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Jon and I bought @ultradigitalprinting in July and it’s been an exciting and exhausting past 7 months. One thing we’ve realized is that we need to be even more structured with our time and energy. This means that mean prepping on the weekend is critical to ensure that healthy food is available. I’ve currently got beef browning for tacos and spaghetti sauce; a chicken boiling for broth to make soup and chicken breast in the oven. And that’s just the start for this weekend.#mealpreppinglikeaboss #literallyaboss
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15 years ago, this month, our son, Nathaniel died and then was born. It seems backward; like it’s not the order life should happen in. Children shouldn’t die before their parents. Babies shouldn’t die before they’re born. One thing I’ve learned over the last 15 years is that there are no guarantees in this life. In the early years after Nathaniel was born, I had SO MANY regrets. I wish we had held him longer. I wish we had taken more pictures. I wish we had brought our family in to meet him. I wish……It felt like we were so unsure as to what to do and what was considered “appropriate”. Since then, I’ve tried to live my life in such a way that I don’t have regrets. Does that mean that I just threw abandon to the wind and did whatever I wanted….no! But over the past 15 years, I’ve done less of what “might be expected of me or what might be considered appropriate”. And more of what’s important to me and what I truly believe is necessary. I’ve listened to my heart more and in doing so, I’ve found SO. MUCH. FREEDOM. It’s one of the many gifts that came from my son. Even within the darkness of loss and trauma, when I looked for the light, I found it. This gift was so very necessary as we navigated the next 15 years of loss and trauma. Even though he never took a breath, his legacy is one of wonder, compassion and hope; and that is incredible, in my mind. #nathanielmark #remembering #loss #stillbirth #legacy #abstractpainting
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“Look for Light” I whisper to myself as Darkness closes in. Light is endless….it’s eternal….and though Pain, Despair and Exhaustion threaten to smother me, I pause. I focus. I breathe. I search for and find Light, even when Darkness seems relentless. Even in Darkness, Light holds me. It heals me. It guides me. #loss #trauma #remembering #digitalart #painting #painttherapy
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