{"id":7,"date":"2007-04-25T22:50:31","date_gmt":"2007-04-26T05:50:31","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/?p=7"},"modified":"2007-04-27T17:00:28","modified_gmt":"2007-04-28T00:00:28","slug":"im-late-but-learning-to-run-on-his-time","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/im-late-but-learning-to-run-on-his-time\/","title":{"rendered":"I’m Late but Learning to Run on His Time"},"content":{"rendered":"

It was my brother Tim’s birthday yesterday.\u00c2\u00a0 He turned 28 years old.\u00c2\u00a0 Man, we are all getting old.\u00c2\u00a0 I don’t actually have a problem with that, but maybe my siblings would have a problem with me saying that.\u00c2\u00a0 I had to count backwards from me (I’m turning 32 this year<\/em>), and realized that Chelle will be 30 in June!\u00c2\u00a0 WOW!\u00c2\u00a0 Seems like only yesterday I was standing in the Fireside room in Elim or New Life or whatever it was called then, and counting off 8 more years until I would be completely finished school.\u00c2\u00a0 Now, here I am, and my eldest daughter has only 8 more years until she is finished high school.<\/p>\n

We are home, and well………it was a difficult day.\u00c2\u00a0 So exciting with Chris coming home (to the coast<\/em>), but it kinda felt like I was accosted with a WHOLE TON OF STUFF when I walked in through the door.\u00c2\u00a0 I think that by the time we got the kids settled down and in bed, that things were at least on their way to becoming “normal” again.\u00c2\u00a0 Is that even possible?\u00c2\u00a0 This whole unreal (and yet very real<\/em>) situation with Chris affects EVERYONE………..and it affects everyone in a unique way.<\/p>\n

At least I know that this time when I came home after being away for only (almost<\/em>) 3 days, that the kids really missed me.\u00c2\u00a0 I had to tease Xani for her comment about not even realizing that I was gone last week.\u00c2\u00a0 I think that she is the one who has missed me the most over the past few days.\u00c2\u00a0 Funny little ones.\u00c2\u00a0 We did a lot of talking this afternoon and tonight.\u00c2\u00a0 I just let them talk about anything and everything.\u00c2\u00a0 It was good for them, I think.<\/p>\n

Xani suggested that from now on, I drop them off at school, and then head in to see Uncle Chris and Aunty Nina, and then come home when school was finished.\u00c2\u00a0 That is kinda what I was planning…….sorta.\u00c2\u00a0<\/p>\n

I have an appointment with my naturopath tomorrow at 10am.\u00c2\u00a0 This is basically just a hold my hand appointment because this is around the time that we lost Nathaniel.\u00c2\u00a0 I will admit that last week was fabulous.\u00c2\u00a0 Nothing like focusing on someone else to enable you to not have to deal with your own life struggles.\u00c2\u00a0 This week has not been as good as far as evading the thoughts and fears.\u00c2\u00a0 I don’t feel like I’m overwhelmed, or that fear is rising up inside of me.\u00c2\u00a0 It feels more like the thoughts are coming at me from outside.\u00c2\u00a0 I can hear them, and recognize that they aren’t comfortable thoughts, but I can’t seem to block or ignore them entirely.<\/p>\n

So, I have this appointment where she will tell me that I’m doing good, and that everything is going well, and so just keep trucking along.\u00c2\u00a0 And so I will!<\/p>\n

No worries!\u00c2\u00a0 I’ve been taking good care of myself.\u00c2\u00a0 I’m not an idiot!\u00c2\u00a0 It is possible to eat and drink enough water, even in an emergent or critical situation; and a little bit of lost sleep won’t kill anyone.\u00c2\u00a0 And honestly, I’m not even really stressed.\u00c2\u00a0<\/p>\n

It’s amazing\u00c2\u00a0how freeing just hearing God’s voice can be.\u00c2\u00a0 Once you learn to trust that what He says will come to pass, it make life so much easier.\u00c2\u00a0 Don’t know what to do or to think?????<\/em>\u00c2\u00a0 Just ask the Father, and obey whatever He says.\u00c2\u00a0 If he says your brother will live, and not lose his arm, then I choose to believe that He keeps His word.\u00c2\u00a0 My Father is not a liar.\u00c2\u00a0 And if He says that my child will live, same thing….I choose to believe that He keeps His promises and that I can rest assured that He will take care of me and protect my little one.\u00c2\u00a0 Now, this doesn’t mean that I’m super human and never experience a moment of doubt or fear, but I do have WAY MORE peace than if I were just stumbling along all by myself, and trying to have some hope that things might turn out okay.<\/p>\n

I know, that even if for some reason I heard wrong, or wanted to hear some thing…..I know that God will walk me through whatever road I have to walk down.\u00c2\u00a0 He’s already proven that time and time again.\u00c2\u00a0<\/p>\n

So, tomorrow, I will get up, an see my kids off to school.\u00c2\u00a0 I will go to my appointment, and then I will go to see Chris and Nina and whoever else happens to be there……….And we\u00c2\u00a0WILL hear good reports about how God is doing amazing creative miracles in Chris AND Nina’s bodies!\u00c2\u00a0 I’m so glad he’s here at the coast, and in VGH!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

It was my brother Tim’s birthday yesterday.\u00c2\u00a0 He turned 28 years old.\u00c2\u00a0 Man, we are all getting old.\u00c2\u00a0 I don’t actually have a problem with that, but maybe my siblings would have a problem with me saying that.\u00c2\u00a0 I had to count backwards from me (I’m turning 32 this year), and realized that Chelle will … Continue reading “I’m Late but Learning to Run on His Time”<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[3,6,5,4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-7","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-birthdays","category-chris","category-life","category-pregnancy"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=7"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=7"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=7"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=7"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}