Remembering what it’s all about

I took the boys back to the Naturopath last Friday and then again yesterday.

We got them retested to see what things are still showing up as intolerances.  Josiah is doing really well.  He’s cleared most of the food intolerances except for the things that you wouldn’t expect to give to babies….like egg yolks and grapefruit and…..looking at the list…raspberries, chocolate…that sort of things, but the dairy is still showing a super bad reaction.

I know that through out all of my testing, the dairy has never budged at all…it’s been a highly intolerant thing for me too, and also for the other 3 kids, although they’ve shown some slight changes when it comes to cheese, but for now we are just sticking away from dairy all together.

 So, She has put both ‘Siah and I on a med. to desensitize us from dairy and we’ll see how it goes from there.  I’m supposed to try adding in some butter and some yogurt in two weeks and to see if he has any reactions. 

He (Josiah) has actually been doing AMAZING.  His skin looks so clear, and if you didn’t know that he’d had such bad exczema – you’d never be able to tell a thing.  There are some tiny rough patches in front of his ears almost on his cheeks, but they are mostly skin colored and pretty much only I notice them.

We’ve had no barfing  issues and no poop issues, and if we can get this dairy thing worked out, then…then….we’ll be good to go.  As it is, I’ve been able to add a bunch of stuff back into my diet now, things like soy – actually that’s a HUGE one…almost as big as dairy and in fact for us and the way we eat – it is bigger than dairy….so I was SOOOO glad to have that back on the menu and lots of other insignificant foods (lke bananas) that I won’ get into.

Now Jeremy on the other hand…….

Oh, where to even start. 

We had SUCH a good day on Saturday and Sunday morning.  He started to ramp up on Sunday Afternoon and then for absolutely no reason that we can come up with, Monday and Tuesday were absolutely hellish.  The mornings started off bad, and he couldn’t focus on ANYTHING, and we found out on Tuesday that he had peed on the changeroom floor on Monday afternoon.  It was to be a prank….water on the floor to slip on….but seriously, son…..peeing on the floor.

He was absolutely wired for our appt with Dr. Cathy and so she got to see the full on ADD/ADHD side of him – no holds barred.  It hasn’t been this bad in a while.

We talked about the fact that for all the treatments we’ve done, basically we had a drastic improvement when we altered his diet, then we did the Vaccine thingy on him and he went absolutely wild and then only came down a little….basically he was at a 7/8 before we started with the Naturopath, and then we changed his diet and he came down to a 5/4/3 totally livable, in my opinion, then we did the vaccine thing, and he went up to a 10+ and then even though it was supposed to help flush out of his system we’ve only come down to a8/9 since then….how frustrating is that…and then…….we’ve plateaued….and that has been the MOST frustrating thing.

She talked about how she just went to a training session done by a naturopathic pediatrician, and and how this pediatrician has tried most of the things that we’ve done on Jeremy with kids who were WAY worse and they’ve had AMAZING results.  So we’ve done all the right things, why aren’t we seeing the results….I can only hope that once we figure out the “thing” that’s keeping all this from falling into place that Jeremy will be the most healthy kid EVER.

We’ve attacked this from so many different angels, but one thing she hasn’t done is to deal with the brain, th nervous system, and so for the next three weeks, we are giving him some help in that area, and if we don’t see any drastic improvement over the next three weeks, then I think that we might just trysome good ol’ fashioned Ritalin for the remainder of the school year. 

In the summer, we are going to be dealing with some more of the vaccine stressors, she thinks and I agree that a lot of this started and goes back to him reacting to the vaccines…I tend to agree.  So, that is where we stand right now.

It’s hard.  It’s hard to know what the best thing is to do for your child, and I think that even if we go the “Ritalin Route” for a while, that it’s only buying us and him and his teachers some time….It’s a mask….it’s not a fix.  It just gives some breathing room to be able to relax for a minute, and when it all comes down to it the focus is……finding out what caused this to happen in the first place and helping Jeremy’s body to be perfecty healthy so he doens’t have to deal with this.

This is hard.  For him, for us, for teachers, for friends, for random strangers….it’s hard when people look at this normal healthy little boy and wonder why he is acting the waye does, and to not be able to explain because it takes too long or it’s too involved or just because they wouldn’t understand.

And to see his little heart get crushed when someone doens’t want him around because of his behaviour or because he’s too difficult….that hurts him…it hurts me….

