Jon was still wokring at the conference.Â It was his last day, and to be quite honest with you – I was on my last nerve.Â The kids had started bickering quite a bit on Thursday, and had moved into full blown fighting on Friday, and well…..I didn’t really have much hope that Saturday would be fabulous.Â Jon had taken Xandra with him to be the “Soundman’s Helper”.Â
I remember going to “help” my dad play golf.Â I’m really sure that he didn’t need the “help” from me, but those are some of the best memories I have…..getting up really, really early, and going with dad for the super long drive up to Squamish or wherever else they’d go, and walking around the course.Â I remember washing the balls a million times, and getting to stop after the first nine holes so we could get a snack, andÂ attempting to drag the golf bag around, and being super quick with a new tee when they’d wreck the one they had been using, or even getting a new ball from the bag when they wacked itÂ too far in to the trees or into the pond.
Any way, so Jon took Xan, and at least that meant that I only had to referee between two, and not three.Â As it turns out, it was the wrong two.Â For some reason, Gelica and Jeremy fight………..and fight, and fight , and fight…….it never seems to end.Â The Friday night, Jon had taken Geli to help out, and Xan and J got along so perfectly.Â Maybe it’s just Xan…..she seems to be able to get along with anyone.Â Oh well!Â So, I got a hold of my parents, and they hadn’t left to go in to see Chris, yet.Â
We met up at the Ricky’s in Walnut Grove, and had a really nice breakfast.Â This is my favorite picture of J and Dad.Â Dad looks so happy, and relaxed.Â It’s nice to see him like this.Â He carries quite a bit of the stress of everything that’s going on right now.Â It’s nice to get those little moments when you can forget about “things” for just a second and just “be in the moment”.
I have a hard time believeing that I wrote that post only 4 days ago.
This has been the LOOOOOOONGEST week ever, and truthfully – It’s not over, yet……
Tuesday I was part of a pre-conference all day meeting that was pretty fun.Â Wednesday I was able to make it in to see Chris, although he was a bit backed up, and I didn’t get to see him as much as I would have liked to.Â I got home from seeing him, and had a message waiting for me on my home phone……..from my doctor’s office……the Obstetrical Doctor……telling me not to worry, just to call…………..
Yah Right!Â Those calls are almost NEVER good!Â So, I call back, but I know it’s about the gestational diabetes test that I took last week.Â YUP!Â I flunked the one hour test, and have to go inÂ for the 3 hour.
It oculd have been worse news.Â I could have had such bad levels that they would have just sent me to the gestational diabetes clinic, and we could have carried on from there.
Apparently, the cut off level is 7.8, and I was at an 8.4 – anything higher than a 10.3, and I would haveÂ had a direct pass to the clinic.Â So, I still have a chance at passing the 3 hour, although when I went in to pick up the requisition from the office yesterday, the nurse didn’t really think that would be the case.Â I’ll just have to show her……
So, I called my naturopath, to ask a few questions, and she has put me on some stuff that is supposed to level my blood sugar levels, and I’m back HARD CORE on the candida dietÂ cause it’s supposed to also stabilize blood sugar levels.Â So much fun – not!
I will admit that the news that I had flunked came at a not-so-fabulous time.Â I am doing okay emotionally.Â Not fabulous, but better than really bad!Â With everything else that is going on, this one more piece of news kinda pushed me over the edge and I had a bad night on Wednesday night.Â Kept obsessing about everything, and couldn’t sleep until after 2am.Â Nice, eh?Â Especially as I had to get up at 6:30am the next morning to take a shower before I started Thursday.
Thursday was a crazy busy day.Â Did a ton of running around, and had to drive into Langley to pick up the Meds from the Naturopath, and was supposed to pick up one thing from a Pharmacy, but I hit 3 different ones, and it wasn’t available at any of them.Â I had to blast home ’cause the kids were walking – at least that gave me a few extra minutes.Â It’s the difference between thinking that I have to go and pick them up around 2:30pm, or they come home around 3pm.Â Their schoool actually gets out at 2:48pm, but if you want a parking spot you have to come a bit early, and you have to factor in the driving time (even if it is only 3 minutes) – when they walk home – I don’t even have to think about them until they show up just after 3pm – that is soooooo nice!
