It’s been about 3 weeks since we had our big head shaving party.
I’ve shaved my head 2 more times since then. I will most likely continue to shave my head until Geli’s hair grows back. This will probably be sometime in the new year. I will be completely honest and say that I’m not looking forward to going through the winter bald…..it’s gonna be some mighty bit cold….we’re probably gonna be running our heater a bit more than normal and I guess that as stupid as I feel I look in hats – I’m gonna be getting some.
I really didn’t think too much about shaving my head when we did it. I knew that the possibility was that Geli would be losing her hair at some point but I hadn’t given much more thought to it all except that I knew that when it happened, that I’d shave my head too.
I watched her hair slowly start to fall out hair by hair and then it started to come out in hand fulls. Every morning it seemed there was a bigger handful and her pony tails got thinner and thinner.
I don’t know exactly what she was thinking as she experienced her hair falling out, all I know is that I desperately wanted her to not feel weird or uncomfortable or goofy looking or odd or different or any of the other thoughts that might run through a teenage girls head regarding her hair or lack thereof. I am her mother and I think that Angelica is beautiful. I see the beauty in her face, in the sweet almond shape of her almost black colored eyes, and the high curve of her cheekbones. Her dimples are amazing and her smile is so sweet with such beautifully colored lips. She is beautiful.
But…..her beauty goes so much further than that….she has a beautiful nature and spirit. She is lovely both on the inside and out.
Now even though we’d had conversations in the past about not being defined by how you look, but by who you are……talking about that and living it are two totally different things.
Here we are at a time in Geli’s life when looks could becoming more important. She’s heading into her teenage years and so often kids just want to fit in. There are so few who truly want to stand out and be “different”. Fortunately for us, Geli’s always kind of walked to the beat of her own drum….but this is taking it all to a whole new level.
You can’t hide bald. Well, you can get a wig…..which Geli has, and I’m just trying to get a good picture of her wearing it. (It’s been day after day of us being too busy, or her not feeling well or the weather being too hot……..do you have any idea how hot it is to wear a wig??? They even sell these little gel bands that you can wear under wigs to keep your head cooler on hotter days! Crazy!) But even with the wig on……you can’t just “do it” like you did your own hair. Especially if you wore your hair up in tight little ponytails mostly every day.
But, your other options are to wear a hat, or a scarf or…..to just wear your baldness out there…
I’ve chosen to just be bald. I want this whole “bald thing” to be as normal as it can possibly be. Or maybe I want the baldness to be a non factor or as much of a non-factor as it can possibly be.
Geli is completely comfortable in her scarves….she’s been wearing them forever and it feels “normal” for her to wear them. She’s also gone just bald too and has worn her wig as well. I’m hoping that the whole “hair” thing will just become a non-factor for our family. I can see us wearing hats, scarves, wigs, flower headbands, and…nothing and choosing to do it depending on our mood or our outfit….more like accessorizing, if you will.
I wore a blue wig out to the mall the other day.
It’s so interesting to be bald. You get so many looks but very few people just ask why? I feel so much more “normal” bald, and to put the blue wig on…I felt so conspicuous….which believe me….blue wig or bald….when you’re 5 foot 10 inches tall….either stands out in a fairly big way.
I can’t help but think about it as I go about our small community. I stand out. I’m not even trying to cover it up. I do wonder if people see beyond the bald head. Do they see me, the person? I know that even at my exercise class there are people who have not recognized me yet? They have not been able to see beyond the baldness. I wonder to whom I’ve done the same thing. What have I not been able to see beyond? All of this really makes you think.
But….if I can even if just in a small measure make this a tiny bit more “acceptable” because believe me…this is not normal – then all is good.
Now, it’s not all bad being bald.
We’ve discovered that there are some amazing perks to being bald.
I can shower anytime day or night and it is so easy because there is no hair to wash or dye or style? It’s just in and out and done! AWESOME!
When I get up in the morning to get ready! Dressed, make up and DONE! Literally 10 mins or less! so SO AWESOME!
There is no more worrying about messing my hair up when I pull a shirt or sweater over my head…..the first two weeks were so funny as I’d stretch the necks of my shirts out really big to avoid messing up my hair….and then I’d realize that I had no hair to mess up…
I don’t have to carry bobby pins or elastics or clips around with me any more.
There is no hair for the baby to puke in or grab. (Which is then even more fabulous because then I don’t have to take a shower to deal with the baby puke in the hair)
I’m not trying to get my hot, sticky, sweaty hair off my neck in the summer heat.
I’m considerably cooler this summer.
I can wash my face in the evening and there is no hair to hold or pin back and no worries about getting soap or water in it.
I can put moisturizer on my face without needing to pin my hair back or worrying about getting cream in my hair…in fact, I just rub my moisturizer right into my scalp and whatever little hair there is…..can always use a little extra moisturizer, eh?
I only need one towel after a shower. I don’t need the second one for my hair. Cuts down on laundry, eh?
I’m sure there are tons more Positives about being bald…..or even just interesting facts…..
Are you bald? Have you been bald? Do you have anything interesting to add to this post? Leave a comment if you can think of any other positive or interesting things about being bald….