What a day it’s been today and it’s only 12:45pm……CRAZY!<\/p>\n
Right now, Jeremy and Josiah are outside for a little “Daily Physical Activity”, Judah is sleeping on the couch and I’m taking a moment for myself.<\/p>\n
I kept Jeremy home from school today because I figured he needed a “Mental Health Day”.\u00a0 He’s been having some social difficulties at school and I’m concerned about him.\u00a0 Because of the severity of ADHD, there is a lot of “social conduct” that Jeremy has not learned.\u00a0 There are so many things that he just doesn’t “get” and it’s so hard because between him not understanding what is socially acceptable and unacceptable and him being “different” it can get him into social situations that look a lot like bullying.\u00a0 Not where he is bullying, but where he is being bullied.<\/p>\n
I was talking with Jon yesterday about this and just comparing it to rape.\u00a0 Obviously, that is a bad comparison, but when it comes down to it….no woman “asks or deserves” to be raped and no child “asks or deserves” to be bullied…..regardless of what they do or do not do.<\/p>\n
Jeremy is different.\u00a0 I will be the first to acknowledge that.\u00a0 Jeremy often makes awkward social choices without understanding how others will perceive him.\u00a0 He is not aware of how his actions come across or how they are inappropriate.\u00a0 And yet, the way he is currently being treated is not okay.\u00a0 Something has to change.<\/p>\n
I’m not sure what the right thing to do is.\u00a0 I don’t want him to “quit”.\u00a0 I don’t want him to “give up”.\u00a0 This is not something that he should just “suck up” and “get over”.\u00a0 There are more and more kids committing suicide over bullying these days and while I don’t believe that is something that I need to worry about with Jeremy…..I don’t ever want it to get to the place where he might ever contemplate that.\u00a0 I want to advocate for him before it ever got anywhere close to that.<\/p>\n
At the beginning of the year, Jeremy was so excited about school.\u00a0 He had such a positive outlook on school.\u00a0 He was excited about his teacher.\u00a0 He was excited because we were getting his meds tweaked.\u00a0 He was just really, really excited about school in general.\u00a0 So much has changed over the last 3 months.\u00a0 At this point, Jeremy wakes up in the morning and typically the first thing he says to me is that he’s not going to school.\u00a0 He continues to inform me that he’s not going to school until the moment I drop him off at school.\u00a0 And then from the minute he walks in the door, he lets me know that he hates school and that he’s not going back the next day…..He’s called me twice within the last week during the day to let me know that he’s stressed out and needs to come home.\u00a0 I don’t think that he’s being bullied the entire time that he’s at school, but I do think that the stress is wearing on him and making it difficult to focus and concentrate.<\/p>\n
He called me yesterday crying and last night he fell apart.\u00a0 And so…..I told him that he could have a Mental Health day. He calmed a bit after that.<\/p>\n
He is aware that he is going back to school tomorrow and today has not just been a free for all.\u00a0 I have contemplated home schooling him before.\u00a0 I have just as many pros as cons for doing it and for not doing it.\u00a0 It’s a tough call and ultimately I want to be able to do what is best for Jeremy while taking our family into consideration.<\/p>\n
I see that there are things that are so beneficial for example….he’s got a science test coming up and we were studying for that.\u00a0 I was able to help him find the key points and we were able to talk through some of the issues that he didn’t fully understand.\u00a0 I had the ability to walk him through something one on one….and that I can see as totally beneficial.\u00a0 The down side to that, is that I had the two little boys going NUTS on me while I tried to do this.\u00a0 And it was a bit of a gong show.\u00a0 Now, it’s not something that we’ve done before and so I believe that they could learn to do something to entertain themselves which I would like them to do, but there is that factor of them being around to take into the mix. We were also able to play some classical music at the same time and Jeremy does seem to respond to that.\u00a0 He finds it easier to focus when there is classical music on…not something that they can do as easily in the classroom.<\/p>\n
After the science, we worked on his spelling for a bit and I was able to test him orally while he walked around and moved.\u00a0 He got 14 out of 20 and seemed to really like the fact that he was allowed to move and pace.\u00a0 I made him print out the 6 words that he got wrong while standing at our kitchen counter…..on a wobble board.\u00a0 He does so much better when he can move and I think that it was a bonus.<\/p>\n
After that, he played with both his brothers for ten minutes while I tidied up the kitchen.\u00a0 As much as that may seem silly…typically they fight when they play together and my rule was 10 minutes of playing with no fighting.\u00a0 Learning how to co-operate and problem solve while incorporating three very different age groups into the same activity.\u00a0 There was only one small squabble and Jeremy handled it very well….learning leadership….<\/p>\n
After that we had an art period where we painted.\u00a0 We talked about how colors can be transparent or opaque and we started to paint some large garden rocks to prep them to become ladybugs.\u00a0 We talked about doing jobs with excellence especially if you are interested in selling them….he is…and how people want to buy things that are done with excellence.\u00a0 There is a higher value on well made items.<\/p>\n
We cleaned up from our art time and then had lunch.\u00a0 I loved that Jeremy was able to eat a balanced and healthy lunch.\u00a0 I took the baby and nursed him to sleep and then shooshed the two boys outside for half an hour of Daily Physical Activity.<\/p>\n
They are playing amazingly right now.\u00a0 Typically all I hear from them is fighting and screaming….so this is a bit of a Christmas miracle.\u00a0 I don’t know if the fact that everything has been broken down into small chunks of time has made a difference or what, but I like it.<\/p>\n
When they come inside, I’ve got some math worksheets for Jeremy to do and then we are going to do 10 minutes of house tidying.\u00a0 After that I’m going to have them help me with making some cookies and we are going to talk about fractions and multiplication and division wile learning some home ec skills.<\/p>\n
I’m also going to have Jeremy write up a journal entry about his day today.<\/p>\n
There are so many good aspects of today and yet…I’m still not sure.\u00a0 What is the right thing to do?\u00a0 Would homeschooling him for half a year and then sending him back to school be the best thing for him?\u00a0 Would changing schools help?\u00a0 Would just sticking it out, be the best thing?\u00a0 What is the best thing for him?\u00a0 Is there even a “best thing” or do we just make a choice and go with it and believe that whatever we choose will work?<\/p>\n
What do we do about the whole social skills thing?\u00a0 Obviously I could work on it with him at home, but it that the best thing??? Is it better to have an entire school to muddle through these things with?\u00a0 Is he really going to grow up to be in a position where he is in a huge group of people all the time or is there a greater likelihood that he winds up in a more solitary job?\u00a0 Does he need\u00a0 peace for his own mental good and what gives him the greatest amount of peace?\u00a0 I don’t know all the answers to my questions and that’s tough on me.<\/p>\n
I like to know.\u00a0 I like to have a plan and for this…..I’m unsure.\u00a0 I don’t want to romanticize something and yet at the same time, i don’t want to pass something by that could be the best thing for him.\u00a0 Or it could be the worst thing for him….I just don’t know.<\/p>\n
I just don’t know.<\/p>\n
And so for now….I just keep encouraging him to forgive. I keep encouraging him to keep his heart soft and to not harden it.\u00a0 I keep encouraging him to try and try and try again.<\/p>\n
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