{"id":9172,"date":"2023-05-09T23:21:00","date_gmt":"2023-05-10T06:21:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/midnight-musings\/"},"modified":"2023-05-10T00:27:51","modified_gmt":"2023-05-10T07:27:51","slug":"midnight-musings","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/midnight-musings\/","title":{"rendered":"Midnight Musings"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>I\u2019m laying in bed with a million thoughts running through my brain. You\u2019re welcome to tag along, if you\u2019d like.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Why do bad things happen? I\u2019ve never really focused  or got stuck on that concept and I\u2019m not sure why.  I\u2019ve certainly had my share of tough situations.   I know that it\u2019s a common thing.  <em>Why?  Why did this happen?  Why did that happen?  Why did it happen to me?  <\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"840\" height=\"840\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/05\/img_5603.jpg?resize=840%2C840&#038;ssl=1\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-9173\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/05\/img_5603.jpg?resize=1024%2C1024&amp;ssl=1 1024w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/05\/img_5603.jpg?resize=300%2C300&amp;ssl=1 300w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/05\/img_5603.jpg?resize=150%2C150&amp;ssl=1 150w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/05\/img_5603.jpg?resize=768%2C768&amp;ssl=1 768w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/05\/img_5603.jpg?resize=250%2C250&amp;ssl=1 250w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/05\/img_5603.jpg?resize=400%2C400&amp;ssl=1 400w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/05\/img_5603.jpg?resize=100%2C100&amp;ssl=1 100w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/05\/img_5603.jpg?w=1080&amp;ssl=1 1080w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 709px) 85vw, (max-width: 909px) 67vw, (max-width: 1362px) 62vw, 840px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>I have a vague recollection of my dad saying that there\u2019s no point in focusing on \u201cThe Why.\u201d  I think he shared that with me either after his mom died or after Nathaniel died.  He wasn\u2019t saying it in a dismissive way.  I believe he was encouraging me to accept that sometimes bad or difficult things happen.  We don\u2019t always have control over our circumstances but we do have the ability to choose how we act and react moving forward. Getting stuck focused on circumstances beyond our control doesn\u2019t help us; but we do have the ability to focus on and choose what to do next.  <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I wonder if it has something to do with assigning blame.  Does \u201cthe why\u201d look to figure out what went wrong so there\u2019s something or someone to blame?  Or is it just a distraction?  Is it our minds looking to shift focus from feeling to doing in an effort to alleviate pain? Hmmmm\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Is it possible to search for solutions without assigning blame?  This is a weird thought trail I\u2019m wandering down. I think it must be possible?  Right?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I have this song playing on repeat inside my head and heart tonight.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center\"><em>All my life You have been faithful.  All my life You have been so SO good.  With every breathe that I am able. I will sing of the Goodness of God.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-embed is-type-video is-provider-youtube wp-block-embed-youtube wp-embed-aspect-16-9 wp-has-aspect-ratio\"><div class=\"wp-block-embed__wrapper\">\n<iframe loading=\"lazy\" title=\"Goodness Of God (LIVE) - Jenn Johnson | VICTORY\" width=\"840\" height=\"473\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/n0FBb6hnwTo?feature=oembed\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture; web-share\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe>\n<\/div><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>I want to always remember that my life has been so filled with goodness and love and grace; and that nothing can take away from that.  That goodness and love and grace can coexist along side the tragedy and heartbreak that we experience; and although they don\u2019t take away the pain or hurt, maybe just maybe, they fill our heart and soul with enough light and comfort that it makes it all just a little more manageable.  <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I\u2019m laying in bed with a million thoughts running through my brain. You\u2019re welcome to tag along, if you\u2019d like. Why do bad things happen? I\u2019ve never really focused or got stuck on that concept and I\u2019m not sure why. I\u2019ve certainly had my share of tough situations. I know that it\u2019s a common thing. &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/midnight-musings\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\"> &#8220;Midnight Musings&#8221;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[33,5,16,63,56,41,73],"tags":[203,87,204,183,182,214,86,127,201,207,212],"class_list":["post-9172","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-deep-thoughts","category-life","category-me","category-mental-health","category-remembering-the-past","category-thankfulness","category-writing","tag-anxiety","tag-choose-joy","tag-gratitude","tag-happiness","tag-mental-health","tag-my-best-life","tag-practise-gratitude","tag-rv-park","tag-see-the-good","tag-writing","tag-you-are-worthy"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9172","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=9172"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9172\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":9175,"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9172\/revisions\/9175"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=9172"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=9172"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=9172"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}