Month: March 2009

Randomness

No, it’s not fluke. We’ve had maybe one accident per day, but other than that Siah’s been dry and using the potty. I’ve used a diaper for one nap, and other than that….only night times. It’s hard to believe that this baby diaper stage is over. Wow!

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I’m totally frustrated with my computer. I have 22 lines on the screen and it it so freaking slow that I almost walked away from it tonight. It’s taking FOREVER for any page to load and I’m not really sure what’s going on. FRUSTRATING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hold on, Baby! Just give a bit longer.

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I did all the laundry in my house, made bean soup from dry beans (It was amazing. Siah had 3 bowls – that’s not normal) and I managed to vacuum my carpets. Now, I just need to take a shower and I can call it a day.

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It’s raining and I’m cold and I think I’m going to start my period soon, but I’m not really sure. Nursing kind of throws my cycle outta wack. I’m sure any guy readers were just dying to know that….You’re welcome!

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Going into Vancouver tomorrow and I’m dreading the drive. Already. Silly, Silly Me!

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I just listened to myself talk on CD for 25 minutes and well….what I sound like in my head is WAAAAAAAYYYYY cooler than that. I really don’t like my voice and I say, “Um” a lot.

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Yesterday we were having lunch and Geli asks for a word that rhymes with hat – the kids start listing off words and Jeremy throws a few suggestions out there and then says, “shat”….and it took all that Jon and I had in us to not start laughing our heads off.

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Then later that night Jeremy wanted to do something and Jon had said no and I was backing Jon up and so Jeremy was not getting what he wanted. So he told me that he was so angry…..f.u.c.k.i.n.g…..yah, he spelled it out for me – just like that…. I told him that was not cool and he says to me, “What? I didn’t say it or anything?” Yah, well son, you thought it and so it’s just the same thing…..little boy!!!!!! MAN!!!!

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My sister came out to see me today. It was so nice to talk with her. It’s been WAY TOO LONG and I’ve missed her so much. We need to do something soon. LOVE YOU!

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Siah has slept through the night two nights in a row and I’m hoping he pulls a third. I could really use the extra sleep……although last night I was awake at 4am for no good reason. Just habit, I guess?

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I think I’m gonna go and talk that shower now and head to bed. Gotta get up early tomorrow to get things ready for a long day. Hopefully I’ll have something interesting to talk about tomorrow.

I’m in Shock over here, People!!!

Ummmmm, I think Siah has toilet trained.

I’m not sure if the past two days have been just a fluke or what, but yesterday I was at home at let Siah run around with his bottom half feeling free and easy and he peed on the toilet all day. He had one accident where he started to pee and stopped and finished on the toilet and then later in the day he was ummmm…..grunting a bit and well….dropped a log. It was not cool. I tried to stop him, but he was too far gone and it just happened.

Other than that, he stayed dry all day even when we went out for lunch.

Today we had one poop accident, again, but this time contained….and other than that, He has been wearing the same big boy pants all day.

I bought some of the Kushies Waterproof Training Pants, but today he’s spent most of today wearing the tiniest little pair of big boy underwear. He looks so darling. He even stayed dry through his nap and all the way on the hour’s drive home from Vancouver.

He says, “potty” when he has to go and has no problems with us helping to steady him on the big toilet (no baby potty’s for this big boy) and…….well…….like I said, I’m almost not even sure if this is for real or just a fluke thing.

He does know what’s going on. I’m sure of it…..I think!?!?

For example, we were driving home from the store this evening and he said potty, so we stopped at a Wendy’s ran him in to the toilet. He went and was still dry.

I might be eating my words in a day or two, but at a year and a half – he’s staying drier than his brother did at 4 years old….I really hope this continues. We are going to be encouraging it with everything in us.

I would be thrilled to be done with diapers. That would be awesome.

Want vs. Need – the hunger edition

Well, after being so upset with mysef about my weight – I decided to step back up to the plate…..hahaha….I just realized that phrase is exactly what I don’t want to be doing.

Anyhooooo………

Jon and I have a weekly date and we are going for Sushi tomorrow.

I had a little chat with myself on Sunday and very sternly told myself that if I didn’t behave and eat well all week, then I’d not be able to go for Sushi on Thursday. I really wanted to go for sushi and so…..I’ve been really good the last 3 days.

I’ve eaten veggies, veggies, and more veggies; fruit, some meat, some nuts, some grains and then calling it a day. Not necessarily in that order, but in that volume. Do ya know what I mean…lots of veggies, less fruit, less meat, less nuts and even less grains?

I still don’t know if that really makes sesne, but I don’t care – I’m moving on.

I’ve done fine until this afternoon…well, I had a moment last night where I wanted “something” and settled for nothing. It’ was really quite delicious! Ha Ha Ha! Okay, not funny at all.

This afternoon was hard. I hit that 2:30 – 3:00pm wall and just wanted chocolate or a donut or cake or something with sugar and carbs in it.

