{"id":8264,"date":"2020-01-14T23:55:16","date_gmt":"2020-01-15T06:55:16","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/?p=8264"},"modified":"2020-01-14T23:55:37","modified_gmt":"2020-01-15T06:55:37","slug":"daily-photos-2316","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/daily-photos-2316\/","title":{"rendered":"Daily Photos"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/01\/81760620_161882501800192_6512511492149656545_n.jpg?ssl=1\" title=\"Daily Photos\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/01\/81760620_161882501800192_6512511492149656545_n.jpg?w=840&#038;ssl=1\" alt=\"Daily Photos\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>15 years ago, this month, our son, Nathaniel died and then was born.  It seems backward; like it\u2019s not the order life should happen in.  Children shouldn\u2019t die before their parents.  Babies shouldn\u2019t die before they\u2019re born.  One thing I\u2019ve learned over the last 15 years is that there are no guarantees in this life.  In the early years after Nathaniel was born, I had SO MANY regrets.  I wish we had held him longer.  I wish we had taken more pictures.  I wish we had brought our family in to meet him.  I wish&#8230;&#8230;It felt like we were so unsure as to what to do and what was considered \u201cappropriate\u201d. Since then, I\u2019ve tried to live my life in such a way that I don\u2019t have regrets.  Does that mean that I just threw abandon to the wind and did whatever I wanted&#8230;.no!  But over the past 15 years, I\u2019ve done less of what \u201cmight be expected of me or what might be considered appropriate\u201d. And more of what\u2019s important to me and what I truly believe is necessary.  I\u2019ve listened to my heart more and in doing so, I\u2019ve found SO. MUCH. FREEDOM. It\u2019s one of the many gifts that came from my son.  Even within the darkness of loss and trauma, when I looked for the light, I found it.  This gift was so very necessary as we navigated the next 15 years of loss and trauma.  Even though he never took a breath, his legacy is one of wonder, compassion and hope; and that is incredible, in my mind.  #nathanielmark #remembering #loss #stillbirth #legacy #abstractpainting <br \/><small>Posted by <a href=\"http:\/\/wordpress.org\/extend\/plugins\/instagrate-to-wordpress\/\">Intagrate Lite<\/a><\/small><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>15 years ago, this month, our son, Nathaniel died and then was born. It seems backward; like it\u2019s not the order life should happen in. Children shouldn\u2019t die before their parents. Babies shouldn\u2019t die before they\u2019re born. One thing I\u2019ve learned over the last 15 years is that there are no guarantees in this life. &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/daily-photos-2316\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\"> &#8220;Daily Photos&#8221;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[62],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-8264","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-instagram"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8264","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=8264"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8264\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":8266,"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8264\/revisions\/8266"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=8264"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=8264"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=8264"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}