OH TODAY………..<\/p>\n
Well, if you follow me on Twitter<\/a>, then you would have had first hand witness to the colossal train wreck that was me on my way into the Vancouver Blogher Meet Up. It was AMAZING….seriously! Even if you don’t follow me, just go ahead and click on that link and have a good laugh. <\/p>\n You might have to go back a page (click on “more”) and it starts with the “Headed into Vancouver….running a bit late” post.<\/p>\n My stress level started out fairly manageable, and honestly – I was doing so well (in my head – HA!<\/em>) and then the closer we got the more I started freaking out and honestly….if I hadn’t put it out here that I was going to this and if I hadn’t had a bit of encouragement<\/a> then I probably wouldn’t have gone.<\/p>\n AWESOME!!!! Isn’t it?<\/p>\n Alright, well! As you could see – all tweets stopped after I left the car. What you can’t see is that Jon dropped me off at the WRONG Cafe Artigiano. I seriously just about chewed my left arm off trying to convince myself to walk down the road and into the place and when I got in there….it was empty…..lemme back up a moment…..<\/p>\n See, I had asked Jon to find the address and he went online looking to look it up. He is typically very competent and so I figured that all was good. We drove to the original location and in my stress and panic I had totally forgot that the location had changed.<\/p>\n So, here I am in an almost empty Coffee Shop and am absolutely lost for what to do. I stand there for a moment trying to come up with something and then I leave. I walk down the road and remember that the location had changed and that Jon must not have seen that post……LOVELY! So, I’m frantically typing into my blackberry trying to figure out the other location or to pull up the Blogher Post where it’s mentioned……So I call Jon…..and he’s circling the block until he figures that I’m not going to freak…..<\/p>\n Awesome! If that doesn’t make me feel stupid, I don’t know what does.<\/p>\n So he picks me up and we head to the right place. <\/p>\n See haven’t even walked in the “correct” door and already I have a “story” about today. So all that original stress of having to walk into the place…..and I have to go and do it all again. GGGGGAAAAWWWWKKK!<\/p>\n So, I walk in……..see all these beautiful women……..and although I’m feeling TOTALLY out of my element….it’s all okay.<\/p>\n Well, that’s a load of crap. It was not “all okay.” It was good. It was great. It was also VERY stressful for me.<\/p>\n I’m at home and it’s 2+ hours since I left and only now am I starting to be able to breathe again.<\/p>\n I know how stupid this is. Believe me. Anxiety is not a fun thing. I HATE that this “thing” has had such a control on my life and I’m doing everything in my power to face my demons head on. <\/p>\n I am thrilled that I went. I know that given a day or 10, that I’ll look back on this and be all, “That was the best time EVER! I’m so glad that I went. It was NOTHING. I could TOTALLY do that again.<\/em>”<\/p>\n And the thing is, now that I’ve done it. I totally could. Does it mean that I won’t spazz out the next time that I do something like this. Nope! Probably still will, BUT….I’m not letting this thing rule my life. <\/p>\n I was thrilled to practice my small talk (NOT) annd I’m so blessed to have met all these amazing women, and hopefully we’ll get to meet again and maybe I’ll say more than 2 words.<\/p>\n Honestly guys, I’m not so quiet when I’m not freaking out. I’m not the worlds hugest extrovert, but I’m not quite so quiet.<\/p>\n Regardless of what comes of today…..I know that I did something that was HUGE for me. And…..I did manage to meet some real life people, and…. I feel like I’m a bit more a part of this local blogging community.<\/p>\n And all of “that” makes me very, very happy.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" OH TODAY……….. Well, if you follow me on Twitter, then you would have had first hand witness to the colossal train wreck that was me on my way into the Vancouver Blogher Meet Up. It was AMAZING….seriously! 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