So, last night after I gave a really lame attempt at getting the kids off to bed (Jon normally does the bedtime routine ’cause I hateÂ the 500 million stall tactics, and hove no patience at that point), I laid down with J to get him to settle down and go to sleep……..and I fell asleep!Â That’s not really a problem except for the fact that I’d told Xan that I’d come and lay with her for a minute as soon as J was asleep.Â Â I think I stalled her off until tonight!Â At least that what I remember from my end of the conversation, mind you I wouldnt’ bet he most reliable person to ask at that point ’cause I was mostly asleep.
I woke up feeling pretty good this morning.Â The kids got off to school, and I got ready for the day.Â I’ve been shopping this morning already, and visited Jon at theÂ conference.Â I’m home now – OBVIOUSLY – and am just finishing up a salad with some chicken on it, and have to get busy.
I have a bunch of stuff that I NEED to get done, and it has to be done either today or tomorrow.Â Â I should really just do it today to get it over and done with.Â I’ve been feeling more pregnant, and awkward as far as my body goes.Â I’m getting bigger, and am starting to feel a bit uncomfortable, but I’m not complaining…..too much!
I’ll be 29 weeks tomorrow, and am so excited to have made it this far.Â Only a bit longer and our sweet little boy will be here.Â I have an ultrasound on Tuesday, and it will be fun to get another peek at him.
Well, that’s my week so far.Â Hope you’ve all had a fabulous week, and have an even better weekend.
I really shouldn’t complain as it hasn’t even really started, yet; but I know where it’s headed.Â Jon is doing sound all week for a conference, and while it’s decent money for a weeks worth of work, it’sÂ hard week on our family.
It sucks even more ’cause this year they started the conference on the Victoria Day Monday Holiday.Â Last year, the holiday was the day after everything wrapped up, and it was so nice to have a day off.Â This year, I had the kids at home all by myself, and Jon was gone, and well…….it was just a rough day.
I’d like to think that I’m further ahead of “things” than I was was this morning, but I’m not entirely certain of that.Â I have a full day tomorrow, and am hoping to pop in to see Chris on Wednesday.Â The trip in and out is always a big deal.Â I don’t mind it so much, but it jsut really takes up your day.Â Thursday, and Friday I’m helping out a friend, and then I have to survive Saturday by myself with the kids, and then Sunday is crazy busy with both Jon and I involved, and well…then we start another week, and I already have Monday and Tuesday booked up of that week, and will probably want to go in to see Chris next Wednesday.Â I might just book off Thurday entirely, and so far I one appointment first thing on Friday morning.Â The only good thing about all of this is that by the time these next two weeks are done – I will be finished 30 weeks.Â Wow!Â We really are headed into the home stretch, and I still have SO MUCH to do.
We did manage to clear out the baby’s room, and scraped the first layer of filth off the walls.Â We still need to clean them really good, and then fill all the holes, and then paint.Â I also need to steam clean the carpet REALLY well!Â Then we just have to get some furniture to fill it up.Â I did hang some of the little clothes in the closet.Â SO CUTE!Â I really can’t wait until we have this little one.
I did hear a very sad story today though.Â The pastors of the church that the conference is renting came past the church today, and they had been at the hospital visiting with a couple who had just had a stillborn.Â It’s so sad.Â The baby was 11 days overdue, and moving around and everything seemed to be fine, and then it just stopped moving.Â The lady had the baby last night.Â It’s so hard to hear things like that.Â It doesn’t scare me, but it does make me wonder if they had induced 2 days earlier, would there have been a different outcome?Â Just like, if Nathaniel had been born at 25 weeks, and not just died, he could have been alive.Â I know that you can’t live in theÂ “what ifs” and “could have beens”, but sometimes it’s hard to not think the thoughts.
Well, I tried something out today!Â I’ve posted before about not wearing deodorant any more.Â It’s not that I’m not doing anything, but I’m using this rock crystal thing, and it works amazingly as far as you not stinking.Â You still sweat, though!
