Jon and Geli went into the hospital yesterday and I honestly believed that it would be a super quick in and out.
By super quick, I mean approximately 1 hour……that’s about how long it takes to have her blood drawn and then to get the results back. The 1 dose of IV Chemo takes about 10-15 mins and can be given while they are waiting on the results.
We had wondered about her needing a red blood transfusion because she was quite pale and very tired.
I wasn’t expecting that all her counts would be quite as low as they are. Her counts had seemed to be heading up but right now they are looooooooow. Which means no more school this week! Seriously, what’s up with that?
And so she scored herself 2 bags of red blood cells and a bag of platelets…….and the quick 1 hour appointment turned into and ALL DAY AFFAIR.
My mom had come over just after they left and took Siah with her over to visit my sister. So, I had the day with just Judah and myself. I wish I weren’t quite so exhausted. I was left feeling like I HAD to clean while I had the opportunity and no one else was there and also like I just wanted to sit on the couch and do nothing…..the end result was that I did neither very well and ended up feeling guilty about it all. How’s that for wrecking your day…..
I coulda……
I could have done this or that or the other thing, and all I accomplished was eating junk food(this belongs in a whole ‘nuther post itself about emotional eating), 3 loads of laundry, disinfecting the floors, a blog post and dinner for the family.
So we will be fed and clothed an hopefully free(er) from germs, but not much more than that. I’m thankful that I managed to sanitize the bathrooms early this morning.
Depending on how her counts rise, starting the next stage may be stalled a week. We are hoping that her counts rebound this week and that things move forward as planned BUT….we just have to see how it goes and carry on from there.
Friend, you know – I have to admit that I sometimes fail to come here and read because I feel so overwhelmed with all that you are living in … but today I felt compelled to come by nd see how you and your family were doing. Patti – the guilt that you may feel is NOT of God. You are more than a Proverbs 31 woman … know that all of us are in awe of your strength and love for your family. How you do it, I will NEVER know … but know that I stand amazed at all that you are!! xx
Hey Patti
I understand that dealing with cancer has heavy toll (i dont know what the correct phrase is) dont focus on what you should do, just focus on what you can do for the day. IT takes a great deal of energy out of you, i been there with dealing with my cancer. Just do what you can do. Dont let the guilt ruined your day and take away more energy away from yoou. I know the feeling when i did not do all the things that i used to do. there is a season to do lots and a season to do little. not all seasons are doing lots done okay. i am praying for you. IT is frustrating not doing what you want done. i am that way being organized and not live up to it really bugs me. IT is a long haul ahead of you on the journey take a rest here and there. when you not doing it it means the body is telling you to do little and rest so you can have energy for the next day. You are not alone. Other parents of cancer children have gone through this tooo.. love you lots Debra I really miss you and wish i could give you a hug i miss your hug you are a special lady i am so proud of you as a mother of your children
Patti, Aunty Ruth and I are thankful for the blog so we can keep up with what is happening and pray and love more specifically. As mentioned in your other 2 comments today do not be discouraged for what you didn’t get done. We are not being marked either here or in heaven for what we didn’t get done but how we lived our life in Christ (loving, caring). We all have busy schedules but need to just pause when the Lord brings that pause along and rest or spend time with Him and others. Keep your spiritual chin up.
Love
Aunty Hope
Be kind to yourself. I agree totally with the previous comments…..
Love and prayers
Hey Patti, I reckon you got heaps accomplished what you talking about, considering all, family feed, floors done,laundry, Judah happy yip sounds like all needs meet. I love the last pic of Angelica, have put it on my desktop, and pray for her all day, so thats your night watch covered, considering the time difference. Take care girl, love you lots, heaps, tons!!!!
Amen to what Aunty Hope said….how thankful we are that God in His grace calls us ONLY to live our lives for Him….that WHATEVER we do, we do in love and with a thankful heart that our Father in heaven knows full well what we are walking THROUGH… And trust Him sweetheart , you WILL walk through this x x