I wish that we didn’t have to deal with this, but we do and I am  happy with the outcome of yesterday’s appt because I’m focused again.  We are working towards finding out how we can help to balance and heal Jeremy’s body.  It will happen.  I believe it, even if it’s tking longer than I’d like….it’s like every thing we are doing is bringing him one step closer to the time when he will be able to function differently, easier, better than he can now.

That, I am excited about.

Jeremy Invites you Into His World

This cracks me up and there are so many little interesting and funny things, and I’m not sure if that’s because I’m his mom or because it really is funny.

Jeremy got onto some weird kick this weekend with being responsible and totally helping out and acting “like a 12 year old”…that was his big phrase this weekend….He was trying to act like a 12 year old boy.  He totally cleaned my TV room – it was spotless – down to the vacuuming and then he had to rearrange all the furniture to make it “new” looking.

But, he took this video and he talks to you like he knows you’re on the other side of the camera looking in and some of it is just so darn funny.

It’s long – like 4minutes and 45 seconds long and I’d loveto say go to 2 minutes and 27 seconds and listen then, but his “cuteness” is just spread out all the way along and if you have the 5 minutes to go and get a coffee you get a closer peek into Jeremy’s world and brain and well…..I’ve enjoyed it…a few times…

He has put the camera on a chair in the hall way down towards his bedroom and then he carries it around a bit as he goes to other rooms to do a few different things. Seriously, if you can spare the minutes – you’ll enjoy it….I think!

Gotta Teach That Kid to Whisper

We went to a wedding today.  the first one we’ve been to in a looooooong time.  I guess all out friends got married around the same time, and now we are seeing the next generation have at it, or maybe it’s just that we don’t have a lot of young singles in our church.

Anyway, we all got dressed up this morning and that in itself was a hoot seeing as most of what we own is bought at Superstore from the Joe collection for under $5…gotta love those cheap t-shirts.

 The bride and groom looked like babies, beautiful, lovely young babies, but babies none the less, made me feel terribly old with my 4 kids and all dressed up so “Mom” like….

They ceremony was nice too, not too short and lot too long, but try keeping a 9 month old quiet and also one little wriggly 7 year old still and quiet…it’s a recipe for a disaster.

We were most of the way through the ceremony and this couple had decided that the first act they would do as a couple was to wash each other’s feet as a sign of respect and love.

It’s not my cup of tea, but that has a lot to do with the fact that I CAN’T STAND FEET!

Baby feet are okay,and my kids feet (once they’ve been washed, I mean REALLY washed) are okay, sometimes, but most of the time – I have a foot aversion that starts somewhere about the time that baby’s turn into small children, and the feet get dirty and stinky and just plain yucky.

Well, who knew that you could pass a foot aversion on to your children, because as the bride knelt in a loving act of respect towards her new husband and gently while gazing adoringly into his eyes removes his shoe and sock from his right foot………Jeremy rather loudly whispers, “She’s touching his foot……THAT IS SO DISGUSTING.

This was said loud enough that the grooms brother who happened to be sitting across the aisle from us and 3 rows back…..busts a gut stifleing his laughter…he is doing the whole “lips pressed together, red faced, shoulder jiggling, clutching his sides, trying to hold himself together” thing.

It was awesome….that’s my boy.  Of course, we looked at him and told him to not be rude and to try to whisper a little quiter, but truth be told, I was thinking the same thing, and trying to imagine myself doing that to Jon and well……I just couldn’t go there…..FEET!  Yuck!

Working Out My List

It’s funny, (or maybe it’s not, but it is to me) that as I keep thinking about the “Important” things, that the list keeps getting longer and longer.

I’ve not actually written anything down, as of yet, and some of these are much more inclusive than just the word, but I’m just going to start with some of the things that I’ve been thinking about.

Family

This means both my immediate family of 6 and my larger family as well.  I want to be available for my kids.  I will only ever have this time with them once.  And I want to make it count.  I want to be present, here and now.  not just at home when they come home from school, but off the computer, and actually paying attention to them.  I want to be able to help out with their homework and to teach them how to cook and bake and to do crafts with them.  I want to not be so tired from half assed doing other things that all I want to do is foist them off on the TV so that I can sit and veg. on the computer.  I want to grow in friendship and trust with them and to teach them how to communicate their feelings and wnats and desires and how to effectively communicate even the negative emotions. I want to have time to spend with my extended family.  I want my kids to grow up knowing their grandparents, and aunts and Uncles and Cousins and even their great grandparents and great aunts and uncles and second cousins.  Family is so important and I really want to have a sense of closeness in what is rapidly becoming such an “Island” world….I want to cultivate (as much as I can) the sense of “Village”.

