Still Singing….

Well, I cleared out the “new” section of the store to make way for the newest pieces. I do have a bunch of new jewelry that I’ve photographed, sorted through, cropped and have ready to add to the store…..now I just have to find the time to actually enter it all in and once that happens….we’ll have another give away.

I’m hoping to get it done ASAP.

Jon’s going away for the weekend with our Brother-In-Law. They’re headed up byond 100 Mile House to do some “hiking”. That would be the code word for hunting. See, if you don’t “get” anything, then you weren’t really hunting, you juts went for a big long 2 days hike (with a gun).

I’m not a fan of guns and I still struggle with the whole hunting thing, BUT if we get some deer, I will not be upset about eating wild fresh, steriod and hormone free meat, and so…..I just leave it at that.

I’ve cheated a bit on my diet recently, and I’m feeling it; and more unfortunately, I think, Siah’s feeling it. That has to stop right now.

I’ve got our Annual Ladies Christmas party in the planning stages and now I just have to get my butt in gear and actually get my house decorated.

I don’t know why, I’ve always been SO EXCITED to decorate for Christmas, and last year and this year….I just don’t have that drive to “make it happen”. We did have a tree up last year, but I totally didn’t put the effort in that I normally do and in some ways – it didn’t really feel as “Christmas-y”

I might start playing some Christmas music to help me get into the mood….Do ya think it’ll work?

I have my notes from the BOUNDARIES session, and I’ll try to type out something that makes sense.

Alright, Jon just got back from dropping the kids off at school and so I gotta go.

When do you set up for Christmas? Typically I set up the day after American Thanksgiving, we’ll see what this year brings.

It’s a New Day

So, it seems that Siah has made a miraculous recovery.

He was bad enough yesterday that I called the Dr.s office to ask what the “magic temperature” was. I didn’t want Siah’s fever to hit 105 or 106 in the middle of the night, and to not know what to do. It always seems to be the worst in the middle of the night when you can’t call anybody and your only option is a trip to the ER which is almost the WORST thing that can happen out here. It’s a zoo, and you will pretty much get better service if you just wait it out ’till the morning and check in with your family Dr or with a walk-in clinic.

Anyway, I called yesterdy around 4:30pm and they didn’t like the fact that his temp had been hovering around 104 all day and that even with Tylenol it was only coming down to 100.something.

I went in and they checked him out and couldn’t find anything right up front. Which I knew….I knew there wasn’t a ear infection, and he wasn’t coughing or barfing or didn’t have a runny nose…..NOTHING.

He was just listless, lethargic, and freaking hot.

He did a swab of his throat and took a urine sample, but I don’t think that it was either of those either.

Now that he seems to be on the up swing, it’s easy to see that it’s probably just a virus. Stupid Viruses!

Jon is gone all day today training people on how to do something “website-ish”. It’s nice to have the house to myself and it’s a little weird, too.

He’s always “just downstairs” and to have him not around…the house feels a bit empty.

Well as much as I’d love to stay and yab on and on and on….Siah is fussing. He’s not 100 percent his happy cheery self just yet, so I’m off to snuggle some more.

Snap Happy!

It was the perfect picture taking day on Saturday morning. The sky was grey and bright with high cloud cover and it was perfect.

We tried to get ready in a hurry, but for whatever reason….all 8 thousand of them…we didn’t leave the house until after 1pm.

And by that time it was sunny. Was I ever upset to see the sun. Can you believe that I even typed that down let alone thought it? I know, it’s horrifying after all the bad weather that we’ve had, and we are exactly 5 days away from summer…not cool…not cool at all.

So, we made it to City Hall and everyone piled out of the van and as I scouted out the best location and flicked my camera on…..I realized that I had left the battery…………in the charger…………at home!

So, we had to pile everyoneback into the van and drive back home, but fortunately, City Hall is only about 5 minutes or less away from our house – so not the end of the world….just slighty frustrating.

We made it back to City Hall and once again everyone piled out of the van and took off across the grass.

We got the kids and Daddy “Happy Father’s Day” special shot as evidenced below….

