This week has been a tough one. One of my boys has been discriminated against because of a lack of understanding of who he is, what his struggles are and what supports he needs.
I’ve been trying to wrap my brain around what I’ve been feeling this week. This situation could have been avoided had there been more understanding, more inclusion, more compassion, more knowledge, and less selfishness.
If people had taken the time, energy and effort to know my son…..to really know him……they would not have treated him the way that they did.
If they had looked for and discovered his heart and soul….they would not have judged his struggles as defiance or disobedience.
If they had looked for, and discovered his abilities….then his disabilities would have been overshadowed.
If they had looked for and recognized his intense desire for relationship and connection…….they would have been able to see beyond the anxiety and disregulation.
I keep coming back to this idea of “knowing” and of “being known”. I believe there is a desire in all of us to really, truly be known. Maybe that thought terrifies us….maybe it excite us…..
I believe that our biggest fear in being truly seen and known, is the fear of being rejected……of not being accepted. That’s what we, all, want…isn’t it? To be known and to be loved, exactly for who we are. I’m not saying that we should never grow or work on areas of weakness. Growth and Personal Healing are critical, but being loved and accepted for who you are is so important.
I don’t know why I think that.
I don’t think I’m a bad person. I try to be authentic, open, and honest. If you only know me online, I believe that I’m the same person in real life. I can be funny. I can be serious. I try to live with compassion and not judge. I want to exemplify love in my words and my actions. I don’t shy away from the truth, nor do I want to hurt people with it. I share about the good and the bad. I speak with way too many exclamation marks and periods……..just like I type!!! I find it difficult to speak without my hands, without using facial expressions, and my whole body.
I often feel like I’m too “big”…….too “expressive”…….too “expansive”……
I feel like I’m constantly diminishing my true self because my true self is overwhelming.
I LONG for connection and yet, I’m terrified of it.
And maybe this is why I feel SO strongly for my children…….I see their intense desire for connection. I see their yearning for relationship. I see their hunger to be known………and accepted……and cherished.
And yet, they are big……their personalities can be larger than life. They can be overwhelming at times. But I SEE them……I KNOW THEM!
I see their hearts.
I see their souls.
I see their goodness.
I see their kindness.
I see their compassion.
I see their innocence.
I see their love.
I see their passion.
I see their zeal.
I KNOW THEM.
And yet, they’ve been hurt….too many times!
They’ve been hurt because people didn’t, couldn’t or wouldn’t look beyond the struggles and disabilities to see them…..to truly KNOW them.
It hurts them.
It hurts me.
I believe that we miss out on some of the most precious treasures in the world, if we dismiss those who may be differently abled.
Maybe in really, truly seeing and accepting others; we too, will be seen and accepted………..what would our world look like then?