I resisted and now, here I am. It’s 10 minutes to 10 o’clock and I’m hungry. Not gonna eat, but seriously thinkin’ about it and that’s why I’m here.

So you can all keep me accountable.

So, I’m gonna go and chug some water and then go to bed…..can’t eat while I’m sleeping can I?

What do you all do to combat the cravings? What’s worse for you – the afternoon’s or the evenings?

Barrelling along……

Hey…..great post over here today….go and leave her a comment….oh, ah, er….that would be me, eh?

Well, feel free to leave me a comment – ya know….if ya want to.

Does this count as a post for today or am I really scraping at the bottom of the barrel, here?

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I did post that last night, but I had been thinking about it all day and well, it just really hit me hard…It really hit me just how hard my kids have been and continue to be affected by the traumas in our life over the past few years. See, we don’t have bad dreams – like never – and about a “loss” well, it just hit me hard….I think I’ve said that already, right?….I’m tired.

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Siah is feeling better, and was only up twice last night…we are definately on the upward trend. Here’s hoping for a really, REALLY good night tonight.

The Birds are Singing! The Sun is Shining; the Bunny’s are Hopping and the Unicorn….Well, He just Farted!

The kids have gone back to school today – GLORY HALLELUJAH!

I mean, I love ’em and all, but I also like to have at least one moment when no one is asking me for “something”….”anything”.

Mind you, Siah is still not 100% and he is still whining and whining and whining and whining.

I hate that whole….. “I’m sorta sick, but not really and actually, I’m just practising for when I’m all grown up and have a “man cold“. Yah, he’s starting young, this one is…..

I would probably be a bit more sympathetic had I been able to sleep a bit more over the past 3 nights, but sleep….sleep is for wimps. Who needs sleep when you can stay up all night cuddling a sick, coughing, crying baby who only taunts you with the possibility of sleep? Who? Not me, I tell you.

Anyway, I have this impossible notion that I’m going to accomplish all sorts of things today. Would you like to hear my list….I guess technically you’d read my list, but that is splitting hairs and the fact that I’m even coherent enough to be making any sort of a list……..delusional or otherwise – is pretty amazing as far as I’m concerned.

So, in a perfect an okay a decent world, I will:

– take a shower and get dressed (these two go hand in hand because if I only take a shower and don’t manage to get dressed, well…..that’s almost a step backward as far as I’m concerned because even though right now I’m in my pyjamas and I stink…I could at least answer the door. Right???)

Showered, dressed and even did my hair…no makeup though….oh, but I did wax the ol’stach off….was getting a bit manly for my liking….just keeping it real…..

– tidy the house (I’m not even talking about deep cleaning – just scraping the mountains of toys and clothes back into each childs room)

Not as much done here as I’d like….I still have time left in the day, though…..right?

– plan AND make dinner (we need to eat and I’m not thinking that the kids will be happy with a handful of vitamins)

Starting dinner in 20 mins…..chicken stirfry…mmmmmmmmm!

– Wash AND dry some laundry (Those darn kids think that “clean your room” means throw everything on the floor down to the laundry room…then it’s clean, eh?)

Only one load washed and dried (I still have time….) and 4 loads folded but not yet put away.

The pipe dream list includes Siah actually laying down and going to sleep for an afternoon nap for even just one hour…..but seeing as he’s woken up the moment that I’ve so much as breathed the thought of putting him in his bed….I’m not really holding out too much hope for that one.

He slept for 35 mins…..not an hour, but about 30 mins longer than he has in the past few days……beggar’s can’t e choosers, eh?

Now, the little monkey is on top of my work table trying out my new necklaces….so, I gotta go and rescue them him.

And it’s ON again….

The power has just come back on and thank goodnes….

I mean, I had the Internet to surf and forums to browse and blogs to read and a post to come up with and no music and nothing to do…..it was horrid.

Normally I would welcome the break that a power outage brought, but today I just wanted some time and space.

Siah’s not feeling well and he’s been a giant clinging bawl of whining, miserable, feverish mess and well, I feel like I’ve been nursing him ALL FREAKING DAY.

Which, normally, I love “our” time, but then again, I don’t have to deal with “our” time for hours and hours on end per day.

Now, it is 8:40pm! The kids are a bit wired because, HEY! Power Outage means that life is so cool what with all the candles and no electrical things to occupy our time and soooooooo……when the power does come back on….then we have to get all stressed and run around and flick on every light and play with every electrical machine at super loud volume because……seriously….we cannot even handle the peace and quiet and not being plugged into something.

I think it’s bedtime, right???? I mean, we gotta get back on that school schedule sometime before school starts………on Monday!!!!

Oh Yah! There it is. It is totally happening. They are all going back to school on Monday and I get to try and put some order back to this thing I call my home. Only 2 more days and just three more sleeps. WoooooooooooHooooooooooo!

Alright – apparently when I ask if the husband cantake the baby and play with him for a few minutes – that some how translates into picking him up carrying him into the next room, putting him down and playing on the computer…..so I now have a whiney baby once again attached to me. It’s AWESOME – you should get yourself one.