When we were in Kamloops, I saw myÂ sister (Debbie) putting pantyliner’s in her shirts, and I couldn’t understand what she was up to.Â Turns out that I’m not the only one in the family who has boycotted “regular” deodorant/anti-perspirant.Â But Debbie is much smarter, than I….she puts pantyliners in the armpits of her shirts, and VOILA – no more wet marks.
It’s taken me a bit to try it out, but yesterday I bought a package and decided to try it out today.Â It felt kinda weird to stuffing a pad into my shirt, but once I got it in position, it seemed like it just might work.Â You can’t really even tell that they are there.Â The only thing that I am going to try is to put them in sidways along the underarm part of my shirt.Â I’ve got them in long way’s right now, and I’m a bit …..um……..larger…..heck, I’m just fatter than Debbie is, and my underam area is bigger than her skinny little one.Â While I didn’t get whole underarm area wet and soggy today – I did notice a spot that was a bit wet where the pantyliner didn’t stretch to.Â I don’t know if I just moved it forward an inch if it would have made a difference, but it worked well enough that I’m going to try them in sidways, and see if I like it like that, better.
Okay! so now that I’ve outted both myself and Debbie (whether she wanted to be outted or not), what I’m wondering is if you all have any other secret or not so secret tips that you use.Â It could be anything that might be helpful to the rest of us.Â Come on!Â Give it up!Â We’re all just friends here.Â
Things like……………ummmmmmÂ I use a green make up stick to cover up any red marks (pimples, scars, redness in my cheeks).Â See, red and green make brown (basic coloring 101) and so if you have some redness that you want to hide, then get yourself a green make up stick – it will be your newest favorite friend.
Or, another tip would be that if you have stinky feet, to soak your feet in warm tea water.Â Something in the tea helps to draw the stench right out of your feet.Â So, get a bucket to soak your feet in, fill it with as warm water as your little tootsies can stand, and throw a few tea bags in.Â Soak for as long as you can.Â Repeat every couple of days, and it will definatly help with the stench.
Another tip would be for headaches……if you are prone to get a lot of headaches (I was before I went to the Naturopath, and she miracle cured me of everything) there are two thigns that you can try.Â One is to put your hands into FREEZING COLD WATER for as long as you can stand it, and then pull them out, and then repeat again.Â The idea is that the blood rushes toward your hands, and away from your brain, and it helps with the headache.Â Then you can try theÂ the opposite……Run your entire head under freezing cold tap water until you have basically frozen your brain out.Â It works on the exact opposite principle, by having blood rush to your head.Â Both are said to work amazingly.Â I’ve done the hand one, but haven’t ever tried out the frozen head thing – the hand one did work by the way, and so I’d assume that the head one would work as well.
Okay, so there are a few of my tips…..you got anything else for me??????
Well, here are some pictures of Jon through the years.
You can click on any of the photos to take you to the full set.Â This is only some of the glory, but if you click over too soon, you’ll miss all my witty remarks, and you wouldn’t want that, would you?
He was such a cute little guy.Â
I think he’s about 3 years old here!
Around Kindergarten here!Â Still so cute!
This is about grade 3.Â I keep saying that it’s around or about or I think, ’cause really I don’t know and together, we just guessed at which pictures are which years.
Â This is Grade 4, and we are entering an awkward stage.Â We kinda move in and out of this awkward phase over the next few years.
This is Grade 6, and see – not too bad, eh?Â Still kinda cute, although I think he looks like he’s about 6 years old, and not IN grade 6.
Â This is grade 7, but I think that Geli looks so much like Jon is this picture.Â Something about the little bit of chubbiness, mixed with the starting to grow up look…….I think that Geli looks a lot like Jon, though some don’t agree with me.
By Grade 8, we were back in the awkward phase, and had perfected the permed mullet look.Â Sweeeeeeet!
Â Grade 9, and we are ROCKIN’ those pants, and that cowlick….
We think this is about Grade 10.Â Those are fake glasses, no prescription – just for the sheer sexiness of it……and baby, you are one sexy beast.
Graduation Picture.Â It was about 3 years after this that I fell in love with Jon.Â I’ll have to dig out some of those pictures from back then.
You’ve come a long way babe, and even though I mock you gently and with love (is that possible)Â – I still think you’re the best friend, man, husband, father EVER!