Health

This is a huge one including Food, cleaning, Exercise, and a buch of other stuff as well.  I want to be able to cook good healthy food for my kids and I want to train them to love to put healthy stuff into their bodies.  I don’t want it to be a fad…I want it to be a lifestyle.  Not so stringent that they feel the need to stuff their faces every time Mom or Dad isn’t looking, but I want them to be able to make good choices for the long haul.  I also want to make the healthiest choices regarding cleaning supplies.  At this point, the decision that slightly been taking out of our hands just because ‘Siah seems to have a reaction to SLS and so that means that we have to find alternatives, but now, I use things like vinegar for all my windows and mirrors and I think it works WAAAAAAY better than Windex ever did.  And I like the fact that my floor cleaner residue won’t get all over ‘Siah as he’s crawling around.  i could go on and on about this, but I’ll spare you.  Also, included in this section is exercise.  I HAVE to make time to exercise.  I WANT to make time to exercise and so it will be done.  It just hasn’t been done, yet….soon, though…soon!

Jon

I want to clearly set aside time and effort to put into Jon and I’s relationship.  I want it to be deliberate.  I don’t want to find out 20 years down the road that we wished that we had put the time it…..I want to continue to build on this GREAT friendship that we have and to be an example to our kids for years to come.

Me

I want to have time planned for me to do things like the different crafts that I like to do.  Already since just trying to slow my life down, but not being entirely purposeful about it, I’ve crochetted or knitted two kimono style sweaters, three vests, a hat and I’ve started a few other pieces.  I made a bead necklace.  I’d like to paint some more and to do some more paper crafts as well.  I also want to set aside more time to find and make more healthy baking for my family.  I enjoy baking and to find stuff that we can all eat and that tastes delicious, that makes me happy and brings a sense of satisfaction.

None of this is in any particular order of importance and there are still more that I’m thinking about and even more to flesh out in each particular category, but it’s a start.  To know what I want helps me to see what I shouldn’t be doing. 

I think that I’ll be taking stock regularly of where I’m at and what’s important to me and why?  See, life changes and things move up and down the importance scale, and I’ve lived enough to know and recognize that just because this is where I’m at and these are the things that are important to me right now, that doesn’t mean that I get to go on autopilot like this for the rest of my life…..NO!  What was important to me in the months and years before I had Josiah changed when he came and when he turns 1 or 2 or 5 – it stands a good chance of changing again…in September it might all change or over the summer months or when Geli goes to middle school.  I think that any big life shift or change necessitates a peek inside as to what’s important to me “NOW”!  and how can I accomplish that and what needs to be re-evaluated and possibly let go of…for a time or forever…..

It’s about what’s important to you……..asking yourself “What is important to me?” and “How do I accomplish that?” 

If you want something enough, you will figure out a way to make it happen.

I want a slower, more simple life.

Oneupmanship

Exhibit A

He is just so cute…and trying so hard….see the arms, as if he could somehow hold up the hula hoop by sheer will power alone….and the arch in the back…’cause you know…that the problem…it has ABSOLUTELY nothing to do with the dollar store hula hoop. Nope! Nothing at all.

And now, because the older sister can ALWAYS do something better than anyone else in the world….

Exhibt B

She is SOOOOO tall and skinny….it’s hard to believe that’s the same person who as a baby had a SERIOUSLY HUGE bum…like GINORMOUS…..enough so that many, MANY people commented on it….and now…..SO THIN! Do you see the short hair too….she got a haircut for her Birthday with her Nana! How fun is that. Only problem is now she looks sooooooo much older.

Green Smoothies, Poop and Blood….that just about covers it all

So, here is part of my breakfast this morning…

Green Smoothie
Yummy looking ain’t it?  Actually it was delicious.  It’s Peaches, Banana, and Spinach and just for fun, I threw in some Calcium powder. 

It really is quite green……see…..

Green
And, can you see my baby standing at the gate in the background….YUP…standing.  Can you believe it?  He pulled himself up there all by himself…he’s growing up too fast.  it happens doesn’t it.

Anyway, I read about smoothies, especially green smoothies over here, and she got it from over here. 

I’d also like to show you our latest treat/cookie/yummy goodness also via here from here

May I present you with what we lovingly refer to as Gorilla Poop.

Gorilla Poop
It’s soooooo delicious.  Tastes like chocolate….like beautiful yummy dark chocolate.  MMMMmmmmm Good!

You can get the recipe at either of the links up there, but just to note, that I added the sesame seeds and flax seeds all by myself….’cause I’m all creative like that.  Adds extra crunch (and fiber).

