I Hate Feeling Useless…..

I’m not really certain how I’m doing right now.

I’m feeling like I’m at the end of my rope. We’ve had a bunch of stuff that we’ve been dealing with for a long time, now, and I feel like I’ve been holding my breath for far too long.

I feel like I just really need a break, and I have absolutely no idea when we are going to get one, and that in itself is really crushing.

I don’t just mean a vacation, but I mean a period of time when the stresses of life actually seems to catch up with life and we are able to live in a semi-stress free zone……..free from squashing financial issues, free from communication issues, free from ADD/ADHD issues, free from dairy intolerance issues, free from……

It’s not even that I want to be free from those things, but just that they wouldn’t seem to be sitting so heavy on us and feeling like they are crushing us under their weight.

I keep trying to think about what I could do to change how I’m feeling right now, and I can’t come up with anything. I know that this post may have a few people contact me all worried, and I don’t know what to do about that.

I am feeling overwhelmed, but I don’t know that there is anything that you can do for me. I’m not opposed to having help, I just dont know what that “help” would look like. I hate that my house feels cluttered. I hate that my brain feels cluttered. I hate that there are things that I would like to do and I have neither the time, nor the energy, nor the means to make any of it happen….that leaves me feeling pretty freakin’ useless.

I HATE FEELING USELESS!

I really hope that this is just a phase or a “moment” and that this moment will pass sooner as oppsed to later. That would be nice, wouldn’t it?

How about a subject change….just for fun?

I made this “Summer ‘Slaw” yesterday, and it was DELICIOUS! If I do say so myself, which I do.

It was very easy to make; and good for you, too.

Here is the list of ingredients:

2 fresh beets
1/4 head of purple cabbage
2 carrots
1 chunk of Daikon
2 Tbsp of Newman’s Own Dressing (the original oil and vinegar)

I chopped up the beets, carrots and daikon into 2-3 inch strips, and chopped up the purple cabbage into shredded pieces. Threw it all into a bowl and added approx. 2 Tbsp of Newman’s Own Salad Dressing, but really any oil and vinegar dressing would do. I will be making some as soon as I use up this bottle, but for now it was quick and easy to just dollop some on. Tossed everything and set it on the table.

The sweet of the beets is complimented by the tang of the Daikon and it’s just the perfect amount of crunch.

I had pulled out a small bowl and set aside some before I poured the dressing on – to appease Angelica and Jeremy who both seem to have some weird sauce thing going on, but seeing as the “weird sauce issue” probably came from me….I try to work with them…SOMETIMES! Other times, I just make them try it and choke down a few bites. Usually by the 4th time that I serve something, which means that they have to try one bite everytime…they’ve managed to overcome whatever issues they had in the first place…either that or they just give up on whining about it.

But regardless of my kids weirdnesses…..give this salad a try. It’s delicious and we’ll be definately be having it again sometime soon.

I also want to talk about the flour and water sourdough bread starter that I’ve managed to make, and how I should be enjoying fresh bread sometime very soon. And…how I used the starter that you throw away at each feeding to make some crackers for the kids and how those crackers are a HUGE hit. It fact ALL the crackers that I made last night are already gone…..but I gotta get the pics off my camera first….and I haven’t done that yet.

Oh well, I’m off to make some more crackers for tomorrow.

So, how are you doing? Do you have any good healthy salad or summer recipes that you love to make?