Here is the 27 week photo.Â I am actually 27 weeks and 4 days, so really – I’m closer to 28 weeks, but it’s going down for the 27 week picture.Â Maybe if I get my act together I’ll actuaoly start taking the pictures a little closer to Saturday each week, but it usually works out that I get the pictures taken on the Tuesday or Wednesday, and so they are all roughly a week apart.
I compared last weeks with this week, and even if I couldn’t already tell – just ’cause this belly is hanging off of the front of me -Â my belly is more rounded than last week.Â It’s kinda cool………at least to me it is, and really – that’s whatÂ matters most.
I am definately feeling like I’mÂ pregnant, and I’m pretty sure that I look pregnant as well.Â Mind you, when Jon and I stopped at StarbucksÂ onÂ Monday, we ran into someone we hadn’t seen in a while, and I was sitting down, and after we finished talking I asked Jon if I really looked pregnant when I was sitting, or could I justÂ be lookingÂ fat.Â What a depressing thought, to think that someone might think that had just packed on a ton of weight.Â Not like I hadn’t done it before, but still – when I had worked so hard to lose it, and then to think that IÂ still might just look heavier than I should.Â It was depressingÂ for all of 2 seconds, until I felt the baby move, and then I really could care less about what anyone thought, ’cause my baby was still alive, and to feel him moving is the best feeling on earth.
I’ve been SOOOOOOOO busy these past couple of days, and I’m not seeing an end in sight for the next couple after this.
I have a busy day tomorrow that I have to try and cram too amny things into, and then I am planning on going into VGH to see Chris on Friday.Â Really, I should say that I’m going in to “hang around the hospital”, ’cause then I won’t be disappointed when I leaveÂ to go home, and I’ve only spent a grand total of 45 minutes with Chris, but hung out at the hospital for 6 hours.Â I don’t know what kind of shape he’ll be in anyway, ’cause he was going to have surgery today, but I think that he is actually having it tomorrow.
That’s okay!Â It’s nice to just be there, and to see Nina and the other family that shows up.Â That’s just as much a boost as actually seeing him,Â “being family” together.
Well, next week is going to be brutal, ’cause Jon is doing sound for a conference ALL NEXT WEEK.Â So, I’m doing the single mom thing for a week.Â SUCKS!Â Not that single mom’s suck, but they have to do SO MUCH WORK, and I hate haveing to do all the work, and I’m fortunate enough that I don’t HAVE to do all the work.
I don’t think I mentioned recently that I have the best husband EVER.Â I know that I’ve mentioned it before, but not recently.Â Really he is!Â He has been working hard, AND taking care of the kids when I go in to town, AND cooking dinners, AND helping out with the cleaning, AND helping out with the laundry, AND making sure the kids do their homework (*cough* most of the time * cough*).Â Really, I have to give him some extra credit, and HUGE amounts of appreciation, ’cause he has been so supportive and enableing me to be with Chris and the family at this stresfull time, and I really, really, really, REALLY appreciate him.
Â I really appreciate you, babe!Â Â
……..and just to show you all how much I appreciate him, I think that in the next day or two, I’m going to scan some of the amazing photos that his Mum gave me of him, and do a bit of a photo tribute to him.Â Believe me, their are some “BEAUTIES” that you will NOT want to miss……..seriously!Â Maybe tomorrow, if I have a “teeny-tiny” bit of time!
So, yesterday was Mother’s Day, and you should all be so lucky as me!
No, I didn’t get any jewelery or trips to fabulous warm tropical places (I could only wish), but I did get served breakfast in the dining room.Â We have “fancy” oatmeal and tea.Â Basically we had porridge in fancy dishes, and used my fancy teas cups.Â It was really fancy. *snort*
I opened all the kids crap lovingly made treasures and oohd and aaahhhd appropriately, then we went to church, where I’ve discovered that I’m getting a little too round for my guitar to be hanging off the front end of my belly.Â I have to play once more in 2 weeks, and then I think that might be it.
After church, we came home and Jon had made a pork roast, with potatoes and veggies and gravy.Â It was delicious!Â Apparently, Jeremy likes potatoes – Can you tell?