The kids were pretty good, well except Jeremy decided that today wasnot a day for just normal smiling, and so that made things a bit difficult as evidenced below…..

Apparently, I’m liking the phrase “as evidenced below” today…it’s a good one. Try it out, let the words rooooollllllll off your tongue. I’ll try to see if I can fit it in a few more times in this post…..special like, just for you.

If you click on the first picture, it’ll take you to the pics that I didn’t delete because I considered them okay….I could probably mess with them in photoshop for some of them, but you’ll get the general idea. I was LOVE the pictures of Geli. She’s been known to take some REALLY bad photos in her day, but on Saturday – that prize went to Jeremy.

If you click on the picture of him, it’ll take to you the other pics that I didn’t delete, but only because they were so funny. There were almost no good pictures of him, but oh so many really good, bad pictures.

Which ones are your favorite?

Just a Trim

So, this was Jon this morning. Sexy, isn’t he? Ha Ha Ha – I tried to cut off the chest rug so that you all wouldn’t be mesmerized by it. Wouldn’t want anyone having lustful thoughts from anything on my website, now, would I? Hee Hee!

He’s been after me for a while to trim his hair and well…it just hasn’t happened yet. Between his working from 9am to 11pm for the past 3 weeks….and our 4 little darlings who require aboslutely no effort at all, you’d think we’d have TONS of time to just lay around and do whatever we fancy eh? Yah Right!

Jon has THE MOST AMAZING HAIR EVER. If he does it! It has the perfect amount of wave and curl and for someone who has freaky staright hair….I often find myself jealous of his hair. Now, if he doesn’t do anything to it – it ends up looking HUGE….like bigger than HUGE, and poofy and fluffy and just general all over nasty.

This is a FABULOUS side view of…..

“THE MANE”.

Brutal, eh?

See what I mean about the largness, and……..it’s gotten to the point that all he does is put it in a ponytail or a bandanna, and while I love the long hair, the bandanna is not my favorite look, and a pony tail day after day after day gets to be a bit much, also.

We are going in to see Jon’s Mom tomorrow and because I don’t want to be embarrassed by “THE MANE” and the 4 inch roots that were showing up so badly against the dead, split end, bleached white tips love him so darn much I thought that today would be a great day to hack have at it.

And, because he’s such a good sport he let me take those pictures for you all to gawk at his see his “HAWTNESS”. It’s either that or else he’s given up on any hope of privacy in our family because I pretty let it all hang loose for you all….you know…unless I’m being all cryptic…..which I ALMOST NEVER DO!

So, I started hacking, and I hacked and I hacked and I hacked and I hacked. Before long it looked like we had a rodent massacre all over our kitchen floor.

The dude seriously has a freakload of hair. This is the “before it’s actually done” shot. Can you see the difference? I shoulda taken a picture of the floor. You woulda been AMAZED at HOW. MUCH. HAIR. I actually cut off. Truley, truley unbelievable!

 
 
And this….this right here…..this is the MONEY shot.

If you compare the before and after side views, you can see just how much of a differece the hair cut actually made. I’m not 100% sold on my hair cut…there are some times that I cut his hair that I LOVE what I’ve done, and other’s…not so much! This seems to be one of those “not so much” times. Not that there’s really anythig wrong with the hair cut, but “something” and I’m not sure what it is is just not “clicking” for me. I’m also still deciding if I’m gonna streak it with blond streaks or if we’re just going to leave it. See, when we cut off all the ends, then you don’t notice the roots so much because now you can’t see the major difference between the white tips and the brown roots…now it’s just more of a darker halo…’cause he’s just a dark angel.

Alright, there are enough CAPS and “quotes” in the post to hurt someone and so I’m just gonna stop!

“THE END!”

an anniversary of sorts – guest post

today is Nathaniel’s third birthday.  Alexandra had to remind me at dinner time.  There is a lot going on: Patti is in Toronto at a conference, I am trying to run my business and take care of all the kid details at the same time…

This is exactly what I don’t want to happen, and yet I feel it is inevitable.  I had a son.  I held him.  I kissed him.  Right now as I type, I can vividly see him in the dimly lit hospital room.  I remember where I was sitting and how I held him.  I remember the feelings of confusion and not knowing what to do, and not knowing how long I should hold him, and how quickly I should let him go.  I wish I had held him longer!  What I don’t want to do is forget all this.