Really……I got nuthin’ for ya.

Well, I had nuthin’ for ya yesterday either and so today you get my boring ramblings, mostly because I feel bad for saying that I was going to post every day and then not doing it.

So…..what’s new with you.

Me?

I’m fat. Well, fatter than I’d like to be. I gotta take a bit better care. I felt really discouraged because I worked out for a month and tried to really watch what I was eating and I gained weight and well…that was really frustrating and so I gave up. Stupid! I know and so now I’ve gotta work even harder – Doubly stupid…..I’ll work it out, but I gotta give my friend some money for this thing that I suggested and then gave up on….Triple-y stupid….

that’s enough stupidity for now……

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I found a sweater pattern on-line that I want to try, but it’s a big grown up sweater and not just a kid sweater and I’m not sure that I’m confident enough to be able to knit myself a big huge person sized sweater BUT….it is so unbelieveably cute and well…I have all the time driving back and forth into and out of Vancouver to work on it…and….I might just try. I’m still trying to pysch myself up enough to give it a shot.

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The girls are at my sister’s tonight. So, it was a boys night tonight. Now, Siah is sleeping and Jeremy is watching a DVD and soon Jon and I will watch the 3rd period of the canucks game and well, then we’ll call it a night, right?

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Our fish are all dying….and I hate to see them die, but I don’t want to take care of them either. I want Jon to take care of them so that I can enjoy them……this is okay…..no?

And that’s it. I’m done. over and out!

Are there any questions that you’ve ever wondered about me that you’d like me to answer (within reason)? lemme know!

Stealing Internet

I’m sitting in the parking lot of the Rec Center. Jon’s gone inside to get the kids who are swimming with my mom and I feel a bit creepy sitting here in the dark banging out a post while I wait for everyone to come out so we can go home.

We’ve been in town working today and my mom watched the kids. I have exactly 2 minutes left before the stupid battery on this thing dies and so I may or maynot get a chance tonight to finish the post, but it’s been a long day and we still have to go home, put the kids to bed, tidy up a bit and then off to ed to start all over again tomorrow.

i’m feeling a bit whiney and so it’s probably a good thing that I don’t have very much time.

Things have been so busy for the past little bit – I feel like I’ve had almost no time to do anything. I have e-mails piling up in my Inbox and I’m sure that some people are wondering why I’ve not responded…..I’ll have to try to catch things up.

Well, my times is up. Gotta go. Later!

Yes, I Did!

I managed to pound out 20 minutes on the eliptical.

Thanks for being the monkey on my back. There is nothing like posting that you are going to do something to keep you somewhat accountable.

Mind you, mentioning that I was going to try to post every day this month hasn’t realy helped me out that much. I know that I went away, but I really have no “good” excuse for yesterday….just an excuse!

We were gone all day until 10pm and then the first that I thought about posting was at 11:30pm when I was laying in my bed, under the covers, in the dark and the thought crossed my mind that if I were REALLY SERIOUS about posting everyday that I’d get up and type something.

I, immediately, put that thought out of my mind – rolled over, and went to sleep.

And here we are!

BUT……I’ve posted more this month than I have in the last 2 months put together and I figure that’s pretty good. Not that anyone’s keeping track or anything……

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Thanks for all the comments on Siah’s pics. I’ll give it a few more days and then figure out which one(s) seem to be the winners. So far, it seems to be the 2 that I like the best as well. YAH!

Since ya’ll are in such fine form with the opinion giving….I’ll ask for a few more thoughts from you all.

I took the pictures of both Jeremy and Xandra over the weekend.

I’m really looking forward to getting some of these actually printed and framed. I’m having so much fun taking pictures. I wish I had a few more people to take pictures of……

I think that what I like about taking pictures is being able to capture “who” someone is. The different sides of someone…..the happy or serious or mischevious side of someone.

This set that I took of Jeremy was probably the easiest set of him that I’ve ever taken. With him, it definately has to be “at the right time” otherwise you are in for a whole lot of frustration and a whole bunch of extremely cruddy pictures.

He took some pretty awesome pictures. This first set is definately worth looking at even if just for the entertainment value – just to see what I have to work with. Click on the picture to see the whole “Goofy Set”

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He is such a little goofball. I love him so SO much! These pictures will show off that quirky side of him…..just to let you know…he was actually “trying” to take good pics with some of these. It’s one of “those things” with ADD – the harder that someone tries to focus on something, the more difficult it is to actually accomplish.

You could see the difference in the photos as he started out “trying” really hard and then the switch when he actually started to relax and just have fun with me…..too funny.

Here are the “real” pictures.

Can you take a look at these and let me know which one(s) you like the best? Thanks so much!

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Again just click on the picture to see the whole set.

Accountability

Hey! I’m jumping on the eleptical right now. I just need to put that out there so that I actually stick to it. I’ve fallen off the exercise bandwagon for the past 3 weeks and am desperate to get back at it. Well, my body says that i’m desperate to get bck at it, but my brain says, “Are you KIDDING me?”

Here it goes!