No, we didn’t let him eat that many, but he was more than a little put out that we’d dare to take some of them away.Â Silly boy!
It was a nice day, and probably the nicest part of it didn’t even happen to me.Â We told Chris that it was Mother’s Day today, and just left it at that.Â We didn’t tell him that he should do or say anything to Momma, but the next time that she came into his room, he motioned her over and gave her a kiss, and told her that he liked the shirt she was wearing.Â See, like I said, it didn’t even happen to me, but it was pretty special to be there to see it happen.
This morning we had another wonderful, amazing, mind blowing thing happen.Â We’ve been rotating through 3 breakfasts at our house – Oatmeal, EggsÂ & Hashbrowns, and Pancakes.Â We have had milk alternatives available, and even had a bag of Kamut puffs in the cupboard, but the kids weren’t far enough removed from regular milk and regular cereal to really “buy into” eating this new crap (as they thought of it).
Well, apparently, two months of the same 3 things for breakfast and no cow’s milk or cereal has broken them down.Â We got up a bit late this morning, and I suggested that Jon offer them cereal with Rice milk, Kamut puffs and Maple syrup drizzled on top.
Under the guise of making himself a bowl of cereal, he offered them each a bite, and you’d have thought that we were offering them the nectar of the gods.Â Their eyes rolled back up in their heads, and we had to shake them to come out of their self induced hypnotic state.
They scarfed down a bowl each, and them came back asking for a second.Â It was the easiest breakfast that we’ve made in 2 months, and while the cereal is a bit more expensive, we will add it into our rotation maybe once or twice a week.
It is getting easier to convince them to try new stuff.Â I guess it just sometimes takes a bit to get the old taste out of your memory, to allow the space to be able to try new stuff.Â That’s just me waxing all philosophical…..how does it sound……personally, I think it just sounds like crap, but almost like intelligent crap, eh?
Jon took me to Starbucks this morning, because we were having an Administrative meeting.Â He brought his Administrative stuff, and I brought my administrative stuff, and we had a coffee while working on our respective “stuffs.”Â It was quite nice, and I even cheated and had a big ol’ piece of carrot cake.Â
Don’t even start to lecture me about all the bad stuff in it that I’m not supposed to eat.Â This is my last week, and then I HAVE to be freaky careful about eating any wheat and dairy.Â From 28 weeks on, I’m supposed to stick to the diet without wavering.Â The hopes are that if I do have any actual “allergies” to either wheat or dairy that if I stay away from them from 28 weeks on, then I shouldn’t pass the allergy onto our little boy!Â That would be nice.Â So, I’m not trying to go overboard this week, but don’t shoot me if I cheat a little.
Well, I’ve got to go and do some work for Jon, and then get busy cleaning the house!Â Hate Housecleaning!Â It never ends!
We have been buying our Kamut and Spelt flour at the Ladybug Organic store, and I knew that they got it from this Anita’s Place, and I even knew that it was out in Chilliwack.Â I hadn’t found their website, but Jon took a look, and found it for me.Â YAH!Â We e-mailed them for a price list, and discovered that we really liked their prices, and as far as distance, it works out to about the same to head in to Langley or out to Chilliwack, and so we decided to check them out one day.
Today just happened to be that day.
It is just a tiny, little, almost a shack, but I was very excited.Â Their prices were amazing, as far as healthy, organic weird flours go, and they even hadÂ rolled kamut and spelt flakes.Â Jeremy’s VEGA test showed that he was okay with Oatmeal, and so we do make it.Â I am stillÂ intolerant toÂ oatmeal, Â and so shouldn’t really have it all that often.Â To see that I could make a pot of porridge out of Kamut Flakes or even Spelt flakes was awesome.Â They look almost exactly the same as old fashioned rolled oats, and just enable us to add a little more variety into our lives.Â YAH!Â We didn’t pick any of the rolled grains up today, but will go back in the near future to pick some up.Â I did make some Kamut tortillas today, and the kids were thrilled.Â I didn’t make any last week, and it made lunches more difficult.
