Another Blow

I’ve had a few days to process and …..we were not prepared for this.

As of October 31st, Jon has been laid off.

The church has not been doing well financially for a while and at this point cannot afford two pastors and so, we are now out of a job.

I felt okay for the first part of this week, and I think that was shock. As the week as progressed, it has slowly begun to sink in…..we have no job! No employment! No Income!

This past year has not been kind to us and we are not in a position financially to absorb any time without a paycheck!

I believe with all my heart that we will make it through this. By that I mean that we will all have each other and that we will love and that we will live and yet……..I have no idea what this means for us practically and realistically.

Will be have to sell our house? Without a job we can’t buy another one, but without a job, we can’t pay for this one either. I know that it sounds rather dramatic, but I’m feeling rather traumatized right now.

I feel like I’m floundering and I don’t know where to go or what to do…..I’m trying to figure out what we can sell and what we can live without and how I can make some money. Even if Jon were to start his business up again, there is no way that he can just instantly make enough to support us…..

I just want to run away.

I know that there is never good timing for this, but this….this is just really, really difficult. Especially after coming on top of this past year.

I’m so tired. I want to sleep and yet, when I lay down….I can’t. Too much to think about and yet I feel so helpless…so hopeless. It’s been a hard day….a tough week…..

Author: Patricia Culley

I'm the ringmaster of my own circus. Just trying to stay one step ahead of the monkeys.

4 thoughts on “Another Blow”

  1. Hi Patti We will be praying for you. This does not surprise the Lord and He says “I know the plans I have for you——-You already know the rest of that verse. Try to rest in His promises. Much love and prayers Grandma

    try to rest and trust

  2. will be praying for God to lead your steps on where to go and what to do. trusting God will be a provider for you like he was for me this year. you are in my heart and prayers. God does not leave the righteious begging for bread. love Debra

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