Now three quick years later, my 8 year old asked what we were doing for his birthday… (For the last two years, we have gotten helium balloons and written on them with permanent markers and said a few wishes and let them go.)  I want to be the father of 8… 4 living and 4 have moved on…

Life has a way of moving on and focusing on the present realities, or even on present opportunities, but makes light of past actualities.  Things have happened that have defined me, have become a part of me, have taught me all about compassion in a way I wish I were still ignorant it… but in the here and now, I (we) focus on what is in front of us, or what is currently required of us.

In the first year since Nathaniel, not a day went by that I did not think of him.  Now three years later on his birthday, I did not think of him once, until I was reminded.  I guess that is how life goes, but I don’t like it… HE IS MY SON!

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Nathaniel,

I miss you.  I see three year olds, and I know you would have been taller.  Your brothers and sisters were all big for their age.  I miss knowing who you would have become.  I miss knowing how much like your mom you were and how much like me.  In so many ways I am glad I got to hold you; to kiss you.  I’ve fought in my mind to keep you present in my mind and in my heart, but I haven’t done as well as I would have liked.

You are my son!  Nothing can take that away!  No matter how long you lived, you are my son.  No matter how well behaved, you are my son.  No matter what you attained, no matter what mistakes, no matter how hard you tried or how little, you are my son.  There is nothing that you could do to become more of a son, and there is nothing you could have done to become less of a son.  And so you get what sons (and daughters) get… my love.  My sons and daughters get all the love I have, unconditionally!  I know that you can see me from where you are and I know that you know my thoughts.

I love you.  Happy birthday.
DAD

Reflecting

Great Title, eh? 

Sounds like this should be a great inspiring post, full of all the wonders of 2007.  Maybe it might include some of the struggles and hardships that have been overcome or worked through…….NOPE!

I’m justnot feeling that deep this morning.

The kids are GONE! back in school, and my house is quiet, and except for the 4am fight that Jon and I had last night….all is well in my world.

I just realized that all I mention is when we fight….and well, it’s not as bad as it sounds. 

Please realize that we have a 5 month old who is not sleeping through the night, yet; so we are both over tired and on edge.  The fight last night was a stupid one.  Jon had got up to try to get the baby back to sleep (’cause if he smells me then he wants to nurse, and he really doesn’t need the middle of the night feeds anymore, so if he can learn to sleep through, then we’ll all be happier).  So, I was saying….Jon had gotten up at 3am to put the baby back to sleep, and by 4:15am – I couldn’t handle it any more. Jon was agitated, the baby was agitated, and I wasn’t sleeping anyway and I was agitated.  I just figured that an hour and 15 minutes was a good shot, and I’d nurse the baby and be done with it.  I know that’s just teaching him to wait it out, but with no one sleeping in our house, today and tonight should be fun times…wanna come over?

Anyway, Jon was annoyed and the Baby was crying and we were all tired, and some nasty things were said, and it was not a good time.  For some reason, after we had our little fight, the baby went to sleep and slept until almost 7am.

Middle of the night is not a good time to try and work anything out, so we both went to sleep, and now we still have to deal with the rubble of last night.  Not fun!

Moving on, ’cause that had nothing to do with what I originally planned to write out……ha ha HA HA HA!  That makes it sound like I had a plan when I sat down here in front of my computer.  There was no plan.  Which is why this ends up rambling……that’s something I want to stop doing.  I’m planning to have a plan…..see how tired I am….

Any way, I’ll just stop there and continue on down here.

We had a great Christmas holiday time, and you can check out the pics if you so desire.

Our Christmas Eve…….we found out that Taco Time is pretty simple and basic as ingredients if you are looking for a fast food.  Although the hard shells are corn, and some need to stay away from corn….but we were thrilled to find something that had no wheat, dairy or eggs in them….YAH!….oh, we skipped the cheese, and sour cream……that’s how they were “okay”.