Also,

Today I will be giving blood for the first time in WAY TOO LONG.  It must be since before I got pregnant with Nathaniel back in July 2004, and then with the almost constant getting pregnant and then getting un-pregnant and just not wanting to “give” anything but only reveling in my misery, I didn’t give blood once, even though I’m sure there was at least one opportunity to do so in there some where.

So, When Canadian Blood Services called to book my appt I said, “Sign me up, Baby!

So, today at 2:05pm, I’m headed in to see if they’ll let me do my part to give back.  I really don’t think I’m anemic, and I’m healthy, so it should just be business as usual. 

I did an excellent job of doing nothing yesterday and I’m proud of myself for it.  Things get a little bit busier for this week, starting with today, but hopefully nothing that I can’t handle.

See, I’m wanting to pare back and just “do life” at a slower pace.  I don’t want to be so busy that I’m too tired for the things that are important to me.

So, I’ve already been thinking of the things that are important, but I’m going to be writing down some of the things that are really important to me and working towards those things.  I know that it means letting go of some of the things that are “cluttering” up my life…not even in a bad way.  Lots of the things I’m doing are good things, but they are not helping me to accomplish the things that I find “MOST IMPORTANT”, and at the end of it all I don’t want to look back and think, “Man, I did sort of a little bit of a lot of good things, but I was so tired and I never really did a “great” job of the things that I really wanted to” and so I’m re-prioritizing.

I’ll keep you updated on that list.

How about you?  What things are really important to you?  Do you have “stuff” cluttering up your life?  Unnecessary stuff that you could let slide in order to really and truly focus on the things that you want to focus on????  Want to do a list – your list – with me?

I’ll leave you with one of my most important things…..Jeremy.

Here he is talking to Jon about the airport and going on the plane and can you hear the inflection in his voice?….too cute.  Does he has a future in Television????  I obviously don’t have a future in video recording….it’s a little dark, but it’s just so darn cute….

Catching Up…

So, It’s been a few days, and I almost feel human again.  I’ve discovered that me being tired = not much witty banter…or just not much banter at all.

In fact, I’ve rarely taked to Jon the past few days…I’ve been SOOOOOO tired.  I’ve pretty much gone to bed at 9pm every night and even slept during the day when ‘Siah went down, and finally…….FINALLY, on Sunday morning I woke up and didn’t feel like I had a 10 ton gorilla sitting on my head and forcing my eyelids down.  Mind you, I stayed up until midnight (stupid, stupid me) and this morning I was a little bit less than chipper, but it’s 8:22am, and the kids are ready for school and have been for the last half hour and they are just sitting around waiting to leave and Geli is holding the baby and so I have a few minutes to blather on and on about not too much.

I do have some pictures up here and here, and if I get a chance – I’ll actually comment about some of them, but even if I don’t, you can still look at the one of LaLa and I and wonder why I would let some kid take a picture of me with no make up on after a full day of travelling.  It’s amazing how a one hour plane ride can wind up being a WHOLE FREAKING DAY’S TRIP, and throw in two little boys and it’s a major party.

So, I have a busy week of trying to do nothing…I’ll explain that in a bit….it’s harder than it seems.

So, what have you been up to?

And I’ve Finally Arrived……

Wow, that was the longest plane ride to Prince George EVER!  A whole week…..MAN!  I’m really looking forward to posting every day about all the fun times that we will have and I’ll be sure to just LOAD each and every post with TONS of pictures…….

Actually, I’m home!

Turns out, Girlfriend……doesn’t have Wireless access and so I connected a grand total of 3 times and pretty much only to check my e-mail.

We had SO MUCH FUN.  We talked and laughed and cried and talked some more and laughed some more and did laundry and cleaing and ate and herded kids and laughed more, and it was a most wonderful, wonderful week.

I still have to download and go through my camera and think about what else I can say about this past week……

But, for right now, the kids and Jon and I are having some family time as a WHOLE!  Nothings more important than that, and so I’ll talk to you maybe tomorrow if I’m able to wake up……

I’m a teeny, tiny bit tired.  ‘Siah was a complete and utter mess during the night…..nothing was wrong, but he was just extremely restless and wouldn’t actually fall “hard” asleep, and it all culminated in last nights most amazing…..wake up but not really awake-ness from 12:30am until 2:30am and then finally falling asleep but waking again at 4:30am, and being half awake until 5:30am, and then I got up at 6am to get packed and ready for the day……..so, I think I’ll be going to sleep when the kids do tonight, and Jon gets to deal with ‘Siah tonight. YAH!!!!!

Leeeeeeeeeeaaaaaving……on a jet plane….

