it so complicated, but really, just breathe, relax, and we’ll see that baby soon.
Bon