I love this shot of me and ‘Siah……not cause it’s an okay shot of me, but mostly ’cause EVERY TIME he sees it, he stops whatever he is doing and smiles HUGE.

I also love this one of the 4 kids…….

…..to go to any of the “sets” just click on the pics, and it’ll take you there.

Then we had Christms morning with just the 6 of us, and it was so amazing. We usually have those mini cereal boxes, but we just bought 2 sugar cereals that we knew had no dairy in them…..but had WAY too much sugar in them.  The kids did pretty good considering they’ve been off sugar for a while now.

The presents part of Christmas was fun, as always.  My parents went overboard, and totally blessed the kids with stuff that they actually needed, and maybe a few things that they didn’t need.  I think the the highlight of Jeremy’s Christmas, though, was the stacking cups that he got.

He’s played those things non-stop since he got them…..everybody’s played those things non-stop since we got them.  I’ll post a video or two hopefully tomorrow.  It’s pretty funny to see grown men challenging each other over “those stupid cups”….even funnier to show them the links to the “pros” and to watch how fast they really can stack those things.  

Jon’s parents came over for the rest of the day.  We had so much fun playing games and eating dinner and opening presents and just spending some quiet time with each other.  It was a very nice Christmas with them.  But it was a little different ’cause ha;f of our fmaily is on the other side of the world…..missed you guys!

Then, on Boxing Day…..are you tired yet?  I know I was, and we’re not even done yet?…….my family got together at my sister’s house to celebrate Christmas.  We had another good time.  The kids all got the play together and the adults all got to play together, and we ate some good food, and well….it was just a lot of fun.  Too bad Xani couldn’t keep her eyes open…I guess the day just wiped her right out.

THEN………the next day, Jon and I headed back to Debbie and Denver’s house to meet up with these guys.  We had such a fun time.  We showed up around 6pm, and then we finally looked at the time, and it was midnight…..it’s true that time flies when you’re having fun.  I just wish they didn’t live so far away. 

We had the 28th off and on the 29th we headed to another friends house for a evening of fellowship, fun and FONDUE!  It was a blast, and there were so many of my old friends that I hadn’t seen in a while, BUT……I stupidly forgot my camera.  Oh well! 

The 30th was Jon’s birthday, and we had a big lunch time breakfast for him, and then we did NOTHING on the 31st, and then we had…….you’ll have to check back tomorrow to check out what we did on NEW YEARS DAY!  Mean, aren’t I?

Anyway,  I don’t really have any NEW YEAR’S RESOLUTIONS, but if I did….and I don’t……I’d be working towards being 175 pounds…..that’s my first goal…I seem to be sitting right now between 178 and 181lbs. and I’d like to drop a few more instead of just sitting here stagnant.

AND……… I want to start posting more…..like every other day, for sure, I hope, I’d like or whatever……..

How was your holiday’s?

And We’re Moving On…….

We are still doing the healthy food thingy over here, in fact Jon is halfway through a real honest to goodness cleanse.  He’s doing the First Cleanse by Renew Life.

Its a gentle cleanse, and takes 15 days to do.  It says that based on the toxins and “stuff” (my term not theirs) that it’s clearing from your body you might feel like crap (again, my words – not theirs) and possible have an upser tummy or (wicked – my adjective – not theirs) headaches for the first 2 to 3 days.

When I did this cleanse last year, I had a bit of a headache for the first 2 days, and was fine after that.  Jon, on the other hand, felt like someone took a 2 x 4 and wacked him repeatedly in the back of the head  for a whole week.  That was on top of some intestinal discomfort, and EXTREME fatigue.  He must have needed some cleaning out, eh?

Just over a week into it, and he’s starting to feel human again.

Anyway, we are still trying to be healthy and eat healthy, and I’ve found the MOST AMAZING cookie recipe, and being the sharing type that I am – I’m going to share it with you.

