{"id":2280,"date":"2012-02-06T12:14:15","date_gmt":"2012-02-06T20:14:15","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/?p=2280"},"modified":"2012-02-06T12:14:15","modified_gmt":"2012-02-06T20:14:15","slug":"what-are-you-thankful-for","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/what-are-you-thankful-for\/","title":{"rendered":"What are you Thankful for?"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>It&#8217;s Monday morning&#8230;.well, it&#8217;s almost noon and I&#8217;m sitting on my couch&#8230;.in the sunshine&#8230;.in the quiet&#8230;&#8230;well, it would be quiet if Geli wasn&#8217;t hacking and couching and sneezing in the back ground.  She&#8217;s stayed home another day from school.  She woke up this morning with some &#8220;<em>gastro-intestinal issues<\/em>&#8221; and that&#8217;s all we&#8217;ll say about that.  It&#8217;s all just a part of the stupid virus.  I can&#8217;t wait for it to run it&#8217;s course and be gone from our house.  <\/p>\n<p>My mom came by this morning and has taken my boys for a walk.  It&#8217;s nice cause they&#8217;ll get back, we&#8217;ll feed them lunch and then the baby will go for a nap.  That&#8217;s some good timing, as far as I&#8217;m concerned.<\/p>\n<p>Things are okay this morning.  I&#8217;d be lying if I said that I bounded out of bed this morning, ready for the day.  Certain that today was going to be a good day.  It was more like I rolled out of bed &#8217;cause the baby needed a diaper change.  And then I folded 3 loads of laundry before even heading upstairs.   <\/p>\n<p>We managed to get breakfast made, school started and the house somewhat tidied and so right now things feel peaceful.  I know what&#8217;s happening for dinner and I will put it in the oven in a few hours.  There are no appointments, or places to be or things to pick up and so today is a quiet day.  <\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m noticing that right now, my patience is not at the level it normally is.  I snapped at Jeremy this morning instead of calmly explaining to him why it&#8217;s not a good idea to shout in the hallway when his brother is still sleeping.  I don&#8217;t like being rude or disrespectful to my kids.  I&#8217;m trying to teach them to talk respectfully even when they are frustrated or tired or upset and so to model the very behaviour that I&#8217;m trying to teach against&#8230;&#8230;frustrating for me.  It&#8217;s all a lesson, isn&#8217;t it?  I get to apologize and explain what happened and how it&#8217;s not okay.  We hug and move on&#8230;.it&#8217;s just life lessons, but it speaks to me of how little I have to give.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m not hopeless.  I&#8217;ve not given up.  I&#8217;m just tired.  Imagine if you had been walking in the desert for a month and you knew that just over that hill in front of you was a town and there was water, food, a bed&#8230;.rest&#8230;&#8230;and you just had to make it there.  You&#8217;re exhausted.  You don&#8217;t want to carry on, but there is no point in lying down and dying now.  The end is close.  Your dessert experience won&#8217;t last forever, but&#8230;..you are tired.  You don&#8217;t feel like you can take another step.  All you want to do is to lie down.  But if you do&#8230;.you will end up losing out on everything that you struggled for&#8230;.that you fought for&#8230;.all that pain and energy was, then, for nothing.<\/p>\n<p>Sometimes, you just need to sit down and cry.  Let all of the pressure off.  And then you pick your tired self up and carry on&#8230;&#8230;that&#8217;s where I&#8217;m at&#8230;.I&#8217;m carrying on.<\/p>\n<p>We all go through things.  Have I ever wished that I was not going through this&#8230;..OF COURSE!  Do I wish that I had a close friend, someone who really understood&#8230;&#8230;honestly, as nice as that would be&#8230;.NO!  Because that would mean that you were going through this and I wouldn&#8217;t wish that on anyone.  Sure, I&#8217;ve looked at you and wondered why &#8220;I&#8221; am going through this horrible time in my life.  And then I remind myself that WE ARE ALL going through things&#8230;.Life is a constant state of living and dying&#8230;of good and bad&#8230;.of tough times and easy times.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m so aware of the tough times right now because there seems to be so many tough things going on in my life and yet, I try to keep aware of the good things in front of me&#8230;.I have so many good things.  I have an amazing husband&#8230;.<em>who I don&#8217;t get to see nearly enough.  But isn&#8217;t that amazing that after 16+ years that I want to have more time with him and not less.<\/em>  I have 5 amazing kids.  <em>I am all so proud of each of them.  They work through their own struggles and come out winning, and loving and embracing life.<\/em>  My family is amazing and well,&#8230;..I&#8217;m alive and breathing. <\/p>\n<p>Alive is pretty good, no?<\/p>\n<p>Today I&#8217;m choosing to be thankful&#8230;..  I&#8217;d love to hear what you are thankful for, if you wouldn&#8217;t mind sharing?<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m thankful for Jon and my kids.<br \/>\nI&#8217;m thankful for my health.<br \/>\nI&#8217;m thankful for my home.<br \/>\nI&#8217;m thankful for sunshine.<br \/>\nI&#8217;m thankful for my momma.<br \/>\nI&#8217;m thankful for this quiet moment.<\/p>\n<p><strong>What are you thankful for?<br \/>\n<\/strong>  There are no wrong answers&#8230;&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>It&#8217;s Monday morning&#8230;.well, it&#8217;s almost noon and I&#8217;m sitting on my couch&#8230;.in the sunshine&#8230;.in the quiet&#8230;&#8230;well, it would be quiet if Geli wasn&#8217;t hacking and couching and sneezing in the back ground. She&#8217;s stayed home another day from school. She woke up this morning with some &#8220;gastro-intestinal issues&#8221; and that&#8217;s all we&#8217;ll say about that. &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/what-are-you-thankful-for\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\"> &#8220;What are you Thankful for?&#8221;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[48,22,19,8,5,16],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2280","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-cancer-sucks","category-crap","category-gelica","category-health","category-life","category-me"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2280","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2280"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2280\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2281,"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2280\/revisions\/2281"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2280"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2280"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xangelle.com\/dailygrind\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2280"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}