….except I do know when I’ll be back again.

I’m headed up to Prince George to hang out with my friend’s dog…..well, and her chickens…..are they even still alive, darling?

 She is my dearest and longest friend and we’re more like family than friends.  Well, her darling husband is down here working very close to where I live….when opportunity knocks you gotta answer…..and she is back at home working a full time job (in a stressful working environment) with 5, yes you read that right FIVE children.  She has her 4 girls and one 10 year old boy (exchange student), and well, she never complained to me, but something in one of her recent e-mails to me had me wanting to go and love on her a little, and if I’ve worked this out right – I belive that her hubbie is headed back up there to see her in the days just after I leave, and how cool would that be for him to come home and for her to not be stressed out.

I can’t imagine how she’s coping with everything. 

So, I leave tomorrow and I’m taking the two boys with me.  Yup, me and JJ and ‘Siah are headed out on a plane….I got wicked cheap seats (YAH Westjet ROCKS!) and we’re gone for a week, but dont you be worrying none.  I’m hoping and aiming to post every day that I’m gone. ‘Cause I gotta blather on about Jeremy’s first plane ride (did I mention how excited he is to be going on a plane – he came into the baby’s room this morning where I was standing in my bra and underwear (I know you needed that detail….wait, you’ll understand in a minute) and changing the baby’s diaper, and he walks up to me and hugs me so tight and says in a whisper “Only one more sleep, Mom.  Only one more sleep, and then she snuggled in even closer and whispered again…..mmmmm you’re so warm…)  Ahhhhhhhhh, he’s so sweet…..

Okay, and now that I’ve given you all way too  much of a mental picture of me this morning, shall we talk about sweet hot monkey loving….no…..you’re not really into that right now???….I’m not either, but I’m really trying to distract you…is it working?

Moving on…..It’s…ummmmm…..10pm here, and I’m not packed AT ALL, and I’m feeling a little bit panicky about it, but we’re leaving our house at 11am tomorrow, and i figure that while I’m being all spontaneous I might as well just go full throttle and just throw some stuff in a bag and hope for the best when I get there. (Me planning a plane trip with two kids with one weeks notice is terrible spontaneous, if you don’t know that about me, then you dont’ know me at all…..Typically I’d plan for 3 or more months for something like this…so this is ALL NEW TERRITORY for me.)

And so in the spirit of honesty, NO, I’m not packed, but I’ve been thinking about stuff that I need to take and while that’s not exactly the same as doing it, It’s not quite the same as flying by the seat of my pants……but, i really should get busy, ’cause speaking of monkeys…..Jon’s calling me.

Talk to you next from the wild snowy wasteland of Prince George.

Sunday Afternoon Family Painting

We had a lovely afternoon yesterday, painting as a family……what?  Don’t you do stuff like that?

Actually, this was a first for us too.

We’ve been so insanely busy and just needed to have a weekend away from everything.  We feel like we’ve been going, going, going, going for a looooooong time now and every once in a while you just need to step back and out of your regularly scheduled programing and take a vacation, and what better way to do one than to do it for free in your own house.

So we did that.

We got up yesterday morning and stayed in our jammies and then we made a HUGE delicious breakfast with bacon and eggs and hashbrowns and toast..mmmmm.  The kids set up our dinning room table with our fancy dishes and the special tea cups and we had a very nice breakfast.

Then we eventually got cleaned up and the kids played for a bit and then we decided to paint as a family.


‘Siah helped out by keeping track of the paint bottles….I’ve actually been wanting some “art” for my walls for a long time and have been after Jon to get his butt in gear and paint me something.  He’s very artistic and creative and he keeps saying that he’ll do something and then he never does.

So, we pulled out some canvases yesterday and some acrylic paint and sat down around the big table and had at it.

I picked 4 shades of blue and then told the kids that the theme was birds, and let them get busy creating.

They had SOOOOO much fun.  This is definately something that we’ll do again.  They already asked what the next color’s and theme were and had some suggestions, so it looks like I might have some art before this is all done.

It also gave us a chance to talk about how each of us can create something special, and that Xani’s ideas are not better or worse than Jeremy’s ideas, but that their art is special and unique to each of them.  Of course, Jeremy wasn’t buying that, and just wanted to know if we liked his picture “MUCH better than Xani’s or Geli’s“.

Everyone actually stuck with the theme except me.  I started painting, and then i couldn’t figure out how to work a bird into the picture and so I just left it.  Oh well!  Maybe next time I’ll stick with the theme!

Click on the picture to see all of our “creations”