I have also tried a loaf of Spelt/Kamut breaf made with oil, flour, salt, and baking powder.Â We’ll try it out tomorow morning, and see how it tastes.Â It’s the quick and lazy way to make bread.Â I still haven’t tried out the long and difficult way.Â I’m a bit scared that after all the effort I have to go through, that it would still taste lousy, and then I’d be annoyed.Â Well, I will probably just go for it this week.Â It’s basically a sourdough starter bread, so it takes a week to just get the starter ready, but again the only ingredients are water, flour and sea salt.Â If I can make it for cheaper than $6.00Â a loaf, then I’m doing fabulous.
A friend is lending me her baby bath, and a swing, and so that’s very exciting.Â Jon and I were talking today, and we want to get all the “Big” stuff done before July 1st.Â The kids are done school at the end of June, and I really don’t want them involved in all the painting and set up of the baby’s room.Â The little finishing things, sure – no problem, but not the painting and puttying and sanding and crib set up and other stuff.
That means, that not only do we have to do the walls in the baby’s room, but we also have to get a crib and a change table and a dresser.Â We are hoping ot be able to get stuff that matches.Â Knowing that this might be our last baby, and that it’s kind of a special event, we just want to do it extra special.Â I might have found the bedding that I want.Â I like this pattern.Â I’m just struggling over the price.Â It’s a much better price than what I saw it for in the store today, but still………GULP!
Oh well!Â It’ll all come together eventually, and I don’t need to worry!Â I know that!Â
I’m off to bed now, but I just wanted to say one more thing.Â
To all the Mother’s with living children, and especially those who haveÂ children that are not living…..I hope you have a peaceful day tomorrow and that it would be filled with hope and love and very special thoughts and memories.
And to everyone else, may you be thankful that you had a mother who brought you into this world, and that you are alive and well, regardless ofÂ your life’sÂ circumstances.
So, as the title suggests, it didn’t happen.Â There was absoultely no way that I could have done the 44 hours or whatever it was going to be.Â I mean, I probably could have, but when we got home from picking up the kids, I sat down in front of the computer, and that wsa my first big mistake.
As soon as I sat down, I started to nod off – mid sentence with Jon.Â I just could not keep my eyes awake.Â He told me to go and lay daown for a few hours.Â I was going to get up around dinner time, as I had a practise in the evening that I had to go to.
I laid down just before 4pm, and…………………got up at 7am this morning.
Yup!Â Take THAT tiredness.Â I just slept 15 hours, and I could have probably done another hour more.
Here’s what 34 hours of tiredness did to my feet.
And here is what 14 hours of sleep did to them……
I’m not a huge foot person, and so I apologize for the grossness that is my feet, but “Can you see the difference?”
I can see the difference, and most importantly I can feel the difference.Â I feel amazing this morning.
I’ll talk a bitÂ more about my night with Chris on the other side of things.Â Check in over there if you haven’t already done so.
I have SOOOOOO much to do today, so as soon as I can get my “remember-ies” down from the other night – I have to get busy!
I don’t know how some of you do this on a regular basis.Â I know that there are those out there who regularly pull all nighter’s.Â I am not one of “those” people.
Chris has not been sleeping well for a couple of nights, and so we decided that someone should stay with him over night and see if that might help him get a better sleep.
Well, He did sleep better last night, but I volunteered to stay overnight.Â That meant that I didn’t sleep.Â I’m okay, but was planning on coming home and sleeping, and it just hasn’t worked out that way.Â I’ve been up since Wednesday morning at 4:30am.Â How many hours is that……….34 hours as of right now, by my calculations, and I will not be getting to bed before 10pm tonight.Â So, unless I fall asleep standing on my feet I will be up for a total of 42+ hours.Â Nice, eh?
Well, We are going to pick up the kids, and then I have to figure out something for dinner, and then I really need to put my feet up.Â They are so swollen.Â Oooops!Â Not good, but the naturopath said that feet swelling was not a big deal.Â It was a big deal if my hands and face were swelling, and so far so good!
Jon will be home with some liquid gold* in about 2 minutes, and then we are off to collect our children.
* Liquid Gold – Grande, Half-sweet, sugar free, hazelnut, soy latte from Starbucks! Mmmmmmm, and I’m not supposed to have coffee!Â Ha!Â Like that is happening right now!