I've been REALLY struggling with anxiety lately. It's tough….I used to think that I was SO STRONG and that I was MORE THAN CAPABLE to handle anything. But this "anything" that has been my life over the past 10 years has really done a number on me. I feel so weak and incapable of anything other than just existing. I feel good for a day and then whatever I end up doing on that day exhausts me for the next few days. I see other people going out and "doing things" and it's all I can do to hold myself together. I wish I could find the words to explain what I really mean, because I can totally see how this could come across as a "pity party" and that's not how I'm saying it, nor the emotions that I'm feeling. Having said that, I've not done much exercise and I've most definitely not been eating well and it is quite obvious, in my mind, that there is a definite link between those things. It's been a really tough couple if days, internally, for me and tonight, I made myself get on the treadmill. I most certainly did not "want" to. It was more of a "mental health necessity" than anything. I desperately needed the endorphins. I still don't feel amazing, but at least I'm tired, now. Hopefully I'll be able to get some rest and have a better day tomorrow. #hopefortomorrow #anxiety #exercise #mentalhealth
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