What are you Thankful for?

It’s Monday morning….well, it’s almost noon and I’m sitting on my couch….in the sunshine….in the quiet……well, it would be quiet if Geli wasn’t hacking and couching and sneezing in the back ground. She’s stayed home another day from school. She woke up this morning with some “gastro-intestinal issues” and that’s all we’ll say about that. It’s all just a part of the stupid virus. I can’t wait for it to run it’s course and be gone from our house.

My mom came by this morning and has taken my boys for a walk. It’s nice cause they’ll get back, we’ll feed them lunch and then the baby will go for a nap. That’s some good timing, as far as I’m concerned.

Things are okay this morning. I’d be lying if I said that I bounded out of bed this morning, ready for the day. Certain that today was going to be a good day. It was more like I rolled out of bed ’cause the baby needed a diaper change. And then I folded 3 loads of laundry before even heading upstairs.

We managed to get breakfast made, school started and the house somewhat tidied and so right now things feel peaceful. I know what’s happening for dinner and I will put it in the oven in a few hours. There are no appointments, or places to be or things to pick up and so today is a quiet day.

I’m noticing that right now, my patience is not at the level it normally is. I snapped at Jeremy this morning instead of calmly explaining to him why it’s not a good idea to shout in the hallway when his brother is still sleeping. I don’t like being rude or disrespectful to my kids. I’m trying to teach them to talk respectfully even when they are frustrated or tired or upset and so to model the very behaviour that I’m trying to teach against……frustrating for me. It’s all a lesson, isn’t it? I get to apologize and explain what happened and how it’s not okay. We hug and move on….it’s just life lessons, but it speaks to me of how little I have to give.

I’m not hopeless. I’ve not given up. I’m just tired. Imagine if you had been walking in the desert for a month and you knew that just over that hill in front of you was a town and there was water, food, a bed….rest……and you just had to make it there. You’re exhausted. You don’t want to carry on, but there is no point in lying down and dying now. The end is close. Your dessert experience won’t last forever, but…..you are tired. You don’t feel like you can take another step. All you want to do is to lie down. But if you do….you will end up losing out on everything that you struggled for….that you fought for….all that pain and energy was, then, for nothing.

Sometimes, you just need to sit down and cry. Let all of the pressure off. And then you pick your tired self up and carry on……that’s where I’m at….I’m carrying on.

We all go through things. Have I ever wished that I was not going through this…..OF COURSE! Do I wish that I had a close friend, someone who really understood……honestly, as nice as that would be….NO! Because that would mean that you were going through this and I wouldn’t wish that on anyone. Sure, I’ve looked at you and wondered why “I” am going through this horrible time in my life. And then I remind myself that WE ARE ALL going through things….Life is a constant state of living and dying…of good and bad….of tough times and easy times.

I’m so aware of the tough times right now because there seems to be so many tough things going on in my life and yet, I try to keep aware of the good things in front of me….I have so many good things. I have an amazing husband….who I don’t get to see nearly enough. But isn’t that amazing that after 16+ years that I want to have more time with him and not less. I have 5 amazing kids. I am all so proud of each of them. They work through their own struggles and come out winning, and loving and embracing life. My family is amazing and well,…..I’m alive and breathing.

Alive is pretty good, no?

Today I’m choosing to be thankful….. I’d love to hear what you are thankful for, if you wouldn’t mind sharing?

I’m thankful for Jon and my kids.
I’m thankful for my health.
I’m thankful for my home.
I’m thankful for sunshine.
I’m thankful for my momma.
I’m thankful for this quiet moment.

What are you thankful for?
There are no wrong answers……

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6 Responses to What are you Thankful for?

  1. Jon says:

    I’m thankful for my wife.

  2. debra says:

    i am thankful i am deaf it is so peaceful and quiet like a calm sea.
    i am thankful i have Jesus, i am never alone even with no husband no children no family no best friends i have Jesus who is with me and is my best constant lifetime companion.
    i am thankful i have some one who cares and that is Jesus and friends.
    I am thankful i have food to eat today and will start making hamburger stew.
    i am thankful we do not have persecution like other christians in middle east and china etc.
    i am thankful for HOPE it is all in Jesus.
    thankful for having an attitude to be thankful
    thankful for Patti and Karen as my friends who are special to me.

  3. Jessica Randall says:

    I am thankful for Gods correction and his time spent training me so I listen better.

    I am thankful for my 2 families : blood family and church family

    I am thankful for all the safety and protection I had/have in my life.

    Ultimately it is the people around me who I am currently in relationship with on a regular bases, who I am most thankful for.

    Thank you Patti for making us think about what we are thankful for.

  4. Mama Lorna says:

    I am thankful for the Hope we have in our Lord
    I am thankful for amazing family and friends
    I am thankful for you!!!!!

  5. Tyrone says:

    I am Thankful I have family that Loves the Lord. We don’t always have answers to Life’s problems, but I am Thankful that Jesus is faithful. I am thankful that God judged Jesus instead of me. I really deserve His wrath, but Thank you Jesus. I am Thankful that I can sing. It is the one thing that seems to take me somewhere else and its awesome. I am Thankful for my family. We have gone through hell, almost lost family members several times, some to drugs, some to violence, some to the church, some to sin, one to cancer, and if you named it, we probably went through it one way or another. I would not wish my life on anyone, but I am Thankful that it was myself and my family who have gone through it . It has made us who we are, warts and all. We are far from perfect, but I think God that we are perfect in Christ because our spirit man is perfect. I am thankful for the courage that my cousins and their families have shown during their times of trouble. I love you guys and you are in my prayers. I curse that cancer in Jesus Name and command it to dry up, die, and leave to never come back. I agree with my family for the Peace of God to manifest continually in their lives.

    Tyrone (Round Rock, TX)

  6. grandma says:

    I Iam thankful for a great grandson who writes letters and he needs to watch his mail box
    am thankful for a Grandaughter who writes letters I am thankful for Gods! Word which encourage me.I am thankful for family and friends Iam thankful for a warm home,for my health and the many blessings God gives to us. I am thankful for a good husband ,for good places where Gods word is shared and taught, I am thankful for a good bed to sleep in and I am going there now Blessings

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