{"id":8666,"date":"2021-09-20T22:53:08","date_gmt":"2021-09-21T05:53:08","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/46-2\/"},"modified":"2021-09-20T22:57:11","modified_gmt":"2021-09-21T05:57:11","slug":"46-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/46-2\/","title":{"rendered":"46"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

Dear 16 year old me,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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You\u2019re gonna be okay. These overwhelming feeling of insecurity and intrusive thoughts are part of a life long anxiety disorder, probably a chemical imbalance and you will eventually figure that out. You\u2019re not broken or awful. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

It\u2019s okay that you\u2019ve not had a boyfriend, yet. You\u2019re going to find an incredible boy who will grow up to be an even more incredible man. You are gorgeous, smart and powerful. It\u2019s okay to be a strong woman. Your strength will serve you well in the future. You don\u2019t have to pretend to be something you\u2019re not and who you are, is incredible. You\u2019ve got this!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Dear 26 year old me,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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3 kids, eh? You\u2019re a rockstar!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

That littlest one you\u2019re holding?!? He is going to teach you more than you ever imagined was possible. You are going to learn patience and compassion, communication, persistence, gentleness, love, and so much more. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

You\u2019ve got a lot of life ahead of you and lots that I wish I could protect you from. You\u2019re in for a world of heartbreak, trauma and devastation; but the flip side of all of that hurt is the most glorious awareness of grace and mercy. You are going to learn to love, have compassion and care for others in a way that will rock your world, in the best way possible. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

That strength I mentioned earlier, it will do you well as we navigate these dark days ahead. You will survive. I promise. Even though it may feel like you could die from the pain and heartbreak, I can promise you that you won\u2019t. You\u2019ve got this!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Dear 36 year old me,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Can you believe that we have 5 incredible kids? Those 2 miracle boys born after all those losses\u2026..AMAZING, eh? It\u2019s a lot of work, but this second round of parenting is so much easier than the first round, isn\u2019t it? <\/p>\n\n\n\n

You thought the losses were tough but you\u2019ve got another decade of unfathomable heart break. Between 3 years of Pediatric Cancer treatment, the physical, mental and emotional fallout from the treatment, mental health issues, trauma, school issues, and so much more – this is the decade that is going to really test you. Even though you will feel that you are walking a fine line between surviving and breaking, you will survive. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

This is the decade that you learn just exactly how strong you are. Even if you wish you weren\u2019t as strong because you\u2019re exhausted and sometimes you wish it would all just go away or stop – you\u2019ve got this. One day, one hour, one moment, one breath at a time. Breathe girl, breathe! This season won\u2019t last forever.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Dear 46 year old me,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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I truly wonder what this next decade will bring. I\u2019d like to believe that the pain of the previous 2 decades will lighten up some. It\u2019s been intense enough to last a lifetime. But the gifts that have come along side the pain have been glorious. In spite of all that we\u2019ve been through, we\u2019ve had the most incredible life and it\u2019s not over yet!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

You are wise! You are strong! You are brave! You are beautiful! Trust yourself! Trust your instincts! Believe in yourself! Believe that you have a voice! Believe that your dreams are valid and important! Believe that you can affect positive change in the world! Believe that you are a strong and powerful women. Know that your strength is one of your super-powers. Keep going to counselling! Keep reaching for inner healing! Have patience with yourself! You are a work in progress. You\u2019ve got this!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Dear 16 year old me, You\u2019re gonna be okay. These overwhelming feeling of insecurity and intrusive thoughts are part of a life long anxiety disorder, probably a chemical imbalance and you will eventually figure that out. You\u2019re not broken or awful. It\u2019s okay that you\u2019ve not had a boyfriend, yet. You\u2019re going to find an … Continue reading “46”<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24,57,82,48,33,16,63,9],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-8666","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-addadhd","category-anxiety","category-autism","category-cancer-sucks","category-deep-thoughts","category-me","category-mental-health","category-special-days"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8666","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=8666"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8666\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":8668,"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8666\/revisions\/8668"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=8666"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=8666"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=8666"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}