Oatmeal Cookies with Zucchini

1/2 cup shortening (I use Organic butter)
3/4 cup honey
1 egg
1 cup of whole wheat flour (I use Kamut flour)
1 cup of regular flour (I use 1.5 cups of Spelt flour)
1 tsp baking soda
1 tsp cinnamon
1/2 tsp of nutmeg
1/4 tsp salt
1 cup grated zucchini
1 cup oatmeal
1 cup raisins

Instructions:  Preheat the oven to 375 degrees.  Cream together the shortening and honey.  Add the egg and beat well.  Stir together the flour, baking soda, cinnamon, nutmeg and salt.  Add the  dry mixture  alternately with the zucchini to the egg miture.  Stir in the oatmeal and raisins.  Drop by teaspoons onto greased cookie sheet.  Bake for 10 to 12 minutes.

These are DELICIOUS, and I even made some last night and didn’t have any zucchini on hand, but used canned pumpkin, and they are amazing.  I think I might try it with carrot as well.  They are a bit muffin-like in texture, and one of these days I’m going to try and make them with a butter substitute like oil or applesauce.  Then they would be wheat, sugar and dairy free.  For now, I’ll be happy with the wheat and sugar free side of it.

So, this post has taken forever to type (cause I was nursing), and now I have to go and get changed because Sia barfed his entire feed all over me and him……lovely! 

Ta Ta for now!

ps. I keep them in a sealed container so they stay moist, but my kids love them and that’s what counts (aside from the healthy aspect – of course)

30 Weeks – OH! MY! GOODNESS!

Here I am at 30 weeks.  To see the whole set of pregnancy pictures, just click on the photo, and it’ll take ya there. 

Wow, I can hardly believe that I’ve made it to 30 weeks already!  I remember December 1st, and peeing on a stick in the Langly Superstore washroom, and being so excited and surprised and scared and shocked and really quite unbelieveing and just about every other emotion that you can list. 

It’s been such a roller coaster of a journey up until this point, and while I know that we are not at the end yet…..time just seems to be creeping up on me, and I’m so not ready yet.

Well, that’s not entirely true.  I was ready to be holding my baby a LOOOOOOOOONG time ago, but I don’t have “things” ready for this baby.  “Things” like the crib and change table and diaper bag and paint for the room, and cloth diapers and well….most everything!  I had a melt down on Jon today!  It kinda feels like he’s not really been supportive of getting ready for this baby.  Not that he’s not been supportive, ’cause that is so NOT the case…………….BUT, when I’ve asked about buying things or talked about different things that we need to get – he’s not shown me much excitement.  He’s been very non-commital about it all.

I don’t know if it has anything to do with his own hurts and fears for the future based on passed events, or if he just doesn’t care about getting it all done “perfectly” or if he’s just been too busy…….or what?

It’s stressing me out that certain things aren’t done, and tht I really don’t have any clear time line for when they will be done.  We also went shopping today and I was particularly frustrated that we came home empty handed.

With Jon working 16 hour days all last week, he told me that we’d take today off, and I had a Doctor’s Appointment this morning, and then we’d go shopping for a crib and dresser/change table.

My Doctor’s appointment went so good.  I was concerned about the Gestational Diabetes, and NO WORRIES!  I passed the test with amazing numbers, although I don’t know what those numbers were.  All I know is that he said that everything was fabulous, and I totally didn’t need to worry about gestational diabetes.  PHEW!  One less thing to occupy my overloaded brain.  He had also gotten the results back from the ultrasound that I had on Tuesday, and everything is looking perfect.  Baby is measuring perfectly on target, and they estimated his weight to be totally average at 3 and half pounds.

I had only gained 1 pound in the last 5 weeks, which almost makes up for the 12 pounds I did in the month before that.  I weigh 196 pounds, which to me is unbelievable.  I weighed well over 200 pounds just starting out the previous 3 pregnancies, and so to be under 200 with 10 weeks left is fabulous.  With Geli I was 214 pounds when I delivered.  So, if I am anywhere under that, I am some kinda happy!  Not that I’m aiming for that number, but around 200 was my goal for the end of this pregnancy.  Looks like I’m on schedule.  YAH!

