I asked Xandra if she would like to write a post and she said yes. Here are her words explaining some of her feelings……
So… My mom wants me to write a blog post. At the moment I really don’t know what to write about. Here we go. Well when we found out about Geli having to go the hospital I surprised myself. I didn’t cry or pout. I was fine. I did have trouble sleeping by looking at my clock. If your wondering why, it was because of the lines that make out the numbers.. I counted all of the lines for each number and well yeah. But the next night I cried and cried and cried and cried and cried because I found out that my Dad and my sister wouldn’t come home for 2 weeks, and until I get over this cough I can’t see them (Please pray for my throat)!!! It’s difficult to not know anything that’s happening to my sister. Yes, I do know that she is in the hospital, that she HAD leukemia and she is getting chemotherapy so she doesn’t ever get it again. I’m just not informed of what the side affects are for each medication or when she is going into the hospital for what drugs or procedures. I have talked with my parents about this and really they say they are going to get me something that I can read to know what is happening but they haven’t gotten around to it yet.
Something else to talk about is school. I love school and what there is to learn but during this season I’m finding it a little difficult. All I mean by difficult is that I have trouble bringing in my homework on time. I try I really do but it just doesn’t happen. That’s all for today
I love you all, Xandra
After she wrote and titled this, I asked her to answer three questions for me…..
1. What is hard about your Dad and Geli being in the hospital?
Having them be so far away. Not seeing them. I’m just used to having dad tuck me in at night and praying for me.
2. What is the worst thing about all of this (the Leukemia, the Chemotherapy, this past 7 months? everything)?
Well the worst thing is that Geli feels crappy lots of the time. It cinda makes me feel upset.
3. What is something good in your life that is happening right now?
Something good that is happening is that (I’m don’t mean to be selfish) everyone comes to see us to support us when Geli is in the hospital. It makes me feel loved.
hey Xandra
Just wanted to let you know that you are LOVED and VERY SPECIAL LADY. It has been a hard 7 months for you and that i am PROUD of you for trying to deal with all this. Praying for you. And being honest about your feelings does NOT make you weak, it makes you STRONG. LOVE and prayerS Debra
Hi Zani Thats a beautiful happy looking picture of you and it was nice to read your blog. I will pray for your sore throat and that God just might make it less than two weeks before you see Geli and your Dad Love Grandma. Give your Mom a big hug for me.. Geli if you read this know we love you and are praying for you. GrandmaR. Jon too.
I love you Xani! You should post a pic of your sweet mohawk. You look so awesome with it. I have some cute pics of you and jack.
We love you always,
Love Uncle Denver, Aunty Debbie and Jack Giovani
Xani. You are amazing. You are beautiful. You are brave. You are strong (even when you don’t feel like it!)
You are a girl of courage.
This is all part of “your” story. It’s yours and only yours. And it’s making you into the incredible young lady that you are. I can’t wait to see what happens in your story next!!! God’s writing a reeeeeeally cool chapter for you I think 🙂 He’s showing all of us his great great GREAT love through YOUR story! Pretty sweet huh?!
Lots of love girl
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