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<\/a><\/center><\/p>\nI want to let you know that you are my most precious 2nd daughter and my absolutely favorite Alexandra. There is no one else quite like you. You are my baby girl…..<\/p>\n
In the craziness that is our life right now, I want you to know that you are so SO precious to me. You…..YOU……YOU<\/strong> are an AMAZING<\/em> girl.<\/p>\n I<\/strong> Love you.<\/p>\n I LOVE<\/strong> you.<\/p>\n I love YOU<\/strong>!<\/p>\n I LOVE YOU!<\/strong><\/p>\n These are some tough times that we are dealing with and I know that often it has you all messed up inside. It’s got me pretty messed up sometimes, too. I’m so sorry that I don’t have the answers that would make it all better or that would make it disappear. I don’t know why this happened to us. I don’t know why this happened to Geli. I don’t know why this has affected our family.<\/p>\n I do know that this sucks and that it’s hard and it’s difficult and that it can be stressful and confusing and a whole bunch of other crazy, crappy things.<\/p>\n I love it when you come and talk to me about how you’re feeling. It’s okay when your upset or confused or angry. It’s not a problem and I won’t be mad that you’re upset. It’s okay to be upset about this. It’s okay to be upset and angry at cancer. It’s okay to be angry and upset that cancer has affected your sister. It’s okay to be angry and upset that cancer has attempted to destroy your family – physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually.<\/p>\n It’s okay because although it sucks….we choose to stand and believe the truth about ourselves and about this situation.<\/p>\n We are strong!<\/p>\n We are fighters!<\/p>\n We will win this fight!<\/p>\n We will get through this!<\/p>\n We will walk this journey and even though there might be times when we get tired and weary….it’s those times, that God and our family and friends are right there along side of us. They are carrying us when we are too tired and they are cheering us on every time we put one foot in front of the other one.<\/p>\n I’m sorry for all the times when things are chaotic and it seems like we don’t have enough time or energy. Honestly, sometimes we just don’t have enough time or energy, BUT….this is only a season and although it’s a tough one…we’ll get through this. It won’t always be like this….you can count on that.<\/p>\n You are beautiful. You are amazing. You are so SO smart. Sometimes, I think that you are too smart for your own good, and that your emotional and mental reasoning abilities kinda mess you up sometimes. There are not too many 12 year olds that hold and carry and process the emotional side of things as well or even the way you do. It’s awesome and horrible at the same time. <\/p>\n I wish that you were just an ignorant, innocent 12 year old and that the biggest of your problems was in choosing what clothes you were gonna wear tomorrow or trying to figure out how to organize your homework so that it didn’t pile up on you….But you’re not…..<\/p>\n You are learning some wicked tough life lessons at a very young age and although I wish that you weren’t going through this…..<\/p>\n …..the fact of the matter is that we are going through this. You’ve been through a lot in your young life. From when we lost Nathaniel until now….there have been some experiences that are kinda HUGE and could be overwhelming for some people.<\/p>\n In fact, sometimes they “feel” overwhelming if you look at it all as a whole, BUT…..<\/p>\n But I know that in all of “this” that you are gonna grow up to be the most amazing woman.<\/p>\n How do I know this?<\/p>\n It’s because you are the most amazing young lady. <\/p>\n You have such great compassion and love. I will keep encouraging you to forgive and let go of all of the things that could make you bitter and angry and I know that you will do it. I know that it’s not in you to hold on to the “UGLY” but that your heart is geared to hold onto “HOPE”.<\/p>\n You are a JOY to me and to your daddy and to everyone that you come in contact with.<\/p>\n Your smile, your sweet spirit, your spark, your silliness….Xandra, you are amazing.<\/p>\n When you feel too tired to take another step….when all the thoughts are whirling around in your head like a raging tornado, when you just feel like you might break into a million pieces, when you don’t know which way is the right way or which end is up or down….come and find me or daddy. Come and curl up on our laps and take all the baggage that is wearing you out and dragging you under and let us carry you for a bit. We’ll hold you. We’ll encourage you and we’ll point you back in the right direction….<\/p>\n That’s what we’re here for. To love you, to encourage you, to hold you…..<\/p>\n We are so proud of the young lady that you are becoming.<\/p>\n Xandra, You are amazing!<\/p>\n Do you know how much I love you, Xandra? I sure hope so. I try to tell you and show you all the time, but just so you hear and read it again and again and again…..<\/p>\n I love you, my sweet girl. You are SO precious to me.<\/p>\n I<\/strong> Love you.<\/p>\n I LOVE<\/strong> you.<\/p>\n I love YOU<\/strong>!<\/p>\n I LOVE YOU!<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" My Dear Sweet Xandra, Do you know how special you are? I want to let you know that you are my most precious 2nd daughter and my absolutely favorite Alexandra. There is no one else quite like you. You are my baby girl….. 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