The heartbeat was 148 bpm, and my blood pressure was 100/60.  Baby is still head down.  The ultrasound tech told us that on Tuesday, and I am so thrilled ’cause for the LOOOOOONGEST time, he was breech, and I was startng to worry that he might get too comfortable in that position, and I really don’t want to have a c-section if I can possibly avoid it.  The doctor figured that he was down today as well, and that would comfirm the fact that I can feel his little bum just under my right ribcage…….it was either a bum or a head, and I really hoped that I wasn’t poking at his head!

I am now into the 2 week appointments, and have to go back on the 15th of June to see him again.  I have a list of questions, and should probably start writing them down for that appointment – ya think?  It’s hard to believe that we’re getting so close. I know I keep saying that, but as much as I hoped, I don’t know that at the beginning that I really believed that I’d be here right now. 

We drove into Baby’s World (just off the Lougheed Hwy – beside the IKEA), and looked at the crib set there.  FREAKING CRAP!  They were expensive.  I’ve been saving up money, but I don’t have that much!  I do really want to get a matching set for this child.  So, we are still looking.  We did find something that we can be happy with at the Bay, but it’s only a crib and change table, there isn’t a matching dresser.   It’s hard to match up the wood and the style when you buy pieces seperately.  The sales associate told us that they have sales on the baby furniture every 3 weeks, and so we will keep checking back until that set goes on sale, and if we find a better set in the mean time, then we won’t worry about it.

Although it was a nice day with Jon, it still felt like a colossal waste of time ’cause we accomplished nothing.  I’m hoping that we can pick up the paint tomorrow, and get started first thing next week.  

I’m still not sure what I am going to do about the crib bedding.  I though that I had something picked out, and that Jon liked it, and then he “very non-commitally” changed his mind…………….AAAAAAARRRRRGGGGGGHHHH!  It’s okay!  I’ll be okay once things start to fall into place, and I’ve told Jon that I want the majority of the “Stuff” finished by July 1st.  I don’t want to be fiddling with the big stuff when the kids are home from school for the holiday’s.  Fortunately for Jon, school is in until the 28th of June!  Then I just have to figure out what to do with myself and the kids for the month of July, and then we’re good to go.  YAH!   Can you tell I’m excited?  Just a little bit???

Photo Tribute to Jon

Well, here are some pictures of Jon through the years.

You can click on any of the photos to take you to the full set.  This is only some of the glory, but if you click over too soon, you’ll miss all my witty remarks, and you wouldn’t want that, would you?

He was such a cute little guy. 

3 years old

I think he’s about 3 years old here!

 

Around Kindergarten here!  Still so cute!

Kindergarten

 

This is about grade 3.  I keep saying that it’s around or about or I think, ’cause really I don’t know and together, we just guessed at which pictures are which years.

Grade 3

 This is Grade 4, and we are entering an awkward stage.  We kinda move in and out of this awkward phase over the next few years.

Grade 4

This is Grade 6, and see – not too bad, eh?  Still kinda cute, although I think he looks like he’s about 6 years old, and not IN grade 6.

Grade 6

 This is grade 7, but I think that Geli looks so much like Jon is this picture.  Something about the little bit of chubbiness, mixed with the starting to grow up look…….I think that Geli looks a lot like Jon, though some don’t agree with me.

 Grade 7

By Grade 8, we were back in the awkward phase, and had perfected the permed mullet look.  Sweeeeeeet!

Grade 8 

 Grade 9, and we are ROCKIN’ those pants, and that cowlick….

Grade 9

We think this is about Grade 10.  Those are fake glasses, no prescription – just for the sheer sexiness of it……and baby, you are one sexy beast.

Grade 10

Graduation Picture.  It was about 3 years after this that I fell in love with Jon.  I’ll have to dig out some of those pictures from back then.

Grade 12 Graduation 

You’ve come a long way babe, and even though I mock you gently and with love (is that possible) – I still think you’re the best friend, man, husband, father EVER!