{"id":725,"date":"2009-10-28T09:35:10","date_gmt":"2009-10-28T16:35:10","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/?p=725"},"modified":"2009-10-27T11:17:28","modified_gmt":"2009-10-27T18:17:28","slug":"addressing-the-issue-of-size","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/addressing-the-issue-of-size\/","title":{"rendered":"Addressing the Issue of Size&#8230;&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I thought that I could say something about myself and my size.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;ve gotten a few comments about how I look good or about how someone would never have guessed that I weigh what I weigh and it got me thinking&#8230;..<em>.and as it goes, I&#8217;m going to share what I&#8217;m thinking&#8230;..who wouldda guessed that, eh?<\/em><\/p>\n<p>I am not a small person.<\/p>\n<p>I have NEVER been a small person&#8230;&#8230;well, maybe when I was a baby, but other than that&#8230;.<\/p>\n<p>When I was 12 years old, I grew 6 inches over one summer landing me at 5 foot 8 inches tall by the end of that summer.  I weighed 120 pounds and modeled for a few years after that.  I wasn&#8217;t fat or overweight, in fact I was thin&#8230;&#8230;but I am (<em>and was<\/em>) a BIG person.<\/p>\n<p>Now, I am 5 foot 10 inches and currently I weigh 193.8 lbs.  I come from a big family.  There are big bones on both sides of my heritage.  I managed to get size in my genetic make up.  I carry the weight well and fairly evenly distributed&#8230;.I&#8217;d prefer that I have a little less in the truck and a little more up top (<em>if ya know what I mean<\/em>) but for the most part I&#8217;m not completely depressed by how I look&#8230;.<em>for someone who&#8217;s has a million children&#8230;..or ya know 4.<\/em><\/p>\n<p>I am a big person.  It&#8217;s taken some time, but for the most part I am comfortable being a big person.  <\/p>\n<p>It was difficult as a teenager.  I won&#8217;t lie.  And I struggled with feeling like &#8220;Ginormica&#8221; compared to the majority of my friends and especially my mother and sisters&#8230;..they&#8217;re petite!  But I came to realize that there was nothing I could do to change my size and that I could be miserable about something that I couldn&#8217;t change or I could accept that it was who I am and carry on with life.<\/p>\n<p>There are aspects of being a tall, big boned person that I like.  I can hide a few extra pounds on my frame.  I am strong.  I can reach things in high places without needing help or even a stool.<\/p>\n<p>Obviously, there are things that I don&#8217;t like about my size&#8230;..I&#8217;m not a big fan of the &#8220;number&#8221; of my weight.  I don&#8217;t like feeling like I&#8217;m taller than all my girlfriends.  I hate shopping because most pants are floods and those in the &#8220;tall girl&#8221; section have a rise in the crotch that makes the waist band sit right under my armpits.  It&#8217;s a HAWT look!<\/p>\n<p>But, for the most part I&#8217;m fairly happy with myself.  I would like to lose some weight.  Ideally, I&#8217;m about 20 pounds heavier than I&#8217;m could be, but honestly, I&#8217;m totally okay with weighing 180-185 lbs.   <em>I weighed 170-175 lbs when I got married and was by no means &#8220;large&#8221; at that point.<\/em>  I feel stronger and healthier when I weigh a little bit less than I do now.  I&#8217;m not looking to be super model thin.  I am completely realistic with myself and my size.<\/p>\n<p>I currently wear size 11-15 pants depending on the cut, style and fabric.  I wear a Medium to Large Shirt.  I wear a size 10 shoe.<\/p>\n<p>I am just a big person.<\/p>\n<p>I see Angelica who is 12 years old walking the &#8220;big girl&#8221; road and I&#8217;m doing everything in my power to help her LOVE who she is.<\/p>\n<p>It helps that I&#8217;m bigger than her&#8230;&#8230;.for now!  It helps that there are WAY more girls out there nowadays who are bigger and taller.  It&#8217;s more normal now for girls to reach 6 feet tall and to have size 12 feet.  It was brutal when I was 12\/13 years old walking into a shoe store HOPING and PRAYING that they&#8217;d have even just 1 pair of a size 10 shoe and that it wasn&#8217;t too ugly.  Now, It&#8217;s awesome to walk into shoe stores and to see size 11 and 12 ladies shoes and the variety and quantity.  Not that I need that size, but if my girls do&#8230;.no problems.  It helps that I know what it feels like to be a big person.<\/p>\n<p>I am a BIG person and I&#8217;m working on being as healthy as I can be.  <\/p>\n<p>I want to model good exercise habits for my kids.  I want to teach them to eat well.  I don&#8217;t want to see them sucked into the whole &#8220;<em>I need to diet to be thin and acceptable<\/em>&#8221; garbage.  I want them to be aware of themselves in a healthy positive way.  I want to teach them to be responsible for their health.  I want them to love themselves for who they are and not for their size.<\/p>\n<p>And so, I am working on myself because I believe that modeling healthy positive ways to live, eat and exercise is one of the best ways that I can train my children&#8230;.and I think it&#8217;s working!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I thought that I could say something about myself and my size. I&#8217;ve gotten a few comments about how I look good or about how someone would never have guessed that I weigh what I weigh and it got me thinking&#8230;&#8230;and as it goes, I&#8217;m going to share what I&#8217;m thinking&#8230;..who wouldda guessed that, eh? &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/addressing-the-issue-of-size\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\"> &#8220;Addressing the Issue of Size&#8230;&#8230;&#8221;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[26,19,8,16,21],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-725","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-exercise","category-gelica","category-health","category-me","category-weight"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/725","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=725"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/725\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":726,"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/725\/revisions\/726"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=725"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=725"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=725"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}